Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
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6 months clean now ! Stay sober Stay clean ! GL all !
Enjoy life
Happy Holidays !
Congratulations!!
6 months clean now ! Stay sober Stay clean ! GL all !
Enjoy life
Happy Holidays !
Tomorrow, 10 months totally sober!! Have won my war with methadone and all opiates + benzodiazepines, etc. 10-15 year's war!!
I still drink coffee and have fun.
One day at a time, always!!
Tomorrow, 10 months totally sober!! Have won my war with methadone and all opiates + benzodiazepines, etc. 10-15 year's war!!
Dito. I have to deal with the fucking att people to get them to come out here and fix the mess they caused when they came to fix the internet and phone lines at my studio, what a pita... they came out to fix it after they installed a new line for my neighbors, when it was sporadically working before (so I don't think it was a line issue before) and whatever their fix was it lasted about 12 hrs and not the connection is totally dead. Thankfully I don't have any work today but argh... :/
I had such a challenging day. Kept at it, one hour at a time.
It really scares me where I need to be in a place where my life needs to managed like that closeau
My buddy n rehab said using and drinking dreams are feebees, lol. That was his method of looking at it.
My friend would always say if you enjoy the using dream, it's a freebie because you didn't actually use.
If the dream repulses you or horrifies you, you're making progress! Hating the drug/memories of it is a great first step toward putting it behind you.
this is so true. From your lips to gods ears captain. Like you closeau I have relapsed after a particularly bad using dream...it was just so real that I had to tempt fate one more time....led to another six months and losing everything yet again. Now I am panic ridden, sweating, and scared when I wake up from a using dream...and lately there has been an aspect of violence added to it that just fuels the panic.