Hi guys,
Got a big problem here. One that came to me real fast without me even seeing it. I have been on 32mg of hydromorphone (Dilaudid). I have some sever back problems and that is what my doc has had me on for a very long time. It's my only path to pain relief....feeling of my legs, less pain in my back. Back to my problem. My back pain became a lot worse when I was hit with a case of anemia. 32mg was not enough, and my doctor correctly did not give me any more or another opiate. Dilaudid was the only medicine that provided relief without nasty sides unlike other opiate meds.
So, instead of taking my D orally, my ROA soon became via IV. (all with the correct precautions) I was using it via IV for a little bit more than a year. And I honestly don't regret changing my ROA....it worked better and faster, and my pain went away quicker and for longer periods of time. I would feel my legs instantly. The pains in my back would be gone in seconds. I don't regret doing that. What I DO REGRET, is using heroin in times of great need.
I used to do a little MMA, and from time to time I would have a match. Maybe one every 2-3 months. I called it quits after a real bad injury to my back. The pain was insane. I was using more D than I was prescribed, running low and short at the end of the month. It was terrible. My wife at the same time left me (for different reasons, nothing related), I was very depressed and with the combination of both my physical pain and mental pain led me to use heroin. A couple of bags a day....sometimes 4-8. Depending on how I felt. I was never looking to have fun with heroin, I just wanted relief of pain fellas. Honest. I know it is wrong and I am to blame for the boat that I am in. I take full responsibility.
I need to stay on the Dilaudid. With that said, I want to never touch heroin again. I have done a lot of research, but seeing as how I want to remain on the Dilaudid (because I need it to be a normal person), I don't know what the best way to stop is. I tried cold turkey, and I failed. The sides where far too much for me to handle. I am on xanax (8mg) and seroquil (200mg) every day to begin with. I was also using grass to try and help with the sides. I kept making that phone call. I looked into sub and meth meds, I don't know which one to use or how much to take. My dose I imagine might differ than a regular H user because I am still going to be on the Dilaudid. I'm also going to have a problem getting a script for both sub/meth and my regular dose of Dilaudid. I can use just H and not use the Dilaudid. I came up with an idea, not sure if it will work, but I wanted to run it by you guys.
My idea was to continue my use of H for another 2 months. And in that time, save up my D so that I have an extra good amount. Stop the H and just use higher doses of D to help with the H sides?? Will much higher doses of D help with the WD? I can't find answers because all the material that I read is for people who want to come clean of all opiates. Lastly, I'm scared that if I ask for a script of sub/meth, my doc will no longer give me the Dilaudid that I need. Shall I go get the script from another doc? Look for a clinic? Given my odd and different surcumstances, what is your best advice in getting rid of this evil substance out of my life without going through the excrusiating pain of WD....or at least make it tolerable?? HELP!
Thanks in advance fellas. Would you believe I was a semi pro body builder at one time? Now I'm a man in pain all day, with a heroin habit, who just lost his wife and job. I'm doing my best to turn everything around. I'm still hurting both physically and emotionally. My anxiety attacks are more frequent. Basically a total mess....I don't want to give up, but I think the first place to start is to get this H out of my life.
Got a big problem here. One that came to me real fast without me even seeing it. I have been on 32mg of hydromorphone (Dilaudid). I have some sever back problems and that is what my doc has had me on for a very long time. It's my only path to pain relief....feeling of my legs, less pain in my back. Back to my problem. My back pain became a lot worse when I was hit with a case of anemia. 32mg was not enough, and my doctor correctly did not give me any more or another opiate. Dilaudid was the only medicine that provided relief without nasty sides unlike other opiate meds.
So, instead of taking my D orally, my ROA soon became via IV. (all with the correct precautions) I was using it via IV for a little bit more than a year. And I honestly don't regret changing my ROA....it worked better and faster, and my pain went away quicker and for longer periods of time. I would feel my legs instantly. The pains in my back would be gone in seconds. I don't regret doing that. What I DO REGRET, is using heroin in times of great need.
I used to do a little MMA, and from time to time I would have a match. Maybe one every 2-3 months. I called it quits after a real bad injury to my back. The pain was insane. I was using more D than I was prescribed, running low and short at the end of the month. It was terrible. My wife at the same time left me (for different reasons, nothing related), I was very depressed and with the combination of both my physical pain and mental pain led me to use heroin. A couple of bags a day....sometimes 4-8. Depending on how I felt. I was never looking to have fun with heroin, I just wanted relief of pain fellas. Honest. I know it is wrong and I am to blame for the boat that I am in. I take full responsibility.
I need to stay on the Dilaudid. With that said, I want to never touch heroin again. I have done a lot of research, but seeing as how I want to remain on the Dilaudid (because I need it to be a normal person), I don't know what the best way to stop is. I tried cold turkey, and I failed. The sides where far too much for me to handle. I am on xanax (8mg) and seroquil (200mg) every day to begin with. I was also using grass to try and help with the sides. I kept making that phone call. I looked into sub and meth meds, I don't know which one to use or how much to take. My dose I imagine might differ than a regular H user because I am still going to be on the Dilaudid. I'm also going to have a problem getting a script for both sub/meth and my regular dose of Dilaudid. I can use just H and not use the Dilaudid. I came up with an idea, not sure if it will work, but I wanted to run it by you guys.
My idea was to continue my use of H for another 2 months. And in that time, save up my D so that I have an extra good amount. Stop the H and just use higher doses of D to help with the H sides?? Will much higher doses of D help with the WD? I can't find answers because all the material that I read is for people who want to come clean of all opiates. Lastly, I'm scared that if I ask for a script of sub/meth, my doc will no longer give me the Dilaudid that I need. Shall I go get the script from another doc? Look for a clinic? Given my odd and different surcumstances, what is your best advice in getting rid of this evil substance out of my life without going through the excrusiating pain of WD....or at least make it tolerable?? HELP!
Thanks in advance fellas. Would you believe I was a semi pro body builder at one time? Now I'm a man in pain all day, with a heroin habit, who just lost his wife and job. I'm doing my best to turn everything around. I'm still hurting both physically and emotionally. My anxiety attacks are more frequent. Basically a total mess....I don't want to give up, but I think the first place to start is to get this H out of my life.
