I'm dying

[mrsnowygrainius]

Your story breaks my heart man, dont kno if u r religious but i said a prayer for you to pull through and eventualy live a satisfied life. I am currently just over 24hrs of the worst cold turkey detox ive exlerienced in my 12 years of using dope. Your story gave me inspiration to be strong and push thru the withdrawals. I belive you will not die but only make it out. Worst case scenario yes, its death but at least you would be with the creator. Call me insane but this is how i feel....

 

[Foreigner]

You can call modern medicine barbaric but if you do I don't even know what adjective you would use to describe old medicine. Your life is on the line so you should spare no expense in getting the best treatment possible. Come to the United States and get an opinion if you have the means. We are not socialized and money talks here. Personally I think your insane to not have the surgery. Your being overly paranoid about the doctors not having your interest at heart too. As smart and well read as you are these people know way more about medicine and your options than you do. Dying to spite them is only costing you your life. I have a friend with crohns who now has a colostomy bag and you would never know it if she didn't tell you. Plus in 15 years you don't know what new surgical procedures may be developed to repair your bowel function. I urge you to reconsider your decision. Your not proving any point by choosing to die because you think a doctor fucked up. I also think the prednisone is affecting your judgement. You should discontinue that drug if possible.death is permanent man and if you fuck around and wait too long to get treatment it may end up being too late for anyone to help you.

Your a valuable member here foreigner I really don't want to be posting in your shrine thread. Of you want to talk or vent pm me and I'll give you my phone number.

My treatment has been barbaric, no other way to classify it. My friends who witnessed it have been horrified. I know modern medicine is capable of.amazing feats, if you end up in the hands of a good facility with top resources. In Canada all the good doctors head south where the money is. And unfortunately I have no money to go to the u.s.

Secondly, I am not avoiding surgery to spite them. I value the sanctity of my body. That's pretty much it. Please don't ca me insane.

The prednisone is not affecting my judgment. I've been tapering for weeks and my dose is much lower now. I get angry and emotional but I haven't lost my logic.

 

[ABetterWay]

Hi sweetheart.

I'm so sorry to hear about your situation.

Can you contact the drug.companies directly, see if they're willing to help get you the medicine? I know many people who've done this and they get the meds free-to-cheap, when insurance wouldn't cover it/it was not affordable out of pocket.

Please do research on things like natural anti-inflammatories. Ginger is a powerful AI actually. Please don't think I'm dismissing the seriousness of your situation. I'm not. I'm certainly not saying that all you need to do is swallow ginger once a day for a week and you'll be cured. I'm talking, get seriously and deeply EDUCATED about nature - natural AI's, nutrition....etc. EDIT: An example...my friend, who unfortunately passed away last December, was going through grueling treatments (I feel like many of them made things far worse, actually), and would be completelt unable to keep anything down. I'd make her a ginger and cinnamon "tea", which she said was very gentle and helpful to her.

You may not be properly absorbing nutrients due to the inflammation in your digestive tract. Find out about vitamin levels and things like injections of them. Can you get tested to see if you're deficient in any nutrients?
EDIT: something that can liquify fruits/veg/food in general for you will aid in absorption of nutrients. NutriBullet etc.

I'm very into researching health issues and (preferably) natural ways to improve health as I have pain and autoimmune issues. Feel free to PM me, either to talk via PM or exchange email addresses. I'd be more than happy to talk, brainstorm, and research with you, to try to help your health improve.

Things like probiotics and aloe can.assist in balancing the delicate ecosystem of the digestive tract, and encourage healing.

Even if you can only manage to improve the symptoms rather than.the ideal of fully healing....sure is better than nothing.

I realize this is a quick post, and not too in depth. Just please know I'm not dismissing the seriousness of your condition, it's obviously not as simple as eating ginger, it would take a combination of things both natural and help from professionals to calm your body and improve your life quality. I'm happy to talk with you more in depth, find out more of your story and history, and do my best to inform you with what I know, point you in the right direction, and give you any tips or tricks that come to mind, like directly contacting the drug companies.

Wishing you well. May freedom from pain be yours, soon.

Peace.
P.S. Can I just say...LOVED AND APPRECIATED the "Idiocracy" reference. Excellent work my friend!!!

 

[cj]

My treatment has been barbaric, no other way to classify it. My friends who witnessed it have been horrified. I know modern medicine is capable of.amazing feats, if you end up in the hands of a good facility with top resources. In Canada all the good doctors head south where the money is. And unfortunately I have no money to go to the u.s.

Secondly, I am not avoiding surgery to spite them. I value the sanctity of my body. That's pretty much it. Please don't ca me insane.

The prednisone is not affecting my judgment. I've been tapering for weeks and my dose is much lower now. I get angry and emotional but I haven't lost my logic.

