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Celibacy

Interesting. I disagree with the concept that sexual release reduces your energy level or power or anything like that. I mean I think it can, certainly, if a person has an unhealthy obsession with sex. But it doesn't work that way for me. When I am having good sex with a good partner, it just adds energy and sparkle and inspiration to my life. I relatively recently was celibate (not by choice but just because it happened that way) when my ex-wife and I broke up, for 2 years. It didn't affect me at first, for actually quite a while, but eventually it became torturous. I felt deprived and frustrated on a daily basis... seeing an attractive woman would send me on a whirlwind of feelings and emotions that was unfulfilled and thus very frustrating. I felt specifically negative from the experience, I felt like it caused me to think about sex a lot MORE, in a way that blocked my natural positive mental/emotional processes very noticeably. I tried to be centered about it, and I was, I mean I didn't freak out or anything, but it just felt unnatural and pointless. I think making love is a fundamental part of the celebration of life, I don't see the point in purposefully depriving yourself unless you feel you have a detrimental obsession with it.

I could be wrong, maybe lack of sexual activity does slowly increase your energy somehow, but I always feel much better and more centered when I have sex in my life. The bond that's shared with another person I care about is a powerful thing that gives me an extra sparkle and sense of confidence and ease.
 
The ancient monks who practiced celibacy were much more spiritual than most of us are. So if they did it, I'm sure there's merit to it.
 
I could be wrong, maybe lack of sexual activity does slowly increase your energy somehow, but I always feel much better and more centered when I have sex in my life. The bond that's shared with another person I care about is a powerful thing that gives me an extra sparkle and sense of confidence and ease.

Don't doubt that for a second. When I've been having regular sex with a partner my mind always feels at ease or that there's been a relief of some mental pressure of some kind. Life seems to put up less resistance. Those orgasms feel like I'm on mdma.. every partner always laughed because I looked like I was tripping.. certainly felt like it. I never masturbated when I had partners. When I've been single and masturbated not only are the orgasms no where near the same, obviously, but I notice a profound difference and detrimental affect on mood and energy levels.. and of course on top of that the itch is not satisfied in the same way as actual sex.
 
The ancient monks who practiced celibacy were much more spiritual than most of us are. So if they did it, I'm sure there's merit to it.

There were probably a portion of those who practiced it for prolonged periods of time who ended up going insane or dying from prostate problems. You're playing around with a powerful mechanism, and of itself that doesn't make one spiritual.. if you achieve a realization, then you're a spiritual person. But simply practicing celibacy doesn't make one spiritual.. it just makes you a person who is temporarily diverting energy for other purposes.. and I think it's a mistake to believe that by practicing celibacy you are somehow spiritual.
 
My closing comment regarding daoism and systems in general is that one should think carefully about placing faith in things they can't see, that rely on subjective experience of sensations in the body or involve visualization.

Like entities?
 
Would you mind sharing more about your experience and journey?

i can try, my thoughts on concrete past events tends to be disjointed and vague.

i believe i came across the concept of seminal retention when i saw this post on taobums, where someone retained for 100 days and it inspired me.
i became a part of the r/nofap community and generally felt okay about the culture and what we were all trying to achieve, it has become a lot more immature as it has grown over time. i would read peoples experience reports there and that would inspire/excite me about what benefits could be attained through a proper streak. i shared a lot of the symptoms of porn/M addiction everyone wanted to recover from "brain fog/depression/anxiety/low confidence/lethargy". it took many months of dozens of efforts to be celibate before i had my first long streak,
a year ago i managed to reach 55 days in total without any release incl nocturnal emissions. during the streak i began to feel alive again, i was more confident in my self even in social situations (i asked a girl out which is something i've never done), i had stronger self-control, eating healthy, exercising daily, not smoking weed or using drugs. meditation practice deepened and was permeating into my daily life leading to a sense of presence in each moment, bringing a real sense of elevation of mood, laughing just at being alive because the world is just beautiful. i could keep eye contact with people (even my parents) and therefore i could connect with other people and maintain conversations better. i could feel my emotions more deeply and was willing to act in real life to reach a conclusion in something i had been putting off for over a year.

