phactor
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 13, 2002
- Messages
- 5,107
So apparently I have 2 years, 3 months and 18 days clean.
I am sorry I disappeared on everyone. My life got very busy and I have many stories to tell. Ended up getting another girlfriend and went through another breakup/off and on off and on period on top of it all again (a younger latina from the Southside of Chicago man what a rollercoaster ) as well. Haha, life lessons life lessons. Women/sex really have become an issue for me and when I was using I didn't really care. I have to really be conscious of it nowadays, to the point where I am forcing myself to stay out of a relationship for awhile.
Its amazing what pops up for us during sobriety, so many highs and so many lows. What I can say is that getting clean was the best decision I have ever made and my worst day clean is better then my best day high. Also, my family relationships have been restored and it is such a joy to watch my niece and nephews grow. Hopefully some day I have a child of my own because I know I can be a great dad.
I am going to try to become more involved again. I am starting an internship at a chemical dependency unit and am so close to finally being done with grad school (there have been some major hangups but its all resolved). I have been through the steps twice, once in NA and once in AA (which is my primary fellowship now that I am in Chicago).
I am sorry I disappeared on everyone. My life got very busy and I have many stories to tell. Ended up getting another girlfriend and went through another breakup/off and on off and on period on top of it all again (a younger latina from the Southside of Chicago man what a rollercoaster ) as well. Haha, life lessons life lessons. Women/sex really have become an issue for me and when I was using I didn't really care. I have to really be conscious of it nowadays, to the point where I am forcing myself to stay out of a relationship for awhile.
Its amazing what pops up for us during sobriety, so many highs and so many lows. What I can say is that getting clean was the best decision I have ever made and my worst day clean is better then my best day high. Also, my family relationships have been restored and it is such a joy to watch my niece and nephews grow. Hopefully some day I have a child of my own because I know I can be a great dad.
I am going to try to become more involved again. I am starting an internship at a chemical dependency unit and am so close to finally being done with grad school (there have been some major hangups but its all resolved). I have been through the steps twice, once in NA and once in AA (which is my primary fellowship now that I am in Chicago).