And Scatterday...your comments about weed remind me of something I have noticed. Lots of the LTC threads involve mixing MDMA and weed, or smoking weed shortly after the MDMA experience. Makes me wonder if there is a connection. I have seen some people go off the rails after heavy marijuana use. When you said you were hospitalized when you stopped smoking, I am curious what you were hospitalized for. Was it anxiety/depression and similar to LTC?
I smoked cannabis via a bong from the ages of 13-18ish heavily, Stopped and started 3 times between the years mentioned. I believe what you're claiming about the LTC's have no connection with cannabis at all, Subjective opinions of course.
All the hospitalisations were as a result of withdrawal symptoms, Folks say there's no withdrawal symptoms from cannabis but that's a lie if you're a heavy user.
Symptoms included feeling body organs and pains inside my body that weren't real. (I could feel what I believed to be my liver and just an uncomfortable feeling in that area which in the following few days had some blood work done and everything came back fine. Liver and kidneys were functioning perfectly and the doctors said they wouldn't have known I was a cigarette smoker if I hadn't had told them, Stopped smoking 5-6 years ago and took up using electronic cigarettes instead. Haven't felt healthier since. Senses of taste and smell have increased which is fantastic.)
One of the hospitalisations included thoughts of skin cancer on my neck. The doctor told me not to worry because it was cannabis withdrawals causing these "fake" pains. (due to the withdrawal symtoms) where I could feel this uncomfortable feeling where this mole was. (Had that checked out and there was no signs or indications of skin cancer). Thoughts of death were another regular occurence which is when the doctors first prescribed me temazepam for the anxiety but unfortunately now temazepam isn't strong enough.
The first time I stopped smoking cannabis and picked the habit back up again, It was just never the same I used to smoke to feel normal and would enjoy working a 12 hour shift and unwinding with a bong, Not much beat that feeling. I couldn't enjoy it anymore though and would feel like there was a pressure like feeling in my head like my brain was expanding and throbbing, Extreme paranoia, Anxiety ect. Getting too high would feel uncomfortable where as prior I could smoke until the point of almost "greening out" and still enjoy it.
Experimented with it lately multiple times and I have enjoyed it with a friend but I've left it at that and learnt never to abuse it again. Cannabis with old school MDMA was the perfect chill out/comedown drug if you would call it that because it would extend the experience and eventually bring you back to earth gently from the amphetamine high.
I firmly believe now I have a neurotransmitter imbalance because of abusing cannabis on a growing adolescent brain.
For 7-8 years I've had symptoms of anxiety, agoraphobia, paranoia, mood swings, insomnia, Mild/Rare depression and bowel issues. (caused by the anxiety and agoraphobia). Generalised anxiety disorder (GAD) pretty much sums up most of it but the damage was definitely done by the cannabis and I'm sure.
If you've heard of PGR cannabis that's what I was unaware of at the time and I believe I was smoking plenty of it which lead to the statements above. Now I'm very picky with cannabis if I smoke it.
What worries me most is most of these symptoms above are/can be lifelong and never disappear this is why xanax and old school MDMA not used in conjunction with eachother (Maybe on the comedown but we used to smoke cannabis to potentiate the MDMA high for an extended period of approximately 3-4 hours) are my all time favourite drugs.
Now that I've been introduced to xanax (alprazolam) I feel like I've reconnected with my former self 7-8 years ago before these mental health issues started. I was chatting up a female police officer and cutting her colleagues lunch because I think her male partner fancied her so he threatened me. I knew she loved it too because her face went bright pink and she was fanning herself. She kept looking over at me and smiling. All of this was done on a few xanax tri score bars.
If he wasn't there I was sure I would have got her phone number and had been able to arrange a few dates. Yet to know the female police officer was dating someone who was a regular illicit and pharmaceutical drug user.
Now when I've taken alprazolam I'm always looking for wedding rings because there was another funny incident which I'll explain some other time.
I used to be this confident and be able to speak to women like that normally without any drugs.
Enough about my anyway I get carried away and tend to derail the thread regularly.
Another thought that popped into mind was if you aren't a regular cannabis user (a few times per month) and have access to MDMA you can most likely get cannabis too. Try getting high with some sativa cannabis prior to your experience to see if it potentiates the experience and brings back those lovely feelings or at least parts of them.
There could be several things affecting the way we interpret the feeling produced by MDMA now. Cannabis, Synthesis, Safrole vs piperanol, Isomer ratios, Salts, By-products, Contaminants, Adulterants, Amphetamines.
It's really just all a matter of elimination until we find the source but I find it extremely coincidental around 2008 when the safrole treaty was signed MDMA disappeared then when it returned stronger and more accessible those psychological and physiological feelings weren't the same. Everyone says it no matter who you ask, Just all seems to coincidental if you ask me.
Whenever I used MDMA it was like I was being lifted into the clouds/heaven gently. Now it's this mongy type dirty feeling.
If they claim it's still the same they must never tried an early 2000's era pill or pre 2000 era pill containing MDMA.
Upon remembering I was never a heavy smoker when I consumed MDMA and we would never mix our cannabis with tobacco when rolling which is strange because if we weren't rolling it would always make us cough but we could pack massive bong hits and inhale them like champions and have the MDMA high potentiated even further upon smoking the cannabis.
I always looked after my body preventing neurotoxicity with 5-htp in any way I could. Using it for a while before an MDMA experience then stopping at a certain point before the experience and waiting until after the MDMA was completely gone from my system before I took the 5-htp again.
Piracetam is honestly something worth looking into because on new years back a few years ago taking piracetam daily as recommended definitely changed the experience in a better way.
It felt like as some may say "the magic is gone" but the magic was still there. Still not the same experience as early 2000's era but I'd rate the experience a 6/10 and I'm very fussy when it comes to rating my experiences.
Those purple crowns I linked in one of my last comments I would rate 10/10 without question.
If you read through most of those reports they all mention a "feint/musky/aniseed" type smell but I don't get that smell anymore. It's still resembles aniseed in a way but not the smell I am familiar with.
If you gave me a purple crown (The one I experienced) and a 2018 dutch super strong 300mg MDMA pill I would be able to tell you without touching only smelling and my eyes closed which one the purple crown was.
I mean doesn't it say it's a dead give away when we're getting 300mg pills now with quarter scoring on them when early 2000's era we were getting 100-150mg at most per pill. Something about MDMA has changed. If they're affording to put 300mg of "Pure" MDMA inside pills it makes me wonder how they're cutting costs because they've found a way to do that via cheaper precursors and or synthesis techniques (piperanol I'm looking at you).
I mean even the feeling of the after effects (being scattered as us aussies would say, Which is where "scatterday") the name came from has changed. The hangover type feeling feels different now.