i was more fully engaged in life instead of escaping from it, i had a sense of having a strong auric field, almost magnetic where i had a lot more attention from the opposite sex. my skin became very clear, i could reach my ideal image (be beautiful). more receptive to inner bliss, where seeing a busker in the street playing a nice song could lead to me having rushes up my spine and feeling joyful (and this feeling could last for days). more aware of the energy in my body, and ability to direct my attention on it. for a while i felt that there was a lot of energy accumulating at my crown so i would focus on my lower tan tien (2 inches below belly button but inside my body) during the day and this would help me to release it.

i also noticed that my mental clarity was strong and i could keep conversation going easily, i could debate with my mind going at a rapid pace, i could write long bluelight posts quite easily. i think my creativity was also stronger as there was so much energy i could channel into my work.

i felt high on life. at day 55, i was ready to finish, i could also be more argumentative with my family, because i felt like i was overflowing with energy, sparks would fly and i would enjoy debating with anyone simply because it would relieve my mental boredom.

i thought that this whole experience may have provided some instability which provided fertile soil for mania, which came soon after stopping nofap, which lasted for 2 weeks (and i think it was precipitated by an acid trip), led to paranoia->psychosis->mental institutions.

even since then i've always wanted to get a long streak again, because it is easy to connect that habit with me feeling happy. therfore me masturbating/watching porn every day = me being depressed and anxious. i have a similar relationship with meditation. my emotions tend to get the best of me.
 
Like entities?

I'm fortunate/unfortunate to have experienced harassment by entities long before I ever became aware of the concept in my twenties. Kundalini, chakras, sensations, visions, and other stuff I've experienced I could attribute to fantasy or projection having previously read about it.. but the entities thing was there from early childhood, before I even knew what it was.
 
Thanks for sharing that Mysterie. Much appreciated :)

even since then i've always wanted to get a long streak again, because it is easy to connect that habit with me feeling happy. therefore me masturbating/watching porn every day = me being depressed and anxious. i have a similar relationship with meditation. my emotions tend to get the best of me.

Yeh I know that ;) Being British I have the curse of emotional disregulation.. or to be more accurate, 'emotionally retarded' =D
 
Don't doubt that for a second. When I've been having regular sex with a partner my mind always feels at ease or that there's been a relief of some mental pressure of some kind. Life seems to put up less resistance. Those orgasms feel like I'm on mdma.. every partner always laughed because I looked like I was tripping.. certainly felt like it. I never masturbated when I had partners. When I've been single and masturbated not only are the orgasms no where near the same, obviously, but I notice a profound difference and detrimental affect on mood and energy levels.. and of course on top of that the itch is not satisfied in the same way as actual sex.

Yeah that's how I feel too. I just read an article about some studies that were done showing significant health benefits from regular sex (as in, loving sex with another person). Reduced stress and anxiety, reduced depression, benefits to blood pressure, and so on.

i can try, my thoughts on concrete past events tends to be disjointed and vague.

i believe i came across the concept of seminal retention when i saw this post on taobums, where someone retained for 100 days and it inspired me.
i became a part of the r/nofap community and generally felt okay about the culture and what we were all trying to achieve, it has become a lot more immature as it has grown over time. i would read peoples experience reports there and that would inspire/excite me about what benefits could be attained through a proper streak. i shared a lot of the symptoms of porn/M addiction everyone wanted to recover from "brain fog/depression/anxiety/low confidence/lethargy". it took many months of dozens of efforts to be celibate before i had my first long streak,
a year ago i managed to reach 55 days in total without any release incl nocturnal emissions. during the streak i began to feel alive again, i was more confident in my self even in social situations (i asked a girl out which is something i've never done), i had stronger self-control, eating healthy, exercising daily, not smoking weed or using drugs. meditation practice deepened and was permeating into my daily life leading to a sense of presence in each moment, bringing a real sense of elevation of mood, laughing just at being alive because the world is just beautiful. i could keep eye contact with people (even my parents) and therefore i could connect with other people and maintain conversations better. i could feel my emotions more deeply and was willing to act in real life to reach a conclusion in something i had been putting off for over a year.

