It's so sad to see threads like this...I myself have been in this situation and It left me with a deep hatred for MDMA and a sense of shame and disgust at what I had done to myself....Surely a brief search on a forum like this would be enough to discourage anyone from considering using MDMA the fact there are threads like this one talking of 'Recovery' and 'Support' should be enough this isn't a serious illness this is supposed to be something taken for 'Fun' recreationally it is literally self harm....there is alot of misinformation about MDMA/Ecstasy and sadly it comes from forums like this and not the government....Irresponsible and selfish users talking of the wonders of their favourite drug....Vilifying alcohol which in comparison is benign no matter what you might hear on bluelight.....MDMA is if abused (And arguably even just used) is poison....And it literally makes me sick..
Ethyl Alcohol - the form of the drug present in all alcoholic beverages - is not a benign mind altering substance at all.
Long term studies conducted by the World Health Organization (WHO) and the International Agency for Research on Cancer (IARC) has proven without a doubt that the consumption of any amount of Ethyl Alcohol increases the risk of developing cancer.
It is now classified as a Group 1 Carcinogen along with (but not limited to) Arsenic, Asbestos, Formaldehyde, and Radioactive Isotopes.
Furthermore, Ethyl Alcohol is a well studied and well known neurotoxin (kills brain cells), cardiotoxin (and heart cells), and hepatotoxin (and also liver cells).
Acute withdrawal from Alcoholism (going 'cold turkey') is considered a medical emergency as symptoms include delirium, seizures, coma, and death.
Globally, the consumption of alcoholic beverages - at present - directly contributes to 1 death approximately every 10 seconds.
In America alone, ~80,000 individuals die from Ethyl Alcohol poisoning - most of them young to middle-aged adults.
All this information has been available online to the public for a few years at least, yet this significantly toxic and carcinogenic drug continues to be as follows:
- Ignored by the mainstream media (with the very rare exception) whenever a death occurs as a result of consumption.
- Communicated by Uncle Sam and other western governments around the world - with respect to the risks involved - to the public as a simple and vague phrase which says simply (and usually only) to either: "Please enjoy responsibly," or to: "Please drink responsibly."
- Accepted and embraced by society in the form of countless advertisements via television, magazines, newspapers, radio, billboards, and the internet.
- Globally, the biggest drug use-related burden on workforce contributions, family stability, drug-related violence, and drug-related automobile accidents.
- Globally, the second biggest drug use-related burden on healthcare resources (after Tobacco/Nicotine products).
It should also be noted that the former PotUS and pardoned felonious criminal known as Richard M. Nixon - who also happens to be the man primarily responsible for the creation of the DEA and the 'war on drugs' in general (circa May 1971) - was a frequent and heavy drinker. How convenient for him that Ethyl Alcohol remained a regulated, recreationally legal drug, but I digress.
I'm not suggesting that MDMA use bears little to no risk to a consumer - not at all.
Given the right conditions (a hot, humid environment combined with frequent or heavy use), I strongly believe that it may become neurotoxic. And the risk to the user is increased significantly due to western governments handing over the job to supply the demand to criminal organizations not really concerned about adulterants, nor pharmaceutical grade purity, but rather only money.
When the sale of alcoholic beverages became illegal in America, an alarmingly high number of people began dying as a result of homemade (unregulated, impure, adulterated) booze. This continues to occur at present in countries where the possession of Ethyl Alcohol is outright illegal.
Ethyl Alcohol / Ethanol is not a benign substance at all. And combining it with MDMA or other drugs will increase the risk of damage to the user's brain (among other things).
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Edit - I'd like to point out for the record that, although I'm not outright recommending it, a few months after becoming ill with 'LTC' symptoms and taking ~19 months and a lot of hard work to recover fully, I went to a rave and used a modest dose (~100mg) of some thoroughly tested (Reagents and GC-MS), adulterant free MDMA, and I had a wonderful time, and there was no long term comedown whatsoever. I was really, really scared that my 'LTC' would return, and that I'd have a massive panic attack, but in the end I was fine thank God.
And since that time, I have consumed MDMA on several occasions and haven't had any symptoms return. Once again however, the MDMA in question was always tested and of notably high purity (straight from source - still in shard/crystal form). I never touch ecstasy pills anymore, as they're too dirty nowadays. I'd rather spend more money in order to reduce the risks typically involved.
Also, not once did I dare to combine it with Alcohol (like I used to before becoming ill) or anything else. I chose Gatorade instead of plain water to keep myself hydrated, and I've always been with friends whom I felt safe with, as well as at a venue where I felt socially comfortable while sober. And lastly, I never use it more frequently than once every 2 months.
As for the Alcohol, I never drink anymore - not even a beer after a meal at a BBQ like I loved to do. It's an overrated drug anyways in my opinion.