Now I'm working a slacker retail job that feels like a better fit for me, at least for now.
Hey Simco, I just read this. First of all, congratulations on your new job. Second, I hope that the talk with your dad goes as well as possible.
Now... I know that this is
way easier said than done but,
PLEASE don't ever put yourself down for the job that you do, unless you're a drug dealer or a pimp!!! You are being a productive member of society. Not only that, but you are doing it while also working on your recovery (not to mention supporting everyone here with ours), which can be a full-time "job" in itself.
In 2004 I left a fairly high-ranking corporate position that I had worked nearly ten years to obtain for various reasons, mainly pertaining to my addiction, depression, anxiety and family problems. But also, I felt as though the job was turning me into somebody that I didn't want to be. That, coupled with the unbelievable stress of my workload, made me realize that no amount of money (which wasn't
that great anyway) or prestige would do me any good if I ended up bleeding to death from stomach ulcers or drooling in a rubber room somewhere!
I won't bore you with the details, but I took some time off from work and eventually, yes... ended up back in a minimum-wage retail job again. Every time that people say things like, "OMG, you're [x] years old and you work
where?", I want to scream my friggin' balls off! PLEASE try to hold your head up high.
As far as your dad is concerned, we will
always feel like little kids around our parents. I just look at that as a sign of respect towards them. I am almost 50 years old and still cannot smoke a cigarette in front of my mom! My friend is 65 and he is the same exact way.
Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer