I seem to have a problem with this as well... It's actually what prompted me to create my Bluelight account. I did some simple research and what I've come to find is that it could be related to a "Skin Picking Disorder". The first ever instance I've had with this issue was when I was well along in my addiction with Meth. This made it... not as surprising as it would be without the use of Meth, because we all know what that does to your skin. But I've been on a new path lately. I went to a rehab, I'm starting to get situated back into my life. I'm looking for a job and have some promising leads, etc. But with all this of course comes a lot of stress. Stress, anxiety, depression... I think we all kinda know the deal with that and I expected these things, well to be honest I've just been living with them forever know, even while in active addiction. But regardless, I'm sober and all of a sudden I go through a skin picking episode. EXACTLY how I would if I were ZOOTED and got "trapped into the mirror". Like?! What?!... So I did a little bit of research like I mentioned. I found out about the "Skin Picking Disorder" and maybe after what I went through, I'm now living with some extra baggage? It was just so weird how it happened almost exactly the same. Just a simple honest look into the mirror at first. Then maybe seeing a little something. You think about it for a good few seconds and then it comes over you to "just get this one little pimple". At this point your still consciously making you decisions obviously. But soon after that, you see another small one and maybe another after that, and this is kind of where I lose myself... I'm not even sure the exact moment when it happens but at some point you lose yourself there and can't pull away from it. Your STUCK in what feels like a few moments but could end up being over an HOUR! I finally gain my consciousness back when I'm wrapping things up. Which is about the same time I'm finally able to realize the extent of the damage I just caused on myself. This works HORRORS on your self-esteem, etc. I NEED to find a way out of this NIGHTMARE. The thing is, it also doesn't happen very often. It's actually a pretty rare occurrence. This has been the first one I've ever had sober. And I've been sober for a few months this go around. But on other occasions I've been sober for over a year and never had this issue (this was obviously after I've experienced the horrors of it in active addiction).
If ANYONE has ANY insight to anything relating to this topic, please comment and let me know. Even if all you have are sources on where to get some more information about it on, it would be greatly appreciated. The only information I could really find on it so far was just a basic description with some common examples and ways to treat etc. I found this on the U.K.'s National Health Service Website.
Thanks in advance!
- ThatGuyAroundTheBlock