i was more fully engaged in life instead of escaping from it, i had a sense of having a strong auric field, almost magnetic where i had a lot more attention from the opposite sex. my skin became very clear, i could reach my ideal image (be beautiful). more receptive to inner bliss, where seeing a busker in the street playing a nice song could lead to me having rushes up my spine and feeling joyful (and this feeling could last for days). more aware of the energy in my body, and ability to direct my attention on it. for a while i felt that there was a lot of energy accumulating at my crown so i would focus on my lower tan tien (2 inches below belly button but inside my body) during the day and this would help me to release it.

i also noticed that my mental clarity was strong and i could keep conversation going easily, i could debate with my mind going at a rapid pace, i could write long bluelight posts quite easily. i think my creativity was also stronger as there was so much energy i could channel into my work.

i felt high on life. at day 55, i was ready to finish, i could also be more argumentative with my family, because i felt like i was overflowing with energy, sparks would fly and i would enjoy debating with anyone simply because it would relieve my mental boredom.

i thought that this whole experience may have provided some instability which provided fertile soil for mania, which came soon after stopping nofap, which lasted for 2 weeks (and i think it was precipitated by an acid trip), led to paranoia->psychosis->mental institutions.

even since then i've always wanted to get a long streak again, because it is easy to connect that habit with me feeling happy. therfore me masturbating/watching porn every day = me being depressed and anxious. i have a similar relationship with meditation. my emotions tend to get the best of me.

Thanks for sharing. :) If it's not too much may I say that it sounds like your relationship with sex was (is?) perhaps a negative one. You mentioned addiction to porn and masturbation. I will say that I derive little from masturbation, I do it sometimes if I'm really distractedly horny and my girl isn't around, and of course during periods of time I've not had a girl. You mentioned you couldn't look people in the eyes when you were not being celibate... it seems that maybe your sexual habits made you feel ashamed or something, and by being celibate, you were able to feel better about yourself because you removed that source of shame. Addictions of any kind are soul-crushing. So maybe the benefit you got was from removing an unhealthy sexual practice, rather than from semen retention.

Just some food for thought, hope I didn't offend. :)
 
I'm fortunate/unfortunate to have experienced harassment by entities long before I ever became aware of the concept in my twenties. Kundalini, chakras, sensations, visions, and other stuff I've experienced I could attribute to fantasy or projection having previously read about it.. but the entities thing was there from early childhood, before I even knew what it was.

So you expect me to take your word for it, yet you totally write off my experience of the qi meridians in the body as nothing more than blind faith in the eastern methodology?
 
Thanks for sharing. :) If it's not too much may I say that it sounds like your relationship with sex was (is?) perhaps a negative one. You mentioned addiction to porn and masturbation. I will say that I derive little from masturbation, I do it sometimes if I'm really distractedly horny and my girl isn't around, and of course during periods of time I've not had a girl. You mentioned you couldn't look people in the eyes when you were not being celibate... it seems that maybe your sexual habits made you feel ashamed or something, and by being celibate, you were able to feel better about yourself because you removed that source of shame. Addictions of any kind are soul-crushing. So maybe the benefit you got was from removing an unhealthy sexual practice, rather than from semen retention.

Just some food for thought, hope I didn't offend. :)

i appreciate the comment.
my relationship with sex is and probably has been negative, although not really a conscious or self-directed one. for me celibacy isn't necessarily a self-restriction on me having sex with other people, sex is just something that isn't really on the table for me. i've had nsa sex once, and i enjoyed it, but my tendency is to be shy & avoid rejection. i was brought up by fundamentalist catholic parents who railed into me the sex guilt thing for a long time, but it isn't something i believe myself. there probably is some repressed shame surrounding sex for me, but it would be deeply buried and i am open to everything, i just have a big obstacle in relating and connecting with people socially. i think being able to keep eye contact does have some connection to a release of shame (maybe connected to pornography because i do consider it degrading on some level), but also related to an increase in self-confidence. something about achieving a goal i set for myself, or living according to values i set for myself makes me feel a greater sense of self-worth. i think there was benefit derived from semen retention itself, of course it is very linked too all of the other habits which need to be focused on in order to keep enough momentum to redirect the energy of what is a pretty fundamental human drive, sexual gratification.
i'll keep thinking about it, i know that suppressing sexual desire is not healthy, and neither is overindulging.
 
