xbandit07x
Bluelighter
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- Aug 19, 2016
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The ego is to be enjoyed for the evil that it is as apart of human nature. Just don't abuse it or ya goin to hell.
being a character is fun and I only achieve that state on Dexamphetamine with pot where it's amusing to be myself. It's always isolating if you don't socialize but riveting if you do. Your ego fantasies are fun as long as you know there worthlessness.
Ego is not useless, it's just always outmatched and at the mercy of God. You can only enjoy your ego when you know your weak to god otherwise it's an ugly ego.
I was born without an Ego, so Amphetamine is the biggest psychedelic to me, and acid feels like nothing at any dose but visualization changes.
Since birth, I wouldn't connect to the material unnatural world or understand why we have to be "identities".
When I take enough Dexedrine to raise material ego, il become the narcissistic generic identity of some generic prince of power and lust to my peers.
I find any ego to be fake so to me 90% of the population all are hallucinating that they are some special identity or bounded self.
I am only a creation of God as we all are. We are all children because we have no capacity to handle power.
To be authentic is to have no ego but also no pride,
The buddah has no Ego but he's full of Pride, Pride is a Lot better than Ego, but still it's not truth.
Our Ego is a reality I can't see how anybody inhabits off of some drug, because isn't just living as a humble creation of God or an earthly Human race on earth preferable from the fish eyed point of view of being some arbitrary identity?
being a character is fun and I only achieve that state on Dexamphetamine with pot where it's amusing to be myself. It's always isolating if you don't socialize but riveting if you do. Your ego fantasies are fun as long as you know there worthlessness.
Ego is not useless, it's just always outmatched and at the mercy of God. You can only enjoy your ego when you know your weak to god otherwise it's an ugly ego.
I was born without an Ego, so Amphetamine is the biggest psychedelic to me, and acid feels like nothing at any dose but visualization changes.
Since birth, I wouldn't connect to the material unnatural world or understand why we have to be "identities".
When I take enough Dexedrine to raise material ego, il become the narcissistic generic identity of some generic prince of power and lust to my peers.
I find any ego to be fake so to me 90% of the population all are hallucinating that they are some special identity or bounded self.
I am only a creation of God as we all are. We are all children because we have no capacity to handle power.
To be authentic is to have no ego but also no pride,
The buddah has no Ego but he's full of Pride, Pride is a Lot better than Ego, but still it's not truth.
Our Ego is a reality I can't see how anybody inhabits off of some drug, because isn't just living as a humble creation of God or an earthly Human race on earth preferable from the fish eyed point of view of being some arbitrary identity?