I'm sorry you haven't received the care you needed that shouldnt ever happen in a 1st world country. I offered my insight. You have the right to refuse for whatever reasons you choose even if I dont understand and/or disagree with them. I apologize for calling you insane. Your not delusional but I can feel the depression and anger oozing out of your words. It's very hard for me to support your decision to die a preventable death. You have too much to offer as a human being. I sincerely hope you reevaluate your decision to die.

Plur
Crimson

 

[4th Grade Fat Kid]

Hmm you gotta say you told your lawyer and are exploring that. Hospitals from what I've seen are savage businesses, surgeries being reminiscent of Texas Chainsaw Massacre, but if there's one that's true about hospitals it's that the doctors like to thought of as independent, and would do anything to avoid any pressure from the hospital manager/director. Which is what would happen if you mentioned a lawyer or even having a family member stick up for you in court if it's obvious you're not the "having a lawyer" type of person.

 

[Foreigner]

Hmm you gotta say you told your lawyer and are exploring that. Hospitals from what I've seen are savage businesses, surgeries being reminiscent of Texas Chainsaw Massacre, but if there's one that's true about hospitals it's that the doctors like to thought of as independent, and would do anything to avoid any pressure from the hospital manager/director. Which is what would happen if you mentioned a lawyer or even having a family member stick up for you in court if it's obvious you're not the "having a lawyer" type of person.

If I make it through this somehow, there will definitely be a lawsuit.

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

My mother has a "shit bag" lets call it a colostomy bag and its really not that bad for her..she had chrones disease and she opted for the surgery..if its the "shit bag holding u back just know my mom lives a normal life has a job,has a bf,and has friends..its not as bad as it sounds and u should do anything that helps u have a better chance at survival.

 

[Maya]

Omg Foreigner, since we live in the same country and province this is concerning me a lot... What if I get sick with a weird condition, how am I going to handle it with this kind of health care system.. I hope you make it through!!!!

 

[Smoky]

Oh, you are really going through it Foreigner. I am so very sorry. I watched my mom deal with this for a long time. She had issues with the immuno-suppresants and steroids and on/off diarrhea. She had to leave California and go to Pittsburg for special doctors although that was a long time ago…
When I speak with my aunt I'll inquire about it, she is knowledgable about some of these issues

 

[Foreigner]

I have discovered just how bad BC health care is. Its the only province that makes us pay but then has reduced services. They cut out home care, so cooking, cleaning and laundry for severely debilitated people is no longer available as of one year ago. Private is $30/hr.

If you get really sick long term you can apply for government disability but its very hard to get and it takes them up to 3 months before they look your application, no matter how severe you are. Community services have all been gutted by the conservstives. Basically, if you don't have benefits through work, a nest egg, or a community of helpers / family / friends, you're fucked. A case worker told me a few days ago that a lot of people with severe disabilities end up on the street... ever seen people in wheelchairs moving along hastings? Behold our glorious "beautiful BC". This province is for the wealthy now.

Omg Foreigner, since we live in the same country and province this is concerning me a lot... What if I get sick with a weird condition, how am I going to handle it with this kind of health care system.. I hope you make it through!!!!

 

[cj]

I have discovered just how bad BC health care is. Its the only province that makes us pay but then has reduced services. They cut out home care, so cooking, cleaning and laundry for severely debilitated people is no longer available as of one year ago. Private is $30/hr.

If you get really sick long term you can apply for government disability but its very hard to get and it takes them up to 3 months before they look your application, no matter how severe you are. Community services have all been gutted by the conservstives. Basically, if you don't have benefits through work, a nest egg, or a community of helpers / family / friends, you're fucked. A case worker told me a few days ago that a lot of people with severe disabilities end up on the street... ever seen people in wheelchairs moving along hastings? Behold our glorious "beautiful BC". This province is for the wealthy now.

That's criminal but it's the same way in the United States. Without some kind of insurance it's very dofficult to get any medical care rather yet good care. I suggest you keep knocking on doors and making noise for help. Call every surgeon and specialist who's number you can find. You never know who might be willingly help a person in need. I admire the calmness and courage you are showing! I don't think I would be so calm and rational in the face of death

 

[murphythecat]

I am so sorry for you Foreigner, I'm 27 years old and your story touches me. I hope you'll be fine. I'm also canadian and yeah, canada under the conservatives is terrible.
I hope you will be fine.

I have discovered just how bad BC health care is. Its the only province that makes us pay but then has reduced services. They cut out home care, so cooking, cleaning and laundry for severely debilitated people is no longer available as of one year ago. Private is $30/hr.

If you get really sick long term you can apply for government disability but its very hard to get and it takes them up to 3 months before they look your application, no matter how severe you are. Community services have all been gutted by the conservstives. Basically, if you don't have benefits through work, a nest egg, or a community of helpers / family / friends, you're fucked. A case worker told me a few days ago that a lot of people with severe disabilities end up on the street... ever seen people in wheelchairs moving along hastings? Behold our glorious "beautiful BC". This province is for the wealthy now.