Am I the only one who finds the idea of 'fappers anonymous' humorous? I understand r/fap is online, but I picture the real world version as a cross between fight club and AA. I suppose there would be a scheduled meeting, in a dimly lit room, where you guys take out the frustration you feel from not fapping on each other and then proceed to hold hands and pray you make it till tomorrow without fapping.

There would bro hugs and fist pumps, laughter and tears, stale coffee in abundance, everything you could imagine excluding the fap.

merveilleux!

several days later...


Am I the only one who finds the idea of 'fappers anonymous' humorous?

 
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I've tried celibacy for around 6 months, I had a mate move over in my studio for a year and I couldn't really masturbate unless I went to the bathroom . Well I did that in the beginning but then I didnt really enjoy it so I just stopped. It wasn't entirely a choice to stop masturbating but it just turned out like that. This was also after a 3 years relationship and I really wanted to spend some time to think about it and also spend some time alone. I was also working a lot and growing lots of weed at the same time so I was kinda super busy with other things. I don't know if I cummed during sleep, although I am sure I would wake up and notice something as this has happened to me before.

I dont necesseraly think when you stop masturbating you are getting extra energy. Well of course after a long session you want to sleep and relax but after you do that you are full of energy. Well lets just say I didnt notice any extra energy banks, now most days I have sex every day 2 times and also masturbate and I still work full time and I still grow LOTS of weed. So thats like 2 full time jobs.

I didnt notice much differences on myself. And if I noticed something there is no way I could attribute that to my absence of cumming. Generally speaking sex makes me feel amazingly energized unless its a 2 hours session. My brain gets flooded with dopamine and i feel like Ive done cocaine ( never tried it just guessing ) and I get amazing energy, I feel like doing anything! I never felt like that when I wasn't masturbating or having sex.

I agree that I dont feel it helped with my spirituality in ANY way unless you count the time I spent thinking instead of masturbating...

I would like some more scientific data about this. if there is any.....

Abstaining from cumming to reach higher levels of spirituality does sound a bit like the thing they do in the USA to the kids ( cutting the skin ) so as not to masturbate ( thats how it started anyway) . You use words that are connected to New Age or religion bs, if you want to reach higher spirituality you need science too. People sometimes gets confused because its in the human nature to try to find connections between things and explain things.

The only people I really know that practice this for years are some monks and priests and trust me when I say they are really fucked up in the head, ANYTHING but spirituality. Dont mean this is the result of abstaining...
 
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Well, for men there is also the reward aspect in that it increases their social value and gives them respect from other males, and can also impress women. That is a great psychological high to most I imagine few would be able to resist. While the spiritual effects are more subtle and might not be directly noticable beneath the other energies.
 
I agree that I dont feel it helped with my spirituality in ANY way unless you count the time I spent thinking instead of masturbating...

Abstaining from cumming to reach higher levels of spirituality does sound a bit like the thing they do in the USA to the kids ( cutting the skin ) so as not to masturbate ( thats how it started anyway) . You use words that are connected to New Age or religion bs, if you want to reach higher spirituality you need science too. People sometimes gets confused because its in the human nature to try to find connections between things and explain things.

This sounds like the misconception again that doing celibacy automatically equates into spiritual value or reward, which is not the case. It is conservation of energy, keeping the head clear to allow better thinking, and it also provides you with a measure of protection against malign external influences when engaging in magical practices. But you still have to actually do something if you want to achieve results.. it doesn't just happen automatically. Hence the crazy priests. As for science.. celibacy is a science.. you are conducting an experiment with yourself and testing it against the results attained by many people down through time who have also used this method and generated spiritual results for themselves. This existed long before the newage stuff came about.
 
