hell yeah simco! a day without using any mind altering chemicals is always a happy day!
I'm dealing with something, I got the chance to help a homeless woman the other night, she was in pretty rough shape, wearing flipflops with no socks (in the 30s here), I helped her. I gave her 2x pairs of socks, a blanket, long sleeved shirt, gloves, and a hand warmer. then one of the guys that stays at the same recovery place as me comes up to me and was like 'you know that she comes in here once a week or so asking for shit', and i'm like 'no, i did not', and the guy had the nerve to say that I was being her bitch by running back and forth gathering those things for her. If I were in the madness I would have got high over it, I was able to tell the jerk that it wasn't her I was helping, it was me. The guy looked at me like I just said some profound shit about life, and he just said 'well okay then, i'm glad your okay', I was able to walk away from him and really glad I did, because I was able to put the thought into his mind that helping others isn't for the other person.
Anyways, now thats out. I've been busy working on my sex inventory (4th step), and my sponsor has me doing it a lot differently then the place i'm at wants. the people at 'the hab' i'll call it. have me doing it some type of way, and my sponsor wants me to get to the gritty shit, like instead of drawing a couple columns, he has me damn near writing a page front and back about the relationship. Which is good because I'm really seeing my part, and who all I hurt while in the relationship(even tho alot of those relationships were 1night stands). My 4th step is over 30 pages, and I'm not even done yet. I still have Social & Security next, and character defects after that.
Today, I am grateful that I am able to help others, and not want anything in return.