I'm in Salt Lake. I agree with what was said about the unique culture. I think that a lot of people believe it's fine to use anything a doctor prescribes and find out how hard it is when they can no longer get an Rx. Then it's heroin out if desperation.
I feel the judgement is worse here than some places. It's a very lonely life. My family knew I was using a few years back and freaked out. I was using heroin and meth daily and got on methadone for pain which has been a miracle.
The meth is another story. I quit for seven months and rarely got out of bed.I have some chronic health problems and unfortunately use meth to self medicate.
I have been using again mostly every day for year and a half. I have such bad anxiety when I'm running out because my connects have not always been reliable. I just found out my dealer got busted and I'm having panic attacks.
Do other people have severe anxiety when you can't score? Part of me wants to quit because I've never been arrested and the damage could be much worse. I'm terrified of the anxiety. I do keep my use stable and make sure to sleep, eat, etc. Not that that make it good.
Also, only one of my friends knows. It is a strange lonely life. I would love to talk to some people who understand what I'm going through.