Fug I want to genuinely thank you For some help m advice you offered me awhile back. I've re-read an old E-mail from you a few times now n it's very wise n although it was blunt it was lovely that you took the time to write that for me I won't forget that. When people do little things like that they are a huge thing if I'm making sense.
Hang on can I just ask people a favour I'm trying to get a hold on changing my posting style so can people bare with me please be patient n gentle with me but honest. Ok please tell me if I'm annoying any of you at any time. As difficult as I find it, n I do struggle with it, I need to learn to take criticism as it's not far on you all if I ignore things that are upsetting the reat of you (feel extremely guilty over it to be honest) anyway I'm not yet going to apologise as a wise---or should I say a few wise people keep saying---is not words, we want actions.
So just want to aak could people give me constructive criticism. I know I struggle with it n often mistaking it as an attack, but if I'm ever to properly integrate with you all I need tp listen to you n to the things I don't wish to hear as well as the things I'm ok with. Just think if I'm honest witg you all. Truly admit what I find difficult n ask for your honesty, maybe things can progress better. I'd like to work as a team on this.
I must have been a complete nightmare on here at times n I am deeply n truly sorry for that. Hope you can accept me n know that I really am trying because I've had my eyes opened to things I've been doing n I am sincerely sorry (I said I wasn't going to apologise yet, oh well I truly mean it). I'm sorry I didn't listen to you all I truly am. Like i said I wasn't going to say anything but I don't want to make a mistake for people to think I'm trying to irk people n I want you all to feel you can tell me if I'm annoying. I really do have to take responsibility here n things that happened were large down to me for burying my heas in the sand. I read back an old message from Allein which was blunt n I was angry at the time but every word he wrote was true even though it was blunt I hope I can thank him for taking the time to wrote those words someday.. Right I better get off to volunteering as I don't want to be sacked x
Evey
PS: I really am trying to be a better member - wish to help make this a positive harmonising place to be. I truly love of you