The biggest hurdle I've learnt from my recent trip to the mental institution is learning the lessons of detachment. Although I've taught on my personal blog about detachment I myself was riddled with fraught when I had to learn it to the extent I was no longer attached to my personal hygiene or belongings to maintain my appearance. Within the whirlwind of psychosis and treatment in the state hospital I was left with zero tolerant response for any emotions. I left the hospital like a zombie and worse when I am recuperating at home. It is a strange sensation of destructive remorse of "why God, why me?" increasingly more after I had access to the internet and discovered how long this poison drug stays in your system! How does anyone keep up with the bills and a job when there is no energy or motivation to work?
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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2
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Psychosis can be a terrifying ordeal when transpose a different personality and share your experience. This past episode I said things which are way out of the norm of reality of which I've lost my image as an honest sincere person. It is almost as if I lied and made up the whole story! So in the process I have lost credibility in psychosis. Only those who know me personality know that I was in a distraught mental illness. And the embarrassing side is I now have to face all those who viewed my sanity online because I exposed it on social media. Anyone have a similiar experience?
invegauser
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@dellad: the poison draws a line in the sand in just about everything.
those who suffer from it are put into two groups, those who can be active (work, study, workout, etc.) and those who are stuck not being able to do much of anything.
those who can do and those who can't try to push themselves to do more so they can take care of themselves as well as it helps the healing process.
how monetary means and support go it's different for everyone but they do the best they can. some live with family or friends, some government support and some other ways and means if not work and grants.
those who suffer from it are put into two groups, those who can be active (work, study, workout, etc.) and those who are stuck not being able to do much of anything.
those who can do and those who can't try to push themselves to do more so they can take care of themselves as well as it helps the healing process.
how monetary means and support go it's different for everyone but they do the best they can. some live with family or friends, some government support and some other ways and means if not work and grants.
What areas of government support? Are you referring to disability? Is that even possible if I am withdrawing from doctor prescription?
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@dellad: yup, if your labled mentally ill then you can receive it thought it's a bitch to get it. i really hate that i'm on any kind of support programs (cause i was forced onto the poison and forced on a list of programs) so i'm going to keep this short, others can add more to it. this is from my experience and others i've known on the net and irl.
in the usa it's social security disability (ssi) as opposed to social security (ss) which you get when you hit the retirement age. both programs are where your taxes go to. when you get it your automatically thrown on medicare (which you can supplement with state medicaid) so if you have good insurance then be prepared to take a few levels lower though it covers the basics and is better than obamacare. there are state programs too that i've heard of. as well as assistance programs for living like helping to pay the rent, food stamps (ebt) and free psychiatry (kinda like a clinic but for the brain).
in the usa it's social security disability (ssi) as opposed to social security (ss) which you get when you hit the retirement age. both programs are where your taxes go to. when you get it your automatically thrown on medicare (which you can supplement with state medicaid) so if you have good insurance then be prepared to take a few levels lower though it covers the basics and is better than obamacare. there are state programs too that i've heard of. as well as assistance programs for living like helping to pay the rent, food stamps (ebt) and free psychiatry (kinda like a clinic but for the brain).
Rosi71 ? I am truly sorry you are going threw this. Unfortunately, I honestly do not think it is due to Invega. You should really consider going to your doctor and taking to him about what you are experiencing.
My receptors are still blocked. That is why I do not feel full when I eat and I can not get high off weed. I do have emotions.
I am begging you Rosi71 ? please, please go see your doctor sweetie. U cross my mind everyday. I have nothing but best wishes for you. I'm sending good vibes, positive thoughts, peace and love your way Rosi71 ? please keep us updated. Even thou it may not be Invega, myself and I'm sure others here have grown to care about you. If you want to contact me on facebook, search Jeffrey Stephanie Donithan. U will find me.
Please, if anyone agrees with me, feel free to chime in with encouragement.
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Thanks for the response invegauser and robe11. Invegauser can you please calculate for me how long it would take for me to heal if I got eleven jabs of 100mg? (Sustenna). Is two whole years enough? I?m planning on postponing my studies until I gain my memory back.
