BomBayAndChips
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Oct 21, 2016
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- 18
rollling with the old lady:]]]]]
rollling with the old lady:]]]]]
Depends on the old lady in question..
I am most afraid that they will see it as somehow their fault, that they have somehow let me down. And it so isn't their, or anybody's fault.When the time is right you will Julie - are you not telling them to protect them or yourself? Are you afraid of rejection or hurting or even the fear of disappointing them?
Sometimes people need a little push. It's something I've got at least to think about, sooner rather than later.I know it is non of my business - I'm just curious after thinking the same way about myself for so many years.
Having the last crack session before a break at least until Christmas. Yeah Yeah, heard it all before. Have taken the necessary steps to prevent access ie tell the man that I'm deleting his number & not to serve me for at least a month & tell people that could give me the number not to give it to me & deleted all traces. He's sound enough to understand & not tempt & it's a half hour drive away & I would never just turn up. This has been needed for months but I've only just felt ready to do it (It's easy to feel ready with a pipe in your hand, but I'd made the decision before I scored yesterday) Crack now, fireworks later!
I won't - there'll still be some left tomorrow hehe (I bought coke & am washing it up in stages & opportunities)...the last sorry scrapings will be done by the evening I estimate, and then....things will not be accessible and I have waited far longer than was sensible/sane to halt, but I haven't been ready until now, and now I am and we'll just have to see what happens...Yeh right. You'll be back tomorrow...
Ha cheers. I've been in this position a couple of times before over the past 20 or so years (& just typed a whole post for it to disappear - that'll teach me to 'go advanced') and I'm fine when access (crackcess?) is denied. I've managed the last few years with occasional treats after a previous couple of problematic episodes and apart from the occasional devastating crack dream (waking just as the rock is melting & I'm about to inhale) that comes when I first stop, it's all good. Luckily I have absolutely no desire for brown any more at all; I only enjoyed it when I had a habit & it made me feel normal, hated the actual effects duh!I found crack a major bitch to quit. Was still finding excuses to get a lift into town with a few hundred in my pocket borrowed from parents to pay off "debts" for weeks after I left the town I was living in at the height of my addictions. Taking advantage of long-suffering parents even as I neared my third decade to continue sucking on the pipe and hitting the veins I'd long since stopped really feeling remains a great reminder of why I did (eventually) quit the stuff. Still crave the white waaaaay more than the brown all these years later
But ignore my failings - best of luck, Coach Vacationer
Crack is whack yo
You're right Kingbro!