Quitting opiates, please help me!!

[TheUnforgiven]

I am a 24 year old male who has been a recreational drug user for 10 years. I got in an accident two years ago and being the addict I am have abused my prescriptions and am to the point where if I don't quit now I will die. My current regimen is as follows; I snort 2-3 40mg Opana ER everyday and also take 80-150mg oxy daily. I can't live like this anymore. I feel as if I'm dying inside. I have read multiple threads on tapering, Thomas recipe, subs and what not. This site has helped me so much already. I'm writing this now just for the support. I just want to feel like I'm not alone and that someone actually cares about me(yea right).. I can't taper, tried 100s of times, I have no discipline. I have bought all the goodies from the Thomas recipe and will cold turkey starting in the morning. I'm so scared! I can handle the physical symptoms, but the mental and emotional symptoms are too much to handle. I get myself into a scary, scary place mentally when I'm withdrawing, like suicidal scary. I just want my life back, I want to look in the mirror and actually recognize whose looking back at me, I don't want to die....anybody, please just comment to show support, anything at all. I'm terrified

 

[Trying2Iso]

Narcotics anonymous can help meetings are cool
i found one for 18-25 year olds there are cute girls who go there
kinda strange to meet a girl @ a meeting but they're a calming presence anyhow

 

[placid space]

heh, come on man, first of all youre not going to die! You need to relax a bit or youre going to suffer more from the cr*p youre creating with your mind than the actual WD. We've all been through it and while it can be pretty awful its usually our minds that make it so much worse. We human beings just like to exaggerate things and feel sorry for ourselves. Sure, you do have quite a tolerance and I know how it becomes a huge burden. Ive also WDed from an even longer addiction and in the end it wasnt half as bad as I imagined. The discipline really can be the biggest problem. Regarding tapering, did you ever try to talk to your dealer if hes a buddy of yours to maybe help you out a bit and limit your purchases for a while at least. Or do you have access to substitol (morphine sulfate extended release/ slow release morphine..capsules with little pebbles inside that you can measure out as you please ), not sure whats it called in the states. Those are very easy to taper down and easily replace H with very few of the downfalls. But they can be difficult to aquire. Maybe limit yourself financially.
Cold turkey is the fastest yeah but the harshest. If I were you Id at least keep like a 40mg oxy and spread it out over 2 days. Its not tapering , more like to smooth out the worst moments of the cold turkey. Just make sure you cannot obtain more at that time. People who say cold turkey or nothing are being ridiculous. Its not a step back at all as long as the amount ingested is only a small part of the daily dose. And it can make the WD bearable enough to finish it.

In any case just know dude,youre not alone, most of us have dealt with that and it gives you more compassion for others in the same mess so dont think people dont care. Do come back and tell how youre doing or ask questions. And dont be terrified, objectively speaking, its not that big of a deal, people have much more serious problems. Stop being so hard on yourself. And once you start realizing how sh*tty the path with H is your determination will only grow stronger and you will be closer to being rid of it. Dont forget to plan ahead, free time can be a b*tch, once youre clean you need to bury yourself in activities or work and especially exercise (most important) for a while so you brain chemistry balances itself out a bit.
good luck

 

[Crazyfrog]

I am a 24 year old male who has been a recreational drug user for 10 years. I got in an accident two years ago and being the addict I am have abused my prescriptions and am to the point where if I don't quit now I will die. My current regimen is as follows; I snort 2-3 40mg Opana ER everyday and also take 80-150mg oxy daily. I can't live like this anymore. I feel as if I'm dying inside. I have read multiple threads on tapering, Thomas recipe, subs and what not. This site has helped me so much already. I'm writing this now just for the support. I just want to feel like I'm not alone and that someone actually cares about me(yea right).. I can't taper, tried 100s of times, I have no discipline. I have bought all the goodies from the Thomas recipe and will cold turkey starting in the morning. I'm so scared! I can handle the physical symptoms, but the mental and emotional symptoms are too much to handle. I get myself into a scary, scary place mentally when I'm withdrawing, like suicidal scary. I just want my life back, I want to look in the mirror and actually recognize whose looking back at me, I don't want to die....anybody, please just comment to show support, anything at all. I'm terrified

Im no doctor. Use this at tyour own risk. Take 100mg of loperamide then taper down each day. This was the only thing that took my withdrawals away 99.99%. Incredible i tell you. I hate the mental part of withdrawals . Makes me very depressed. Deep dark depression . Lope took that away aswell. Miracle ferric drug. Just try it. I found of that 100mg was too much for me. But 60 to 70mg was just right. Dude..... just try our. Again. .. use at your own risk.

btw.. loperamide is anti diahrrea medicibe otc. Lololl. But it faking works.

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

If kratom is available in your area that might be an option and its easy to taper.and to the doc above me i respect your opinion but docs can be wrong to because they have never touched these substances.this site is full of junkie wisdom and i dont like your assumptions that drug addicts are creating misinformation.dont under mind the value of experience.

 

[Crazyfrog]

If kratom is available in your area that might be an option and its easy to taper.and to the doc above me i respect your opinion but docs can be wrong to because they have never touched these substances.this site is full of junkie wisdom and i dont like your assumptions that drug addicts are creating misinformation.dont under mind the value of experience.

Lol. I know. Junky wisdom is scary . But loperamide at aroung 60mg is incredible for withdrawals . Took 99.99999% of my sumptoms in 3 hours. Relief for 40 hours i noticed.

 

[WantToBeReborn]

TheUnforgiven, how are you getting on?

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

Crazy frog i wasnt referring to u as the doc or anything.there was a post above that was taken down and it was a guy claiming to be a doc and talkin crap about BL sorry if u thought i was talking about u cause u were above me.. And yes loperamide is great for the physical symptoms..hope u are doing well OP im rootin for ya %)

 

[cosmic._.ape]

kratom is good for tappering... once you got it, try to space the doses as much as you can. Try to do a maximum of 4 doses every 24 hours period, or 1 dose every 6 hours
Then, everyday reduce the amount of the doses by a little bit, like 5 or 10 percent less everyday. In this way pain will be managable.

Before you decide to take the last dose, start taking mucuna pruriens, aka velvet beans, to increase your dopamine levels -it will reduce the restlessness and increase your enthusiasm and energy levels.
You can also take one small dose of Iboga root bark a day (less than 1 gram a day). Most people prefer to take it in the mornings, as it gives them energy, but a few found it sedates them, and therefore they prefer to take before going to bed. It is up to you

Before taking any of these supplements, read as much as you can about them, specially Iboga, as it shouldn't be mixed with opiates or other substances. There's lots of information on the internet, and you should find it and read it.

 

[Crazyfrog]

Crazy frog i wasnt referring to u as the doc or anything.there was a post above that was taken down and it was a guy claiming to be a doc and talkin crap about BL sorry if u thought i was talking about u cause u were above me.. And yes loperamide is great for the physical symptoms..hope u are doing well OP im rootin for ya %)

Oh i see. Lol. No problem.