Sure I understand but you should also understand that when I wasnt masturbating I was still in spirituality and psychedelics and I would mediate every day for a couple of hours and I didn't notice anything. So the only way to make this happen is to be almost religious with no cumming ? Of course it doesnt happen automatically but what should I do to achieve that level you are describing ? I was abstaining and also meditating like usual and I didnt notice any difference really.
 
You mentioned you grow weed. That means you're pretty much always in a drug-induced spiritual state. It might make more of a difference for those who try to progress sober.

For most making spiritual progress in a life on earth is hardcore and you need all the help you can get.
 
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Sure I understand but you should also understand that when I wasnt masturbating I was still in spirituality and psychedelics and I would mediate every day for a couple of hours and I didn't notice anything. So the only way to make this happen is to be almost religious with no cumming ? Of course it doesnt happen automatically but what should I do to achieve that level you are describing ? I was abstaining and also meditating like usual and I didnt notice any difference really.

It depends on what you're trying to achieve. Your definition of spirituality is different from mine, for example I don't consider the use of psychedelics in the spiritual path to be a wise decision for three reasons: It adds another layer of confusion to the mix and to your mind, it makes you far more vulnerable to external influences (entities), and most importantly psychedelics use up a lot of mental energy.. energy that you need if you want to break through in spiritual objectives. Celibacy is a bit pointless if energy is still flowing out of you through your other head..

Then there's meditation.. everyone has a different idea or does it differently. For me meditation is about analyzing thought patterns and the inside of your head, and less about sitting in postures with your eyes closed focusing on your third eye. The former approach you apply that saved up celibacy energy to attack the problem/question in your head, the latter is more about daydreaming and feeling blissful which is a waste of energy because pleasure doesn't give you anything.
 
Ninae : I understand you assume me to smoke lots of weed and there are periods that I do , but back then I wasnt smoking anything even cigs or even drinking coffee... The only psychoactive substances would be herbal infusion like chamomile and other mild herbs. I go from a astraight edge person to complete smoke weed everyday and once per 3-12 months psychedelics then back to straight edge . I like living life like this so I can compare different states of mind and get the best of both worlds. Growing weed was for money back then. I am extremely happy with my life I have the best job I work from the beach 2 hours per day and I get very good money. I am an artist and I live in the sunniest places with the best food in the world. I dont attribute these to cannabis and psys of course but if anything they play their part as far as what/who I am. I explain below further...


SS : "Then there's meditation.. everyone has a different idea or does it differently. For me meditation is about analyzing thought patterns and the inside of your head, and less about sitting in postures with your eyes closed focusing on your third eye." I completely agree with analyzing patterns thats what I do. I never did the eyes closed focussing on third eye I never understood that to be honest. I might do something like that before I fall asleep though and sometimes I get hypnagogia. I am very rational and I always think and overanalyzing things , how my mind works , this is what I call meditating. I am not so much into chakras/energies/newage , I think of the brain as a complicated programmed computer that responds to stimuli and I am trying to understand my patterns how I work, what makes my happy so I can put my self into situations that make me happy. If you read the above reply to Ninae I am explaining that. I still think my situation was really good to test if celibacy does anything since I didnt do because I was a fan of it or anything, it just turned out naturally because my mate in London moved in my studio and I didnt feel like going to the bathroom to masturbate , boring. And I was super busy with life so there wasnt any placebo about it , I didnt know that by not cumming you might get all those benefits you mention . So I wasnt prejudiced with any ideas about what might happen to me. Of course all people are different and even if it works like a placebo for you for personal development then so be it , thats good. I didnt feel it did anything to me. Again, when I wasnt cumming I was a very straight-edge person, the only psychoactives would be chamomile, louisa, rosemary, pine needles and other mild herbs.... One year I will be straight edge, the other year I will smoke copius amount of cannabis and trip one or two times.. I dont think we have a really different approach on meditation its just feels some psychoactive drugs dont work for you since we are all different bodies and characters and we respond differently. I feel psys make mou more sensitive to external stimuli thus you are able to understand more since without observation there is nothing and being sensitive to external stimuli is just that and the reason they take a lot of mental energy while you are on them is because you analyze patterns and understand things and think and you *may* come up with good thoughts on personal development. Its true they add can add a layer of confusion too yes I agree and thus you need to spend time to integrate. everything new is confusing and then you spend time to understand to make it clear , thats how you progress. I know people that get only crazy and scrumbled confused thoughts on psys even on small dosages, they dont get anything positive or os they say. Know your body, know your soul :) everyone reacts differenly

