discoveringunivers
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Hey guys I just made an account to tell you my bad trip last night (total nightmare) skip to the last 2-3 paragraphs if you dont want to read everything
Last night I decided to take this alone in my house(3rd time Im did that way, last 2 experiences were amazing so I decided to up the dosage, bad fukking idea)
I took about 3-3.5g and let it rest in lemon juice for 15min and then ate it. I started the trip with anxiety like I usually do on come ups, I was really tired last night worked 10h so I was sleepy as well and felt my body turning into a jello. Eventually I smoked 2 joints and went back inside, I started hallucinating my persian carpets and such. Lights were really bright and I felt distorted. Sounds were coming from everywhere, I was talking to myself in the mirror and couldnt walk straight. To fastforward, I realized I was really high and felt lonely, so I called my friend and he told me to just drink lots of water and ignore everything. I have no idea why I was panicking, maybe because I was deeply hallucinating and my senses were combined. Nothing made sense, I was thinking that I was one person and everyone else was just me trying to communicated to myself, and that time is limitless, I couldnt even use logic anymore. Everywhere I would look, it would look completely distorted and moving. Eventually I was peaking at 3am and was starting to get paranoid, I had all these bad thoughts and demonic images going through my head. Knowing I couldnt really speak to someone and had to endure the trip made me feel really terrified.
If I thought of like a demon I would started seeing see through faces in my vision, I would look at the walls and there would be geometric al patterns( I knew about that effect, so it didnt bother me) , but I may have Adhd which worsened the fact that I couldnt calm down, and calm my mind down. I thought that since I was panicking I might have a heart attack and die, or worse get stuck in a realm sort of like Inception. Had really bad nausea and just wanted to sleep at this point, but I couldnt. Everytime I would close my eyes it would be like my eyes were still open, I could still see, I couldnt feel anything, I started hearing paranoid songs and thoughts in my head and everytime I would clpse my eyes I would imagine terryfing things. I would started having paranoid thoughts that were basically out-loud of my dad saying " see kid I told you not to mess drugs and youve fucked up and theres no going back"
I thought I crossed the border, and went insane, truely thought I was insane. I would close my eyes and still could see my room( or it felt like it) and couldnt really trust any of my senses so I didnt know what to believe. I started thinking I was schizophrenic, and imagined that I was in a part of life where I was stuck in this realm of insanity and everything was just fake. I understand time and space, I felt connected to the entire universe, and starting thinking that all of this world is just a pigment of my imagination. That I was insane and nothing was real, I couldnt calm down. Time wasnt even moving by, I knew if I could sleep tomorrow I would feel better. But I was in agonizing terror and physical pain because of the nausea and tried to sleep for what like forever, but I would just hallucinated deeply closing my eyes, usually negative things.
So this is where I fucked up, I went to my parents room and woke them up, I couldnt think straight and thought that I was insane so it didnt matter what I did. I told them I smoked pot and took some magic mushrooms, so my dad tried to calm me down, we sat outside for a while and talked. I showed him the pot and the mushrooms, and he didnt get mad just was scared as I was. He barely knows anything about the subject and my parents thought I would OD. I couldnt even remember what I did earlier in the day, I couldnt remember anything or even talk normally. He said feel your heartbeat, and when I went to feel it I couldnt feel anything. At all so I felt I was dead and was just in another dimension.Eventually I calmed down and went back to sleep at around 5am.
I dont know what to do know, how to talk to my parents about this and to even take psilocybin again. I feel really embarassed about telling my parents all of this, I feel like a total idiot. My friends are going to mess with me for ever for doing this, I dont know what to do anymore. Just forget the experience and move on
Last night I decided to take this alone in my house(3rd time Im did that way, last 2 experiences were amazing so I decided to up the dosage, bad fukking idea)
I took about 3-3.5g and let it rest in lemon juice for 15min and then ate it. I started the trip with anxiety like I usually do on come ups, I was really tired last night worked 10h so I was sleepy as well and felt my body turning into a jello. Eventually I smoked 2 joints and went back inside, I started hallucinating my persian carpets and such. Lights were really bright and I felt distorted. Sounds were coming from everywhere, I was talking to myself in the mirror and couldnt walk straight. To fastforward, I realized I was really high and felt lonely, so I called my friend and he told me to just drink lots of water and ignore everything. I have no idea why I was panicking, maybe because I was deeply hallucinating and my senses were combined. Nothing made sense, I was thinking that I was one person and everyone else was just me trying to communicated to myself, and that time is limitless, I couldnt even use logic anymore. Everywhere I would look, it would look completely distorted and moving. Eventually I was peaking at 3am and was starting to get paranoid, I had all these bad thoughts and demonic images going through my head. Knowing I couldnt really speak to someone and had to endure the trip made me feel really terrified.
If I thought of like a demon I would started seeing see through faces in my vision, I would look at the walls and there would be geometric al patterns( I knew about that effect, so it didnt bother me) , but I may have Adhd which worsened the fact that I couldnt calm down, and calm my mind down. I thought that since I was panicking I might have a heart attack and die, or worse get stuck in a realm sort of like Inception. Had really bad nausea and just wanted to sleep at this point, but I couldnt. Everytime I would close my eyes it would be like my eyes were still open, I could still see, I couldnt feel anything, I started hearing paranoid songs and thoughts in my head and everytime I would clpse my eyes I would imagine terryfing things. I would started having paranoid thoughts that were basically out-loud of my dad saying " see kid I told you not to mess drugs and youve fucked up and theres no going back"
I thought I crossed the border, and went insane, truely thought I was insane. I would close my eyes and still could see my room( or it felt like it) and couldnt really trust any of my senses so I didnt know what to believe. I started thinking I was schizophrenic, and imagined that I was in a part of life where I was stuck in this realm of insanity and everything was just fake. I understand time and space, I felt connected to the entire universe, and starting thinking that all of this world is just a pigment of my imagination. That I was insane and nothing was real, I couldnt calm down. Time wasnt even moving by, I knew if I could sleep tomorrow I would feel better. But I was in agonizing terror and physical pain because of the nausea and tried to sleep for what like forever, but I would just hallucinated deeply closing my eyes, usually negative things.
So this is where I fucked up, I went to my parents room and woke them up, I couldnt think straight and thought that I was insane so it didnt matter what I did. I told them I smoked pot and took some magic mushrooms, so my dad tried to calm me down, we sat outside for a while and talked. I showed him the pot and the mushrooms, and he didnt get mad just was scared as I was. He barely knows anything about the subject and my parents thought I would OD. I couldnt even remember what I did earlier in the day, I couldnt remember anything or even talk normally. He said feel your heartbeat, and when I went to feel it I couldnt feel anything. At all so I felt I was dead and was just in another dimension.Eventually I calmed down and went back to sleep at around 5am.
I dont know what to do know, how to talk to my parents about this and to even take psilocybin again. I feel really embarassed about telling my parents all of this, I feel like a total idiot. My friends are going to mess with me for ever for doing this, I dont know what to do anymore. Just forget the experience and move on
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lesson learned though. Don't trip while your parents are in the other room. Especially with an ego death potential dosage. You definitely didn't take just a gram.
