why i don't get happy feeling while i am high on drugs?

[nobodycares]

hi everyone. I try some stimulant drugs not that long ago and i didn't like it at all. Like i got high of the drugs but i was expecting different high. Like i remember me trying doing crack first time and i thought i would be super energetic and productive but no. It make me to wake up but i was super relax and just wanted to talk. I just wanted to sit at the park and talk about stupid stuff. I felt like i was on weed and some very strong coffee that make me awake. Then i try some meth with my friend and i felt horrible. Like i had hella different effects. I was super sleepy and super depress while i was high on meth. Like i was judging myself for wasting money and time on this and i also was thinking how my shitty my life was and i strted to remember all the bad thinks that happen to me while my friends felt happy. I told my friends about my feeling and they told me to do more and i ended up smoking smoking another meth bag that we bought for no price.it was like one of those 1 gram weed bugs. The bug was around half way full. THen one of the mgk songs started to play about his teens years or something like that i forgot the name of it and i felt so relative to that song i just started to cry and then i plug my own music and start listening about some other songs and i just fall a sleep. I try doing meth 2-3 more times and same thing. My friends say it happens because i have ADHD but i am not even sure what ADHD are i am foreing and doctors don't really look at mental disorders. The only thing that i kind of enjoy was doing molly and once it kicked in i smoked some weed and i was a bit hallucinating and kind of dancing, i don't really remember my mode but i think my mode was the same as on weed. So can anyone tell me what is wrong with me? Molly don't really makes me happy but not sad also. It makes me wonna dance and i makes me feel like in normal mood and also i don't feel like i love everyone or something like that.

 

[xbandit07x]

because more than likely too little dopamine and or Serotonin is not what makes you unhappy on a regular basis. Judgement and shame type feelings increase when Dopamine rises, because innocent /endorphin/(opiod) type feelings of the brain lower. A stimulant makes you capable of seeing your own ego more clearly which if you are unhappy the ego(dopamine) becomes a tiring, sedated, guilty feeling.

Thats why they say never take opiates or Heroin because its the only drug that corrects feelings of guilt. That is what other drugs cannot do. Opiates are like a guiltless childlike happiness because it combines the same type of dopamine you'd get from stimulants, with endorphin to null all feelings of guilt or wrongdoing that make you awkward on meth or regular amp.

Because without endorphins, even MDMA which also raises Serotonin, feels just more like just a boost in stature, inter-human love is a euphoria based on endorphin/oxytocin, where you accept yourself first.

 

[MrRoot]

Seems like you have some kind of theory behind those claims xbandit07x?

 

[Burnt Offerings]

^ it's a cute theory but unfortunately it's complete bullshit

Judgement and shame rises when dopamine increases? Tell that to all the tweakers who jerk off for 10 consecutive hours to tranny porn, LOL

Anyway, to the OP's question: it is very possible that you do in fact have some kind of ADHD-type issue. One of my friends is also diagnosed ADD/ADHD and he would often become very introspective/morose and almost sedated when we'd do (meth)amphetamines.

 

[xbandit07x]

http://www.bakadesuyo.com/2015/09/make-you-happy-2/

Do I have to cite everything I say?

"Despite their differences, pride, shame, and guilt all activate similar neural circuits, including the dorsomedial prefrontal cortex, amygdala, insula, and the nucleus accumbens. Interestingly, pride is the most powerful of these emotions at triggering activity in these regions — except in the nucleus accumbens, where guilt and shame win out. This explains why it can be so appealing to heap guilt and shame on ourselves — they’re activating the brain’s reward center."

This makes total sense, because although dopamine feels good, it makes your thoughts convey back to your own self important perspective. So when you have low GABA stimulants make you feel anxious, low endorphins you feel just like a bastard of a guy kinda like the OP, low Serotonin youd feel quiet and meek on stimulants and anti social. But something like Heroin covers both dopamine and endorphin so it has the sedation like stimulants to a hyperactive mind with floaty worry less endorphin to not feel like the OP. Opiates are a better ADD med if you read accounts from the 1800s when many middle and upper class people were daily IV opium users, they described it exactly how we today hoped to describe ADHD medication.

