bleeding_lily
Greenlighter
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- Apr 8, 2014
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Today, I am sick. In more ways than one. First off, I have strep (again),and I can't sing, which pisses me off (music is my passion). Second, for the last week or so, I've been feeling very distant, and I seem to not be understanding social ques. I get confused very easily, and I can't get myself to hold a full conversation without feeling lost and left out, simply because I don't understand. I've been fiending quite vigorously since I've began to feel this way. I seem to have lost my compassion for others, especially my "family". I need out, I need a break, and I can't afford to leave again. Every day the stress weighs down more and more on my shoulders, and I feel weak. I used to be a hydrocodone and basically any other opiate addict, and I can't stop thinking about how much better I would feel if I could just take a few pills. On top of that, I had a nightmare last night and woke up sobbing, because I dreamt that the love of my life overdosed and died, and there was nothing I could do to save him. I am scared. I am depressed. I am lonely. I am craving. I am shaking. I can't breathe.
-Asher
-Asher