Hello,
I'm new to all of this. This is my first withdrawal that is happening by choice. I had been on Percocet/oxycodone off and on for about 5 years. I started out with 5/325mg, then most recently this past November stopped using that when my doctor prescribed me 120 15mg oxy per month. I ended up going thriving those pills way too fast and ended up each time with 2 weeks to go before I could get it refilled.
When I decided to finally stop taking the little green pills was when I realized that I was relying on them more for how they made me feel than for pain. They seemed to take away my stress and helped me to be a good mom to my two kids. I could manage anxiety and their tantrums. I could handle housework, and any daily stress. I was up to taking about 100mg of oxy a day.
Without it, I am nothing. I can't feel happiness. My boys, (4 and 6) are precious to me, but I can't even find joy in motherhood. I sit here typing this in tears on our way home from a vacation that I couldn't even enjoy. When will this stop? My husband is less than 2 feet from me and I'm can feel myself panicking because I know that he will be going back to work next week. I love him so much, and he is the only thing that brings me calmness during this time. And NO, he cannot miss anymore work. He missed some work to be with our kids while I endured the sickness of early withdrawal.
I just want to be me. Happy me. Kind mommy, capable human, not someone who has a sad face all the time and can cry for no reason at all. My libido is practically gone. My sweet husband is an incredible man and has been so great through this. I want to be better. What has helped you?
I'm honestly trying. I'm not trying to be pathetic by choice.
I'm new to all of this. This is my first withdrawal that is happening by choice. I had been on Percocet/oxycodone off and on for about 5 years. I started out with 5/325mg, then most recently this past November stopped using that when my doctor prescribed me 120 15mg oxy per month. I ended up going thriving those pills way too fast and ended up each time with 2 weeks to go before I could get it refilled.
When I decided to finally stop taking the little green pills was when I realized that I was relying on them more for how they made me feel than for pain. They seemed to take away my stress and helped me to be a good mom to my two kids. I could manage anxiety and their tantrums. I could handle housework, and any daily stress. I was up to taking about 100mg of oxy a day.
Without it, I am nothing. I can't feel happiness. My boys, (4 and 6) are precious to me, but I can't even find joy in motherhood. I sit here typing this in tears on our way home from a vacation that I couldn't even enjoy. When will this stop? My husband is less than 2 feet from me and I'm can feel myself panicking because I know that he will be going back to work next week. I love him so much, and he is the only thing that brings me calmness during this time. And NO, he cannot miss anymore work. He missed some work to be with our kids while I endured the sickness of early withdrawal.
I just want to be me. Happy me. Kind mommy, capable human, not someone who has a sad face all the time and can cry for no reason at all. My libido is practically gone. My sweet husband is an incredible man and has been so great through this. I want to be better. What has helped you?
I'm honestly trying. I'm not trying to be pathetic by choice.