Welcome dellad. I think it?s best you don?t talk about kundalini to your pdoc, it will get you another round of invega for sure. My schizophrenia too started with an episode of kundalini. I met my twin soul and I started feeling vibrations on my body and I had a great sense of peace and tranquility. I went through a dark night of the soul too and I learnt to forgive everyone that wronged me. My scoliosis healed. The scariest part was that birds kept following me. I still remember I was at an outdoor restaurant and a flock of birds kept circling my table while the rest of the customers threw me dirty looks. So glad to hear that I?m not the only one who thinks my schizophrenia is psychic, and not entirely an illness.
I didn?t know what happened back then although a voice told me to google twin souls. Then everything returned to normal and I started googling to find answers but became delusional instead. I was only seventeen at that time and fell victim to all sorts of new age doctrine.
Feel free to share any other psychic theories and experiences.
Sorry if this is out of topic, if so tell me and I?ll stop posting things like that.
Welcome dellad. I think it?s best you don?t talk about kundalini to your pdoc, it will get you another round of invega for sure. My schizophrenia too started with an episode of kundalini. I met my twin soul and I started feeling vibrations on my body and I had a great sense of peace and tranquility. I went through a dark night of the soul too and I learnt to forgive everyone that wronged me. My scoliosis healed. The scariest part was that birds kept following me. I still remember I was at an outdoor restaurant and a flock of birds kept circling my table while the rest of the customers threw me dirty looks. So glad to hear that I?m not the only one who thinks my schizophrenia is psychic, and not entirely an illness.
I didn?t know what happened back then although a voice told me to google twin souls. Then everything returned to normal and I started googling to find answers but became delusional instead. I was only seventeen at that time and fell victim to all sorts of new age doctrine.
Feel free to share any other psychic theories and experiences.
Sorry if this is out of topic, if so tell me and I?ll stop posting things like that.
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With a label like schizophrenia it's very hard for the government to turn down an application for disability.
@shadypenguin Sadly I had already disposed it to my 2nd doc but not to my 3rd doc as I quickly learnt not to discuss or mention Kundalini. However it was a long struggle to maintain composure and get my doc to approve monitoring instead of another shot.@Invegauser I had thoughts of applying for ssi but I doubt I will get it with only 2 shots of Invega and 25 days in two mental institutions. I am withdrawing from all meds so I doubt I?ll get approved. I just don?t know how I?ll make it thru recovery. Eight months is a long time to recover from poison.
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Day 119
Tomorrow will be the four month mark. Today I'm feeling ok. The invega rejected through my workouts and cardio leaves me a bit tired and depression symptoms as well as depersonalisation. On the days I feel fantastic, I believe I'll soon be recovered but after each workout, the poison comes back to remind me the hard way it's not over yet. The only way for me to know that I'm done with it is to go through some tough sports sessions and cardio. If I feel normal the following days, it means I'm done with it.
Tomorrow will be the four month mark. Today I'm feeling ok. The invega rejected through my workouts and cardio leaves me a bit tired and depression symptoms as well as depersonalisation. On the days I feel fantastic, I believe I'll soon be recovered but after each workout, the poison comes back to remind me the hard way it's not over yet. The only way for me to know that I'm done with it is to go through some tough sports sessions and cardio. If I feel normal the following days, it means I'm done with it.
Hang in there. U only have a couple few months left. Good luck to u.
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Is it possible that everyone on Invega is experiencing the Dark Night Of The Soul? Will we all be changed people after the experience? I want to heal as fast as Zack365 has.
I'm still here, wondering when I'll get better. Every day I have terrible bowel movements wondering if the poison is leaving my body. I've been eating healthy and on a juice cleanse, does anyone think that will help?
I'm still here, wondering when I'll get better. Every day I have terrible bowel movements wondering if the poison is leaving my body. I've been eating healthy and on a juice cleanse, does anyone think that will help?
I have burning cold chills in chest and upper arms and am bedridden. Do you have the same symptoms or is this my Kundalini flare?This is my second Dark Night of Soul and this one is a monster! But I shouldn?t compare it already as mine is only a beginning phase.
