watermellon
Bluelighter
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- May 27, 2011
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I'm not very good at expressing myself over the computer so bare with me
Ok here's the deal. Im 21 years old, live at home with my parents and younger bro. Recovering heroin addict and on low dose of bupe. I've been getting my shit together since getting on subs, went back to school to get my cdl (starting job after new years), made amends with the ppl i fucked over while i was strung out. you get the picture. My parents were the ones that suggested i get on subs to clean my act up. Since i don't have a job they are the ones paying for it, I am VERY grateful for that BUT Now here's the fucked up part.
They hold it over my head for everything. How fucked up is that? Its all a power play on their part. Just about every day i hear something along the lines of "blank blank blank......were the ones paying for your subs" holding it over my head to try and make me feel bad. Then they'll say something like we just want you to get better and will do everything we can. I have bipolar depression as it is. What their doing is basically like bullying. as if i don't already have enough of my own problems i get this to deal with on top of it. Heres another example. Take my birthday for example (i usually dont even ask for anything) But they just HAVE to say your subs are your presents, which im happy for but its just the way they say it, like there resentful of me.
Can anyone relate? like how fucked is it that im trying to better myself and i get nothing but shit from them and feel degraded on how im costing them soooo much money when it was their idea in the 1st place to get me on subs.
I could see if i did nothing around the house and sat on my ass all day but i do literally everything i can to help my parents. Got all the fire wood for the year, split it and stacked it, mow the grass all summer and other yard work, clean the house while their at work. But in their eyes in there exact words "you don't do anything around the house" really, fucking really. All summer the only thing my bro did was weed eat the yard 2 times all summer and both times my mom asked him to do it he fucking gave her hell about it. Couldn't even mow the lawn once, and yet according to them im the one that does nothing around here. He can sit on his ass all day smoke weed and sell weed out of my parents house and he can do no wrong.
I'm inches from telling them to eat a fucking bullet. I cant wait till the 1st of the year when i start my new job. Anyone else have to deal with dr jeckyl mr hyde type parents
end of rant
EDIT its mostly my mom who says this shit. I really don't know why she does it other than so she can feel like she has power over me. like oh if i don't get your meds you'll go dopesick. What a sick fuck.
Im moving my ass out as soon as i can afford a down payment on an appt. I'd still like to have a relationship with her but not right now shes dead as far as im concerned
Ok here's the deal. Im 21 years old, live at home with my parents and younger bro. Recovering heroin addict and on low dose of bupe. I've been getting my shit together since getting on subs, went back to school to get my cdl (starting job after new years), made amends with the ppl i fucked over while i was strung out. you get the picture. My parents were the ones that suggested i get on subs to clean my act up. Since i don't have a job they are the ones paying for it, I am VERY grateful for that BUT Now here's the fucked up part.
They hold it over my head for everything. How fucked up is that? Its all a power play on their part. Just about every day i hear something along the lines of "blank blank blank......were the ones paying for your subs" holding it over my head to try and make me feel bad. Then they'll say something like we just want you to get better and will do everything we can. I have bipolar depression as it is. What their doing is basically like bullying. as if i don't already have enough of my own problems i get this to deal with on top of it. Heres another example. Take my birthday for example (i usually dont even ask for anything) But they just HAVE to say your subs are your presents, which im happy for but its just the way they say it, like there resentful of me.
Can anyone relate? like how fucked is it that im trying to better myself and i get nothing but shit from them and feel degraded on how im costing them soooo much money when it was their idea in the 1st place to get me on subs.
I could see if i did nothing around the house and sat on my ass all day but i do literally everything i can to help my parents. Got all the fire wood for the year, split it and stacked it, mow the grass all summer and other yard work, clean the house while their at work. But in their eyes in there exact words "you don't do anything around the house" really, fucking really. All summer the only thing my bro did was weed eat the yard 2 times all summer and both times my mom asked him to do it he fucking gave her hell about it. Couldn't even mow the lawn once, and yet according to them im the one that does nothing around here. He can sit on his ass all day smoke weed and sell weed out of my parents house and he can do no wrong.
I'm inches from telling them to eat a fucking bullet. I cant wait till the 1st of the year when i start my new job. Anyone else have to deal with dr jeckyl mr hyde type parents
end of rant
EDIT its mostly my mom who says this shit. I really don't know why she does it other than so she can feel like she has power over me. like oh if i don't get your meds you'll go dopesick. What a sick fuck.
Im moving my ass out as soon as i can afford a down payment on an appt. I'd still like to have a relationship with her but not right now shes dead as far as im concerned
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