I HIGHLY disagree that pleasure and positive experiences don't give you anything. It is the basis of happiness which in turn is the basis satisfaction. Satisfaction is the basis of acceptance which is highest level and has nothing to do with pleasure, a completely different thing, entirely transformed. Its a path and complete acceptance through satisfaction is the road to enlightment. There are many times I feel god :) If I achieve this level for ever ..... this is it... I am getting closer n closer every day !
 
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Sorry for any thread disruptions earlier. I'll just share my experience instead.

To me celibacy means no sex, it doesn't mean no masturbation. That said, I've gone as long as a year without masturbating. The first 6 months were increasingly difficult, but after that I experienced a breakthrough and my body started to organize itself differently. It's as though my body just gave up on the possibility of ejaculation and just didn't bother trying to incite it anymore. However, I experienced periods of depression, anger, rage, and uncontrollable emotions. It was around the 7 month mark that I learned about Daoist cultivation. I don't believe the entire practice, as explained, is necessarily useful, just the general concept. Basically, this energy MUST be expressed, or it leads to health problems. The natural, animal mode of expression is to express it outwards, by cumming. The cultivated way of expressing it is by directing it inwards.

Since I already studied oriental medicine and understood the way the qi meridians worked, it wasn't hard for me to learn. The way they teach the process is that you masturbate but without any imagery or imagination. You have to stay completely present, and work with your body as-is. If you feel yourself getting too aroused, you need to take a break and revert to deep breathing. The breath is key, you have to learn to breathe right down into your pelvic floor. I've modified the technique so that as I do genital stimulation, I might rub my heart centre with the other hand, or my throat, or my third eye. Doing this gets the sexual energy converting to other areas, like a network. Instead of the energy just splooshing out of your dick, it ends up traveling to other places. Eventually, each time you clench the pelvic floor, the energy moves upward throughout the body. Something about training the genitals to not expel semen in the first 6 months makes it more prone to send the sensations upwards and outwards. My experience of this was not only kundalini, but smooth, relaxing energy waves spreading up and down throughout the entire body. It actually results in the loss of erection because the energy goes elsewhere.

More recently, this year, I learned about tantric massage. I first received one from an elder teacher who knows all about this stuff, but more from the vedic understanding of tantra. In a session if you get hard, he will simply massage the energy elsewhere into the other chakras. It helps train the body to always send the energy elsewhere. I had some very, very powerful spiritual experiences with this technique. I later took one of his workshops to learn how to do the integrative massage on others. Basically, by touching every part of the body and connecting it to every other part of the body, it opens a universal channeling system so that sexual energy goes anywhere and everywhere.

I respect people who choose the direct celibacy/no fap path, but I find for myself that with a few additional steps, you can really harness a lot of spiritual potential by using that build up of energy. In oriental medicine and daoism, you basically convert your essence (which is a kind of energy) into other kinds of bodily energy, so it becomes a vital force that doesn't exhaust you... and because of this diversion, the pent up energy gets used instead of slowly driving you mad. Also, some people press down on their urethra or their pube muscles get so strong that they basically have a retrograde ejaculation. That's still ejaculation, it's not the same as what I'm talking about.

What I find really fascinating is that in oriental medicine, there are "jing tonics". The emperors of China used to use them, because they were more or less having sex constantly with their harems of concubines. I've used these tonics myself and they are quite powerful. Originally when I was still cumming every day, the tonics would replenish my semen very quickly. However, since doing the Daoist cultivation, I've noticed that cum and essence aren't exactly the same thing. You can use all the jing tonics you want but there is something unique to the vital energy force of the life gate (where cum is stored) that has to build naturally, and non-physically. So I think there might be some wisdom in the teachings that ejaculation depletes your life, and no matter how many tonics you take you will never really restore it all. I've found that jing tonics don't truly restore essence, for this reason. Only time and abstinence do that.