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@shadypenguin: in order to be as accurate as possible i would need to know dosages exactly so are all of them 100mg beginning to end?
@dellad: you have to apply for it several times i hear. as long as your labeled with a mental illness that's all the government needs to run your criteria for. mental illness is easy to get labeled with and not so easy to get un-labeled. it's not like a stamp they give you on your hand or a certificate that says your not mentally ill so it's black and white as far as the government is concerned. as some would tell other people it doesn't hurt to apply if it will take 8 months to heal. though i don't know exactly how long it will take for you i hope it is much, much sooner. i hate seeing anyone suffering from the poison.
@Steph78: http://www.invega.com/invega-side-effects-schizoaffective-disorder-treatment the official invega sustenna website (one of them anyways, haha). "Call your doctor right away if you develop symptoms such as a high fever, rigid muscles, shaking, confusion, sweating more than usual, increased heart rate or blood pressure, or muscle pain or weakness"
here's the kicker. it's listed under the call your doctor part which is basically to say "we think this might be a bad thing, we know it can be a bad thing with many meds/pscyh meds but really we're covering our butts legally and insurance wise."
sweating is not only something that happens when your having a bad reaction to a med but also happens at first due to the poison. later on as your almost fully healed it happens as well. though there is no explanation for this it has been posted by those here in the past. i too still experience this but to a much smaller degree. might i also remind you that sweating is a side effect of paxil. "severe nervous system reaction--very stiff (rigid) muscles, high fever, sweating, confusion, fast or uneven heartbeats, tremors, fainting;" from https://www.rxlist.com/paxil-side-effects-drug-center.htm
this other one seems to have more people talking of that specific side effect. https://www.drugs.com/answers/paxil-sweating-is-bad-does-it-ever-stop-or-could-394080.html
i know i delete my posts from time to time (thanks invega) but one of my theories is that invega/xeplion is an upper of sorts. stiff muscles, cells that get closed off and many of the other side effects/withdrawal symptoms support this plus my experience with drugs in my life. i believe we sweat because our cells are returning to a more natural breathing state as well as the internal pressure of our body is trying to go back to normal. i.e. we've been running pretty high as far as bio rhythms go and our bodies need a cool off period. those who have healed in the past do say it stops once you are fully healed.
business aside i wanted to say that was a very beautiful and sincere post to Rosi71 and i hope she takes your advice as encouragement. i agree with what you said as well.
@Offvega: yes. though what you mean by weak idk for sure. i've experienced it in several ways myself. being light headed that leads to balance issues, low blood pressure leading me to feel faint and almost pass out standing up as well as muscle fatigue (hence one reason i think invega is an upper). i think other people experience this as well but i'm not them, i hope they chime in and share their experiences with you.
@hoffsteader: what's going on buddie, you still got one more injection to go before you can stop taking it?
@dellad: you have to apply for it several times i hear. as long as your labeled with a mental illness that's all the government needs to run your criteria for. mental illness is easy to get labeled with and not so easy to get un-labeled. it's not like a stamp they give you on your hand or a certificate that says your not mentally ill so it's black and white as far as the government is concerned. as some would tell other people it doesn't hurt to apply if it will take 8 months to heal. though i don't know exactly how long it will take for you i hope it is much, much sooner. i hate seeing anyone suffering from the poison.
@Steph78: http://www.invega.com/invega-side-effects-schizoaffective-disorder-treatment the official invega sustenna website (one of them anyways, haha). "Call your doctor right away if you develop symptoms such as a high fever, rigid muscles, shaking, confusion, sweating more than usual, increased heart rate or blood pressure, or muscle pain or weakness"
here's the kicker. it's listed under the call your doctor part which is basically to say "we think this might be a bad thing, we know it can be a bad thing with many meds/pscyh meds but really we're covering our butts legally and insurance wise."
