Loperamide is a cousin of fent... Thought I'd throw that little nugget of info in there, but don't get u high so no crazy ideas kiddos
Hi cj, tpd...Been a rough time mentally the last 24 hours, anxiety is at a fever pitch, but otherwise no physical withdrawals.... tapering the lope, but I got cocky and went over 24 hours without dosing and started dts...Handful Imodium took care of that, but the terrifying panic and sense of doom remains....Broke the points off the 4 rigs I have with me in my kit, dropped em down the barrel and put the plunger back down then tossed em (this alleviates the (likely?) possibility of digging them out of the trash...So, having done that and feeling triumphant, I find a forgotten emergency LOADED cotton cache, and tumbling down the rabbit hole I go, panic ensues as I try and find a long lost rig, maybe at the bottom of my purse? just cottons, right, it will take this anxiety away, make me sleep peacefully, etc etc...All those bargaining chips and logical reasoning for using run in a loop....Still trying to get out of the hole, but so far have resisted urge to take the truck to Walgreens or my dad's house (my bedroom there is a veritable gold mine of needles and other paraphernalia...So I guess I'm on the right track....I just can't handle the trapped, imprisoned feeling of doing this while institutionalized in a typical rehab-type setting....