Stupid kid scared about bad decisions

[Colossal]

I'm not sure where to put this at all or what to do with myself really. Well here goes my story I recently over the course of the past few months shot up pills roxys an morphine once . maybe 20 times all together an I read about some not so nice things I just wonder if someone could tell me how bad off I am now. I am scared out of my mind i havn't touched anything of the sort after researching a little bit. I just don't want to suddenly die an whats my best course of action I am clean for almost month. Have no plans of touching a needle ever the fuck again. Sorry if it's the wrong forum or something I just want advise and don't know what to do help me out blue light? Crazy way to introduce myself but hello bluelight...

 

[average extreme]

you'll be fine but be aware that you are scarred from now on. if you ever touch a needle again things may not turn out the way you want it to.

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

The worst case scenario with opiates is an addiction or overdose and since u havent done any in a month and u dont plan on doing it again u are gona be fine.opiates imo are one of the drugs that beside cravings do minimal damage to the mind and body with that short duration of time u were using

 

[Colossal]

I dunno I feel like i have a weird pressure in my chest an sometimes heart area it scares the shit out of me ever since the last time i did it I'm not sure though... Everyone has flu an bronchitis right now at my house so it might be because of that I'm still terrified about it all... I just hope you're both right thanks for positive feed back anyway..

 

[Colossal]

It woke me up anyway I just hope it isn't too late I hope I didn't do a lot of damage to myself...

 

[Colossal]

Ended up going to the ER over the pressure in my chest i didn't say what i did i was hoping for bronchitis they said i have a swelling in my lungs like asthma most likely due to a allergic reaction of some kind... The only thing different in my life besides using drugs is my cat sleeps next to me every night for a little over a month now hopefully im allergic to cats I've never felt like this before I don't like it much....

 

[Maya]

^i would think its from the cat i dont think it is cause of the drugs. Some people develop asthma in later stages.

 

[Erikmen]

you'll be fine but be aware that you are scarred from now on. if you ever touch a needle again things may not turn out the way you want it to.

It's true and as simple as that. Keep on going on the direction you are heading and it will all be fine.

 

[nowherebutup]

Agreed, keep up the good work, and you have your entire life ahead of you, please don't let drugs ruin the adventure, NWI! (not worth it)

I know you'll be fine, I wish you well!

 

[Colossal]

I still have the same chest pains its actually moved into my back it hasnt stopped yet an ive been to doctors no one can tell me what it is ive been told its asthma or i had bronchitis maybe no one has a definitive answer though im still scared out of my mind if anything my chest is a bit better but now i have pains all in the center of my shoulder blades an neck its not just pressures anymore i have pains in my back not in my chest though just pressure like feelings that do not stop they are very consistent the only time i feel better is when i first wake up an 10 minutes later i feel like hell all over again every day

 

[Colossal]

this is going onto 3 months an im still not okay

 

[T. Calderone]

You're not using any drugs now are you besides doctor prescribed? I know it's been a couple of months, so if it hasn't improved you should go back to your doctor. You have to be your own best advocate and tell them what's happening. Being the squeaky wheel might get you some better answers. Also, they may have to refer you to a specialist so don't be afraid to ask for help.

 

[SociallyAwkward]

I'm no expert but I find it highly unlikely the opiates would be the cause of your pains. Most likely it is some sort of medical condition that can be figured out or possibly recover on it's own with time. Also do not underestimate the power of the mind. I am not saying your pain is imaginary. But I am saying that freaking out over something and being obsessed with ones health can cause all sorts of different symptoms. Many times these are indistinguishable from real conditions as it feels a 100% real to the person experiencing them. This constant worrying is probably aggrevating whatever it is you have. Try to relax, most likely it is nothing serious and you will be fine with time. Also go see a doctor again. Best of luck to you.

 

[Dresden]

Yeah, shooting pill binders and fillers is a big no-no, but since you "only" did it around 20x, chances are you'll be ok.