What up, PD? Been a while. I'm making some big life transitions in the coming weeks - leaving lawl school, moving back to either Austin or Cali, and trying to get back into tech. Not sure on the details yet, but not being a law student anymore feels like getting fuckin' paroled, so I'm pretty sure I made the right decision. I was good at studying law, but I hated it, and I didn't actually want to be a lawyer. Too bad it took me a couple years to figure that out, but shit happens.
Ironically enough, I've been using etiz for the first time recently, to help get through a brief (but not brief enough to avoid w/d) relapse with fent. I'm really glad I don't get any recreational value out of benzos that I don't also get from alcohol, but I'm still making sure to keep doses low and skip or lower the dose for a day periodically, cuz benzo w/d sucks pretty hard too. Copious weed use certainly helps
Once I get my shit a little more figured out, I get to move into the psychedelic introspection phase of my little self-med ritual.
Oh, and a definite +1 on the phenibut suggestion. Used it pretty frequently as an undergrad. If you push the dose too high, it can feel a bit like being tipsy, or mildly benzo-numbed, but at the right dose it's great. Come to think of it, I have a bag lying around somewhere... Maybe I should try using that daily and etiz only for immediate symptom relief on really shitty days. Gotta be careful mixing the two, though, as the effects are synergistic... Psychopharmacological engineering is tricky.