MisterNotSoClean
Bluelighter
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Thank ya TPD for elaborating. I've got diarrhea fingers I guess :/
Hope you are still ok!Doing OK. Feel somewhat like a person. Just got to the bday party and made the mistake of eating so now I just wanna go to sleep.
But all in all, doin well all things considered. Still have to stay another few hours so we shall see.
MisterNotSoClean, my transition from methadone to suboxone was pretty easy, I tapered my dose down over a period of many years, I was down to 17.5mg of done when I swapped.
I had to wait until the 3rd day after my last dose which wasn't much fun but when I had my first dose of sub it was pretty much instant relief.
I will second what toothpastedog said though, when I first went on the program sub would not have worked for me, I was going in and out of prison and putting my health at risk using iv heroin, the methadone was what I needed at the time and it probably saved my life.
My goal is to get of the program entirely, planning on tapering as low as possible and then making the jump.
You might find the amino's helpful,
if you can find a good essential amino acidblend, it will contain L-phenylalanine which converts into L-tyrosine in the body.
I have read about people using L-tyrosine with good results as it is very effective at increasing dopamine production.
Using L-tyrosine directly can be a bit tricky though, if you use to much it can give you the shakes, which is why I would rather use an essential amino blend.
Anyway, wishing you the best with your journey.
Nice pic below! Dude, you're doing so fuckin good! Today I woke up and drug my ass on a 5 minute jog before work just to see if I can start a new habitIt's been a good/bad past few days, so figured I'd update
So for the past couple days I am having trouble sleeping what feels like for no reason. I lay down and no rls because my legs are on fire (I'll get to that in a minute) and my back has been fine the past few nights. So a super tired, no rls, cramps, or back pain MisterNotSoClean + nice comfy bed = glorious nights sleep... right?
My logic is apparently flawed as when I hit the bed I feel it is swallowing me into its cushiony embrace. All is right with the world in that moment... but it's like I just lay there... staring into total darkness... never getting to that point right before you fall asleep. Atleast not until about 7am and then I will wake up about 9am. That seems to be my new norm. BUT... at least when I do sleep it feels like I'm for real sleeping... For some reason though I've dreamed of nothing but bees. Honey bees specifically. I'm not particularly afraid of them and I don't have some weird honey fetish that I'm aware of but for some reason I dream about being surrounded by bees. Freaking weird.
So that's mainly the bad part. The good seems to be my overall energy is going up a bit albeit it's as if I'm just getting used to forcing myself to do shit. (Still haven't done the rest of the lawn if you are wondering)
Yesterday and today I figured maybe I can absolutely physically exhaust myself and I will sleep. So I finally went to the Audubon (nature park )close to my house. Essentially the trail goes up about 300ft in elevation up to a ridge and makes a huge loop around a valley. In total all the trails are about 4 miles combined. Yesterday I walked all of them in about 4 hours. I felt like a complete zombie about half a mile in. But that first half mile is most of the elevation change so I said "fuck going back down now" So I walked the loop and then took a 30 minute siesta at the end of the loop on a bench. Managed to make it back down without dying.
So that night I was excited because I felt like I was going to pass out on my feet. I laid down and... nothing... damnit.
So today, after going to bed at 7am and aging waking up at 9am I told myself I will go until I can't. I got there at about 11am and started up the ridge. This time I felt winded and tired a half mile in but once I got to wherensure the elevation stabilized I felt halfway decent and somewhat like a person. So I walked... and walked... watched a tree snake catch and eat a praying mantis which was awesome... walked some more... and then walked a little more. So I had gone 2 and 1/2 times around the ridge before my right knee just up and said "Fuck you asshole" and up and just died on me. Luckily I came prepared for that possibility and had my knee brace. Slapped it on and away I went. Finished the 3rd loop at about 4pm... Again made it down without dying. So I only did the loop but the loop itself is 2.5 miles. So ended up walking about 8 miles total.
I got home, showered, ate 3 sandwiches, a bowl of cereal and then melted some pepper jack on some turkey and ate that. I laid down about 10ish. I have absolutely no rls to speak of and the muscle soreness is kinda burny but that I can sleep with. But again, I can't seem to hit that point where I fall asleep. I'm all comfy and whatnot but just can't sleep.
When I saw my doc on Tues he gave me a script for ambien. I still haven't filled it and really don't want to but I may if I can't sleep again tonight. We shall see.
In conclusion, I don't think I will be able to exhaust myself to sleep but walking and hiking that much has helped my energy go up a bit and today especially I felt pretty good mentally. I still really would like to sleep. Oh and like I said the rls was absolutely killed by the muscle soreness which is totally awesome. Unfortunately, after today I think I need to tap the breaks on the hikingness as my legs need a day off.
But if the rls returns, I know what to do.
~MisterNotSoClean~