Gauze
Greenlighter
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- Oct 20, 2015
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4 months in jail, just out. 28 with 10 years of living chronically intoxicated because I felt more comfortable drunk( &! At as such maddening state of delirium & panic in the morning)Co-Benzo addiction has raised his nightmare to hellish proportions. Not wishing to write so extreme on my first post but, I believe there is now no return to "normalcy" without hitting he GABA A. Uncomfortable, nervous, panic attacks , paranoid, nightmares and on & on. I would think any wet brain would dumb somebody but not destruct the mind with such bizarre horror.
Is there a line I crossed? Are my options only suicide, living with this double edged blade or tripping with a permanent madness. With 4+mg Alprazolam/clonazapapam or / & two 40s my spirit begins to wake free only to be chained by Bacchus in the morn paying a heavy toll.
Taking 4000+ mg gabapentin & around 260 mg baclofen in the day. not hitting the button. I...is this my doomed fate?
(edit) Wanted to add that I smoked what was thought to be methamphetamine ( moderately experienced) which I do not think it was coz it sent me into a disturbing bad trip. May have contributed.
Is there a line I crossed? Are my options only suicide, living with this double edged blade or tripping with a permanent madness. With 4+mg Alprazolam/clonazapapam or / & two 40s my spirit begins to wake free only to be chained by Bacchus in the morn paying a heavy toll.
Taking 4000+ mg gabapentin & around 260 mg baclofen in the day. not hitting the button. I...is this my doomed fate?
(edit) Wanted to add that I smoked what was thought to be methamphetamine ( moderately experienced) which I do not think it was coz it sent me into a disturbing bad trip. May have contributed.
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