ReluctantUser
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Oct 16, 2015
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Greetings all, this is my first post. First off I am an alcoholic and rather a garbage head when the occasion arises. Several weeks ago I posted on FB my suicide note, but my aunt walked in my house while in the act and the police prevented the situation. I have been looking for a painless way to do this as my father just passed and my mother is in the hospital and may soon suffer the same fate. I have suffered from MDD for years and it has only gotten worse with my alcoholism and drug abuse. I will not bother posting my entire suicide note here as it was not as poetic as I planned as it was written in haste. I am still undecided on the issue, but if my mother passes, I will be homeless and left with nothing; making it the most logical solution for me. I would like to know (I have looked up several LD50's of the drugs I possess) if anyone knows a cheap way to make my transition. I have several Benzo's, blood pressure meds, and that's all I can think of that will do the trick aside from adding tons of alcohol. Also I may be going to jail in several weeks and if that is the case, would like to do it before then. My entire family except one hate me and is afraid of me in my altered states. I would appreciate any known methods of euthanasia and not a lecture on how I should stay living. I have never posted here, so hope this is the place to do this. I don't want a lecture, simply advice. I have heard a proper hanging is a good method, but think I would prefer and overdose of a kind. Thanks in advance, and I may change my mind about this if my mother lives through what she is going through. This is not definite, I am simply looking for ideas. The post I wanted to comment on was closed, so I hope this one will not be before I get some input. Thank you.