LifeIsStrange
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Urgent helpFrom alcohol addicted. Want get sorber but now on Diclazepam SUPERFASTTAPE
8(Hello forum
It would be a longer story because I want to be drug free.
Had always insomnia btw, but as a child it it is not so irritating.
But now drug taking is boring for me. And you have to use drugs to work like superhero or (Healthiness can do this to. - But unfortunately I did take drugs)
.
Drug story
Learnt the pleasant effects of alcohol (14), cannabis(15), found a while XTC and uppers (17) - over a period of ~ 8 month do-so. Last was 12 years ago is was always smoking sometimes cannabis. For periods I had a good connection - sometimes not.
Sticked first on cannabis -> threat -> alcohol -> threat -> cannabis -> threat or sub nods
Took ca. 15g mxe in my life, everything what grows or make a boom in the brain etc.
Then I made good money in my job -> but I got a real big problem with my shoulder that I cannot work any more on this base - we must operate -> medical care says we operate at Jan 14 and said you can not work any more (Nov 13).
Waiting 3 months, alone, what will I do -> More Loans? No money from health care....
The dark realm
Then I read in the internet from benzos, and ate etizolam and pyrazolam about 3-5 months. I got memory loss and that was one of the main things that want me quit from benzos.
Made the dession throw the benzos all away hold only 2 etizolam and gave it to my mom for real emergencies. And for insomnia I ordered about ~250g Phenibut to make my fight against the withdrawals addiction of the benzo.
Then no money - kicked to the street I went to my parents (Mom and Stepfather) - horrible months (family dependent) and because of that that they do not let me drink no more beer. (But my mom is heavy alcoholic).
Got no money from my parents. Only from my country a few bugs.
The country - I was born, I the country where I learend 2 Jobs, and worked since 14teen.
So you get lethargy and angry but you have to do things. So I begin to drink again. But only the shit one beer that makes you dump and tastes like shit. Paid with pennies.
----- CUT NOW ----
Little depressed now because fighting withdrawl
Found after 8 months a little flat and a good paid job to wash away all the loans in a period of 3 months. But they canceled the project.
... found in a month later a firm that want me. But the job I took was internally time limited (which I did not know and they did not say that...) and let me do the work of three developers (that is my job btw and that's why I drink at there even when I wake up so, stress full was that - no one can take this particular job without going nuts -> alcohol addiction. Got finally after 11 months 6 working days some holiday.
Ordered before 100mg Diclazepam and 25 mg Pyrazolam. Went over the critical days between weekend with Diclaz (to avoid life threatening alcohol withdrawals, delirium etc...).
Fine, went to work again - was finally sober from alcohol (body) and relaxed. Because I know project is done, good job and Christmas time will come. Wanted to making some holiday somewhere on an island. THEN SHOCK! "You will get fired, we have no work any more."
Grabbed my things. Went to the next store and buyed beer. Failure! Was everyday drunk for a week and then rebound gabba.
Okay I think. Now I have a little time do it again (get clean). But problem was I feel energetic, blue sky - so I could all do the stress full things. Must restore my life as quick as possible. Because of loans I have not much money I even haven't paid my flat this month - 2 months and you can be kicked to the street in my country.
So I took longer the stuff - fuck being addicted again. Thought drinking alcohol 3 days to lower benzo level in my blood is a good idea. BUT BIG MISTAKE....
8(Hello forum
It would be a longer story because I want to be drug free.
Had always insomnia btw, but as a child it it is not so irritating.
But now drug taking is boring for me. And you have to use drugs to work like superhero or (Healthiness can do this to. - But unfortunately I did take drugs)
.
Drug story
Learnt the pleasant effects of alcohol (14), cannabis(15), found a while XTC and uppers (17) - over a period of ~ 8 month do-so. Last was 12 years ago is was always smoking sometimes cannabis. For periods I had a good connection - sometimes not.
Sticked first on cannabis -> threat -> alcohol -> threat -> cannabis -> threat or sub nods
Took ca. 15g mxe in my life, everything what grows or make a boom in the brain etc.
Then I made good money in my job -> but I got a real big problem with my shoulder that I cannot work any more on this base - we must operate -> medical care says we operate at Jan 14 and said you can not work any more (Nov 13).
Waiting 3 months, alone, what will I do -> More Loans? No money from health care....
The dark realm
Then I read in the internet from benzos, and ate etizolam and pyrazolam about 3-5 months. I got memory loss and that was one of the main things that want me quit from benzos.
Made the dession throw the benzos all away hold only 2 etizolam and gave it to my mom for real emergencies. And for insomnia I ordered about ~250g Phenibut to make my fight against the withdrawals addiction of the benzo.
Then no money - kicked to the street I went to my parents (Mom and Stepfather) - horrible months (family dependent) and because of that that they do not let me drink no more beer. (But my mom is heavy alcoholic).
Got no money from my parents. Only from my country a few bugs.
The country - I was born, I the country where I learend 2 Jobs, and worked since 14teen.
So you get lethargy and angry but you have to do things. So I begin to drink again. But only the shit one beer that makes you dump and tastes like shit. Paid with pennies.
----- CUT NOW ----
Little depressed now because fighting withdrawl
Found after 8 months a little flat and a good paid job to wash away all the loans in a period of 3 months. But they canceled the project.
... found in a month later a firm that want me. But the job I took was internally time limited (which I did not know and they did not say that...) and let me do the work of three developers (that is my job btw and that's why I drink at there even when I wake up so, stress full was that - no one can take this particular job without going nuts -> alcohol addiction. Got finally after 11 months 6 working days some holiday.
Ordered before 100mg Diclazepam and 25 mg Pyrazolam. Went over the critical days between weekend with Diclaz (to avoid life threatening alcohol withdrawals, delirium etc...).
Fine, went to work again - was finally sober from alcohol (body) and relaxed. Because I know project is done, good job and Christmas time will come. Wanted to making some holiday somewhere on an island. THEN SHOCK! "You will get fired, we have no work any more."
Grabbed my things. Went to the next store and buyed beer. Failure! Was everyday drunk for a week and then rebound gabba.
Okay I think. Now I have a little time do it again (get clean). But problem was I feel energetic, blue sky - so I could all do the stress full things. Must restore my life as quick as possible. Because of loans I have not much money I even haven't paid my flat this month - 2 months and you can be kicked to the street in my country.
So I took longer the stuff - fuck being addicted again. Thought drinking alcohol 3 days to lower benzo level in my blood is a good idea. BUT BIG MISTAKE....
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Still have hat fucking problems before lunch feeling 30 min normal. After that sweaty hands back. I think you should not eat in the first days. But it is a problem if a body turns food into power, he will not detox for 4 hours or so...
