Hate to admit this, but I have attempted suicide many times during my life, and I know that it is part of my nature, especially when I am depressed. Luckily, with some therapy, I was able to escape this trap 3 years ago and finally explore the dark side of things. It took some time. I know this may sound like some bull**** to people here but with something like suicidal tendencies and depression, a lot of times you need patience and have to wait for a miracle. Other times that miracle will just arrive at your doorstep. Some are lucky, some are not. I have had many friends who attempted suicide, they were all addicts, I don't know what they're doing right now, but I keep busy with a journal and memoir to keep things together.
For those considering - consider a therapist, counselor, or even a hotline. Or a place like this. Venting is sometimes needed.
A journal helps A LOT. For example, do you really feel suicidal? You can channel your energy into something else, a poem, a song, or simply some words. You don't necessarily have to be talented, but you may find talent in the darkest places.
Need to get some sleep. Take care.