The way Daoism describes energy cultivation is through the micro-cosmic orbit. The energy leaves the life gate (basically just above the pelvic floor) as you clench, and goes upward along the spine into the brain to "nourish the marrow", and then it goes down the front of the body back to the life gate where it gets stored as vital life force. Going by the chakra system, the energy goes up the spine, into the brain through the occipital cavity, and into the pineal gland, before going out the crown. However, the actual experience of it, I've noticed, is just an energy wave going up both the front and back of the body. When you get good at this practice, the energy goes both up and down the body at the same time -- actually it goes everywhere, including the four limbs. In the Daoist teachings they say that energy going up the front is pathological, but I haven't found this. Their model is too two-dimensional. It works more non-linearly. Energy is going up and down at the same time, kind of like how an electric current would in a circuit -- you can't really say where an electron is at any given time, it's just everywhere.

I've found that when I do the Daoist cultivation without ejaculation, I feel completely satisfied and energized. It makes me a lot stronger. Also, people tend to be more attracted to me for some reason. I read on a no-fap site once that guys who cum a lot have changes to their pheromones. That may be true, but in my opinion having a lot of energy in the life gate creates a very strong second chakra energy and that's the main reason people become more attracted to you. Guys who blow their loads all the time whether their body wants to or not are taking themselves out of the mating game. There's something about guys who cum rarely or not at all that look absolutely vibrant -- I don't really know why that is, from a scientific perspective. I know the prostate stores a lot of minerals, like zinc, maybe that has something to do with it.

I'm not perfect though... I still go through periods where I end up ejaculating a lot. I don't think it's worth guilt tripping oneself over. If you end up doing it, just enjoy it. A lot of people take the celibacy thing too far and turn it into a shaming practice... they end up cumming by accident and flog themselves for it. They'll abstain for like, 50 days, and then cum, and then freak out about it. I see no point in that. We're all only human. The Daoist stuff fascinates me though and it's been the most effective system for me. I've met a few guys over the years who told me in confidence that they have tried it or something like it and they have had wild spiritual experiences. For me there is nothing greater than tantric sex. It's a totally cosmic, loving experience and it brings two people together in a multi-dimensional way that can never be described. It can be shared between any two people, it doesn't matter what sex they are, because the sexual experience is a joined energy field that is not defined by the physical body. If one person goes cosmic, the other person joins them. Just like sex is about mutual pleasure, tantra is about mutual ascension. What's sad is that when you mention the kama sutra, most people just think of it as a book that talks about sexual positions. Really it's teaching you to have sex with God. It's the easiest way to have the Non-Self experience in a blissful way, and to have Divine contact, without doing drugs or intensive meditation practices.

I have had the Non-Self experience through intense suffering, and through intense bliss. Both are valid. It's just that the suffering path is more common, and that might have to do with what people believe they deserve. There's so much shame about sexual bliss and euphoria from so many aspects of human culture, that people don't associate Divinity with sex at all -- especially in the west where Christian guilt has infiltrated every aspect of culture. Even the non-religious are affected. So people think that life is about suffering and hardship, as though it's the only way to feel worthy. Nothing shuts down the second chakra more than those belief systems... so no wonder sex becomes a purely carnal practice, disconnected from the spirit.

As for entity contact, I think that's extremely rare, just like possession is. I've only met a small handful of people in my entire life who had genuine entity intrusion, and the majority of them invited it in by doing dark magic without proper protections. It doesn't tend to happen to every day mundane people who are just getting off. And it's more likely to happen in darker sexual practices, where people are using shame, degradation, rape (or play-rape) and channeling sexual energy into the shadow. You have to really lower your vibration to attract that stuff, or be stupidly calling it in of your own free will. The other people were high level and didn't know it, so they were innocently going through life attracting stuff that they didn't understand because their energy was so delicious. I don't think of it as right or wrong, just another experience. Some people like to dwell there. People can also attract negative forces simply by dwelling in their own dark states for too long, like brooding. Just because you avoid sex doesn't mean you're avoiding darkness. You've still gotta deal with your personal shit one way or another.
 
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