So I've been abusing opiates for about 2 years now as well as fighting a viscous battle with depression since i was about 13 years old. I have been on a suboxone clinic for a few months now but I've never taken it regularly, just stocked up on them and used them when i couldn't get my fix.
So anyways about 2 weeks ago I went on a mean run after my girlfriend broke up with me, shooting up to 2 grams of dope a day along with oxycodone and eating upwards of 10mg of klonopin a day. When the money and the drugs ran out I happened to be kicked out of my house for being caught using. I was dope sick as a motherfucker, depressed, hopeless and so alone so I decided to end my life. I ingested about 3 grams of DXM and blacked out and woke up in the ICU. I was found and I had survived. I felt weirdly ashamed for what I had tried to do and for the first time in my life I felt like I was done. I was done using opiates to try and cope with my depression that I have never tried to treat, I was done treating myself like shit and destroying my life. So I decided to try something new.
I ended up going to a dual diagnosis psych/detox unit. I started taking Prozac and its been helping stabilize my mood and control my depression. Its been 2 weeks since I ended up in the hospital and I'm still clean, still taking my meds, and I'm back on the suboxone clinic. Do you guys think I should stay on the clinic? I've just read so many horror stories about subs here on the forums I just don't know what to do. They help so much with my cravings and they improve my mood immensely along with the prozac. For the first time in 2 years I actually feel happy when I wake up and I'm excited about the day ahead of me. My plan was to use the suboxone for about 3 months and then taper down and get off them completely and go on the vivitrol shot. Is this a good plan? or should I stay away from the suboxone completely?
So anyways about 2 weeks ago I went on a mean run after my girlfriend broke up with me, shooting up to 2 grams of dope a day along with oxycodone and eating upwards of 10mg of klonopin a day. When the money and the drugs ran out I happened to be kicked out of my house for being caught using. I was dope sick as a motherfucker, depressed, hopeless and so alone so I decided to end my life. I ingested about 3 grams of DXM and blacked out and woke up in the ICU. I was found and I had survived. I felt weirdly ashamed for what I had tried to do and for the first time in my life I felt like I was done. I was done using opiates to try and cope with my depression that I have never tried to treat, I was done treating myself like shit and destroying my life. So I decided to try something new.
I ended up going to a dual diagnosis psych/detox unit. I started taking Prozac and its been helping stabilize my mood and control my depression. Its been 2 weeks since I ended up in the hospital and I'm still clean, still taking my meds, and I'm back on the suboxone clinic. Do you guys think I should stay on the clinic? I've just read so many horror stories about subs here on the forums I just don't know what to do. They help so much with my cravings and they improve my mood immensely along with the prozac. For the first time in 2 years I actually feel happy when I wake up and I'm excited about the day ahead of me. My plan was to use the suboxone for about 3 months and then taper down and get off them completely and go on the vivitrol shot. Is this a good plan? or should I stay away from the suboxone completely?
