I dreamed last night that I found some dope and used. It was not a dream when I woke up this am gear was out and I had used a tiny bit whatever I found only snorted as I had thrown everything out. It was like a dream I was in this room and found an old bindle. What a grip. Anyways my story is junkie for years haven't taken a break since this summer when I did an ibogaine flood that only lasted two weeks but I was very ill when I returned home from Mexico, it was a crazy trip and I lost some time during but had to return home too early due to family matters. So I wasn't able to focus on an aftercare plan. This time I have an appointment set up with an addiction specialist but it's Wednesday, I just decided to put it down this weekend sick and tired of being sick and tired. How far back did I reset? All the way? I will not be defeated, I want this, I'm cleaning out my house today. I need encouragement and I'm fine with honesty. Thanks and hello to all with the courage to be here and help others.