This is just the psychology behind the science.

 

[xbandit07x]

^ it's a cute theory but unfortunately it's complete bullshit

Judgement and shame rises when dopamine increases? Tell that to all the tweakers who jerk off for 10 consecutive hours to tranny porn, LOL

Anyway, to the OP's question: it is very possible that you do in fact have some kind of ADHD-type issue. One of my friends is also diagnosed ADD/ADHD and he would often become very introspective/morose and almost sedated when we'd do (meth)amphetamines.

Because it is satisfying to be a dirty jacking off slob to atleast me, but you know you're kind of just being odd deep down. Kinda like whores and sluts, they live on some dopamine motor and get degraded but have fake confidence with their victim guilt complex underneath. All borderline bitches seem like normal girls on heroin at first. Ive known 3 crazy sloots diagnosed with BPD and every other drug made them half a wacko but they seemed like normal people on dope. (None were very addicted to it yet to go full terrible)

But also, not everybody who does Meth has an endorphin deficiency. If you do not normally give a phuck and are happy with yourself that shouldn't even cross your mind jacking off 10 times on Meth.

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Drugs effect everyone differently. I know people who when they smoke pot they would get extremely tired and bored, and some who even fall asleep on it.

One of my friends who had rolled on MDMA/MDA three times said how the one pill he took made him hallucinate and feel as though he was rolling or high on MDMA so I guess it was MDA.

 

[Artemisia]

I've had some vivid OEVs while on something supposedly MDMA but it wasn't tested so I can't really know.

OP could check into set & setting for drugs. It affects a lot where, when and how you do them. I don't get anything out of opiates unless I really focus into it and it wasn't about the dose as I did 80mg oxycodone within few hours when I first tried opiates.

 

[bipolar-sunshine]

Tolerance is a bitch bro.

 

[darknexus]

Same thing happens to me on meth and molly. I get the psychedelic side of both drugs, even caffeine. They tell me I'm shit. Don't get down on yourself. People who get geeked have nothing spiritual to offer. you're one of the star children, you have spiritual shit to offer. This is why your friends keep you around and give you material shit, you pay so much with love that they ought to or else the guilt will eat them alive. Keep living this way, It's better. Like I said, people who run away have nothing spiritual to offer. Learn to enjoy the material things in life, and get some shrooms, except only take a fraction of what your friends take, you'll get hit way harder.

 

[bipolar-sunshine]

Take a break from what you're doing for a week or two or even a month or two. It will help your tolerance, which will allow you to feel the desired affect more.

 

[Ilove2nod]

Hey nobodycares, NO BODY CARES! Actually I am just playing with you... hahaha. We do care, at least I know I do.. Anyways, yes take your self a little break if possible, the longer you can hold out the happier you will become with your next experience... I don't know everyone has different reactions to drugs, tolerance, dosage, etc. none of us are the same! Hope you figure this out, and get the happy feeling you used to get before again. Be safe, and good luck!

Also I have ADHD and stimulant drugs do have this weird sort of calming sensation. It is like when I smoke crack or take some Adderall any of that, I calm down, but get extremely focused on shit and tons of motivation, with Adderall at least. Sometimes with crack or coke I space out, while being slowed down feeling and either get real focused and paranoid about shit, or get really happy and just have a conversation or do something fun until the dreaded comedown arrives, then I am feinding for more until I take a benzo or some kind of downer to bring me down easier, or just go and get more coke/crack and keep doing it which sometimes also happens if I have a lot of money to blow. I think if you take a vacation from all drugs like this for a while you might like them, or you might need to see a psych for ADHD as it could be that is your problem. I lived with it for 25 years before knowing I actually had it for real.