sweating is not only something that happens when your having a bad reaction to a med but also happens at first due to the poison. later on as your almost fully healed it happens as well. though there is no explanation for this it has been posted by those here in the past. i too still experience this but to a much smaller degree. might i also remind you that sweating is a side effect of paxil. "severe nervous system reaction--very stiff (rigid) muscles, high fever, sweating, confusion, fast or uneven heartbeats, tremors, fainting;" from https://www.rxlist.com/paxil-side-effects-drug-center.htm
this other one seems to have more people talking of that specific side effect. https://www.drugs.com/answers/paxil-sweating-is-bad-does-it-ever-stop-or-could-394080.html
i know i delete my posts from time to time (thanks invega) but one of my theories is that invega/xeplion is an upper of sorts. stiff muscles, cells that get closed off and many of the other side effects/withdrawal symptoms support this plus my experience with drugs in my life. i believe we sweat because our cells are returning to a more natural breathing state as well as the internal pressure of our body is trying to go back to normal. i.e. we've been running pretty high as far as bio rhythms go and our bodies need a cool off period. those who have healed in the past do say it stops once you are fully healed.
business aside i wanted to say that was a very beautiful and sincere post to Rosi71 and i hope she takes your advice as encouragement. i agree with what you said as well.
@Offvega: yes. though what you mean by weak idk for sure. i've experienced it in several ways myself. being light headed that leads to balance issues, low blood pressure leading me to feel faint and almost pass out standing up as well as muscle fatigue (hence one reason i think invega is an upper). i think other people experience this as well but i'm not them, i hope they chime in and share their experiences with you.
@hoffsteader: what's going on buddie, you still got one more injection to go before you can stop taking it?
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Hey guys. I'm a recovery story from halfway this year. I was able to get high drunk all that within 10 months of recovery I was having a really hard time with arrhythmia for my heart with normal day stuff then exercise.
Definitely look into vegterian ism that was the straw that broke the camels back. I have a normal - lower heart rate now because of veggies and I feel like my old self again. That and I would tell u guys also to look into CBD oil (the legal kind) for all others.
Recovery is possible, this stuff is terrible, but u will get through it.
Good luck guys
Definitely look into vegterian ism that was the straw that broke the camels back. I have a normal - lower heart rate now because of veggies and I feel like my old self again. That and I would tell u guys also to look into CBD oil (the legal kind) for all others.
Recovery is possible, this stuff is terrible, but u will get through it.
Good luck guys
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hey undiminished689. glad your still doing well and the arrhythmia cleared up finally. thanks for posting some hope.
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@Offvega: I understand the struggle and it is real. I felt weaker as well for a few months. Now it's better. I must have around 5 mg of Invega left in my body knowing I've run, exercised and walked quite a lot. I wanted to be the first one to heal under 4 months time. It didn't happen but it was worth a try. I can at least see the end of the tunnel as I move forward and can say with confidence I have two or three more weeks to go.
My friends told me I was less joyful. The first month I had loss of sexual desire, now it's the complete opposite. I just need to wait for my body to rebalance my hormones. I feel like I was the only one on this thread to have the libido of a porn star and I can say it's no fun to have hypersexuality. Doesn't make life any better. But it does get better!
My friends told me I was less joyful. The first month I had loss of sexual desire, now it's the complete opposite. I just need to wait for my body to rebalance my hormones. I feel like I was the only one on this thread to have the libido of a porn star and I can say it's no fun to have hypersexuality. Doesn't make life any better. But it does get better!
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Day 120
Invegauser, this is actually my second day of school since I didn't have any class on tuesday.
I had a headache when I woke up maybe unrelated to invega. I remember the days when I was a freaking warrior, when I could work out and go all out, exercise until my muscles felt sore. That's very encouraging I can visualize myself this way. At the same time, I miss my old self. At school, I feel like I am unable to socialize.
Invegauser, this is actually my second day of school since I didn't have any class on tuesday.
I had a headache when I woke up maybe unrelated to invega. I remember the days when I was a freaking warrior, when I could work out and go all out, exercise until my muscles felt sore. That's very encouraging I can visualize myself this way. At the same time, I miss my old self. At school, I feel like I am unable to socialize.
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