 

[Maya]

I have discovered just how bad BC health care is. Its the only province that makes us pay but then has reduced services. They cut out home care, so cooking, cleaning and laundry for severely debilitated people is no longer available as of one year ago. Private is $30/hr.

If you get really sick long term you can apply for government disability but its very hard to get and it takes them up to 3 months before they look your application, no matter how severe you are. Community services have all been gutted by the conservstives. Basically, if you don't have benefits through work, a nest egg, or a community of helpers / family / friends, you're fucked. A case worker told me a few days ago that a lot of people with severe disabilities end up on the street... ever seen people in wheelchairs moving along hastings? Behold our glorious "beautiful BC". This province is for the wealthy now.

Fudge you're right.. and yeah I've seen em.. oh man, I guess the best option is to try to never get sick! You are so right about BC, it is for the wealthy now! You cant even buy a house without incurring a huge debt!

 

[[éS]Infinite]

Hey Foreigner,
Unfortunately, the Canadian health care system is hugely inefficient and too many Canadians find themselves in the position you're in, waiting to die because they will not be provided with the treatment that they need. In your case, I would suggest looking into medical tourism so you can get the treatment you need if it isn't too late. It is horrible that people are so blind to the terrible service Canadians receive as health care.
I wish you all the best.

 

[paranoid android]

Jesus christ i just read this and fuck man i am so sorry to hear what your going through. The Canadian health care system is run by and operated like morons and ever since Obamacare came in down south id say theirs is now better on average. As for comparing to say the Scandinavian system or even the NHS in the UK forget about it we don't even come close. It's better here in some places then others as special authorization drugs vary from province to province and i have noticed care is better in certain cities then in others in the same province even. I would tell anyone to stay the fuck as far away from Ottawa as they can if they get sick cause i nearly died out there when the doctors couldn't figure out i had fucking pneumonia!

I only had time to skim all your posts but you illustrated exactly what is wrong with the Canadian health care system. It's full of bureaucracy and run by heartless morons. If it's any consolation Newfoundland is no better then BC i am sure when it comes to health care. In the meantime can i suggest going to the CBC perhaps? I know people who have done that and managed to get the treatment they where denied then magically approved. Anything is worth a shot at this point. They don't want bad publicity and this is a election year so id say give it a shot

 

[PsychedelicWizard]

I'm so sorry to hear that my brother, it breaks my heart. I plugged some hard liquor once and had an inflamed colon for the day, and it was absolute hell to go through, fuck, I can't imagine what you are going through, you poor soul...

I'll pray for you, and I'm also in BC, Victoria specifically, and I can't get any fucking medicine even though I need it to function also. I wish you the best of luck, if there's anything I can do PM me.

If I were you and you cannot get it, I'd go out with a bang, or at the very least, use your case to help save others, make the public aware and go to the press NOW!

Either way, I'll see you on the Other Side if you don't make it, if you do, I wish you the best of life.

Really makes me feel like shit for feeling down about my life situation, can't express how much I care for you.

 

[Freaksh0w]

Hey, man,

Hate that you are going through this. We shouldn't be faced with end of life choices at 30 years of age. Only at 70 years old+, and that's just if we make it. For whatever reason, maybe your posting style letting me in on your personality, or personal reasons, I don't want to see you give up. So, if you don't need anymore stress in your life, don't read these next few sentences.

So, I was wondering. Do you have any family? Close family? Like parents or siblings? Have you talked to them? I'll be honest, the reason I ask, is, they say a person just needs to be reminded of the things he loves, and the things that love him, to give him hope for life. At the same time, I don't want to make this harder on you.

Is there any other options? Can you not come to America, throw yourself in the hospital, hint around about what's hurting you so that it will lead to the proper diagnosis, and hopefully get the surgery? Oh, that's right, it's not money. It's the actual lifestyle after the surgery. Don't take this the wrong way. I try and sympathize. What if my own mother/brother were telling me not to give up? Besides cry, I feel like I'd have to, at least for the moment, suck it up and take the surgery. After, of course, a second and third opinion.

Ok, last, yet, the most positive idea I have, if you get a second opinion... you never know, you may not have to go through this. And even if you do... I understand the excrement bag. I understand the embarrassment, the hopelessness. But it's 2015. We can most certainly hope that things are improving right around the corner. Best of luck, I'll be checking in.

 

[swilow]

Hey foreigner. How are you feeling now? Any update?

Please please know that you are a lovely dude and someone I respect and admire. You are valuable and people like you are needed in this dark world; stick around.

 

[cj]

Yeah is there any update Foreigner? I hope you are feeling well. Hugs!

 

[ABetterWay]

I'm checking back here often also. How are you holding up as of now?

Thinking of you and wishing you the best. Health problems are hell.

I know I can't tell you what to do. I don't have the right, even. But I hope you won't give up.

Whatever you do, I wish you peace.