It was a doomed thing from the beginning. It had little very little amazing times and a lot of struggle. The love was there, and in reality we were very good for eachother, but so many situations prevented its expression and development. Like if the seed of a beautiful flower took hold in a small asphalt crack in a concrete jungle.. just enough soil to sustain a life, no chance of flourishing.
It was fkd as a football bat from the beginning. Keep chill and work through the emotion. Springs coming and new beginnings blaze forth.