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Greenlighter
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Hello Bluelight Community,
This is my first post on the site. Have been a fan of Bluelight for many years now and always check here as well as erowid in regards to my adventures for safety and insight. It has come now to myself that I must post and get some feedback.
To start it off I have been a frequent user of MDMA. I use about once every 1-3 months and dose around 200mg-400mg throughout the night. I always have a test kit available and reliable source.
Me and my friends had planned on going to New York one weekend. About a month before I rolled balls on an Orange Tesla pill. They were all around the east coast and pure tested MDMA. One week prior to the trip swim I roughly 3 tabs of high quality LSD and tripped hours on end.
On my way to new York one of my friends mentioned that he had a trustworthy connect for mdma and some high quality coke.
On the first night I endulged in a couple lines of cocaine and had a blast and got a good night of sleep. The next night we picked up some "molly" and that's where things went downhill.
I binged on roughly 1.5 grams of this "Molly" within a 4 day span staying up a consecutive 3 nights. I was almost positive it was pure mdma because I felt a clean hard roll obviously losing magic after the first night or so.
On his way home I was hallucinating pretty heavily unlike I ever had before considering I have had my fair share of heavy acid trips and mushies but this was different.
Arriving home I layed in my bed and was seeing bugs and other things floating around in my room. As well as seeing people in my peripheral only to look and see them melt in front of my eyes. I drank some beer and popped a promethazine 25mg to help me sleep.
Upon waking I was feeling severely out of it and zombieish. I immediately went out to purchase some 5htp and went to a friends to test this so called "molly".
While the testing showed up to contain MDxx, the other tests came up positive for amphetamines and a possible RC!
It has now been 4 days since the binge and I have been taking 5htp as well as getting much rest but I am still very out of it. Never have I ever felt this low and depressed ever. I even caught myself crying at the Sarah mcglocklin commercial for dogs which normally never moves me.
I want to know if I have done any permanent damage to my receptors?? I understand how stupid I was taking that dose in 3 days and not looking for a lecture on how to manage my drug consumption. I always try to be as safe as possible but my inner addiction got the best of me. I am going to stay away from everything for a little bit before I feels better and probably won't touch mdma ever again let alone any stimulant.
Have I done perm damage?
Would the LSD a week before change how I felt after the MDMA?
How long of a recovery if any will I endure?
Again I don't want lectures only answers and useful insight please!
This is my first post on the site. Have been a fan of Bluelight for many years now and always check here as well as erowid in regards to my adventures for safety and insight. It has come now to myself that I must post and get some feedback.
To start it off I have been a frequent user of MDMA. I use about once every 1-3 months and dose around 200mg-400mg throughout the night. I always have a test kit available and reliable source.
Me and my friends had planned on going to New York one weekend. About a month before I rolled balls on an Orange Tesla pill. They were all around the east coast and pure tested MDMA. One week prior to the trip swim I roughly 3 tabs of high quality LSD and tripped hours on end.
On my way to new York one of my friends mentioned that he had a trustworthy connect for mdma and some high quality coke.
On the first night I endulged in a couple lines of cocaine and had a blast and got a good night of sleep. The next night we picked up some "molly" and that's where things went downhill.
I binged on roughly 1.5 grams of this "Molly" within a 4 day span staying up a consecutive 3 nights. I was almost positive it was pure mdma because I felt a clean hard roll obviously losing magic after the first night or so.
On his way home I was hallucinating pretty heavily unlike I ever had before considering I have had my fair share of heavy acid trips and mushies but this was different.
Arriving home I layed in my bed and was seeing bugs and other things floating around in my room. As well as seeing people in my peripheral only to look and see them melt in front of my eyes. I drank some beer and popped a promethazine 25mg to help me sleep.
Upon waking I was feeling severely out of it and zombieish. I immediately went out to purchase some 5htp and went to a friends to test this so called "molly".
While the testing showed up to contain MDxx, the other tests came up positive for amphetamines and a possible RC!
It has now been 4 days since the binge and I have been taking 5htp as well as getting much rest but I am still very out of it. Never have I ever felt this low and depressed ever. I even caught myself crying at the Sarah mcglocklin commercial for dogs which normally never moves me.
I want to know if I have done any permanent damage to my receptors?? I understand how stupid I was taking that dose in 3 days and not looking for a lecture on how to manage my drug consumption. I always try to be as safe as possible but my inner addiction got the best of me. I am going to stay away from everything for a little bit before I feels better and probably won't touch mdma ever again let alone any stimulant.
Have I done perm damage?
Would the LSD a week before change how I felt after the MDMA?
How long of a recovery if any will I endure?
Again I don't want lectures only answers and useful insight please!
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You'll be fine, nothing is probably permanent. Think that the brain is so flexible that it can recover from a stroke, it finds new paths. You need to relax and take a day at a time. Anxiety maybe will trigger other things that MIGHT look like you did permanent damage, but you probably did not. Just take it easy