Just finished my 2nd 5th step and it was easily one of the most powerful experiences I have ever had. I will have to get into it more later, but I am so glad I am still working the steps (even after doing "all 12" already). This one left me in sobs of joy and forgiveness.
Also, the ex that I struggled with losing almost a year ago due to her relapsing is still clean and is starting to reach back out to me. Did so last night... very odd timing.
I did get in a brief fling with someone at work but that is over, the sex was fucking phenomenal, but she wanted more then that and I cannot provide it.
Getting very close to One year and 9 months. I have been super busy with work, grad school, meetings and an internship but I am going to try to start posting more regularly again. What I can say is my decision to return to working the 12 steps and committing to total abstinence (and no I am not talking about prescribed meds) has give me the best years of my adult life bar none. BL is full of my attempts to moderate my drinking and using, turns out I cannot. When I think back and realize just how many substances I was hooked on (many physically) it astounds me that I made it. I literally had to ingest chemicals in order from preventing my body from spazzing out and harming itself. And I wasn't someone who got drunk and high every night, but I was someone who had to "maintain" every night. The real shit is when it stops working... then you are really fucked and boy was I.
No V-Day this year, maybe go to some AA event.