BenzosBudOrBooty
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- Jun 21, 2010
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I had like 20 mushroom trips and 10 acid trips and a couple DMT trips and a mescaline trip in a year and a half. Some crazier than others. 7 months since I've tripped....5 months completely sober from all drugs...I can notice myself integrating the trips so rapidly still every single day. I'm not crazy but when I came into recovery I was in tunnel vision and now my horizons have been broadened to a greater spectrum of vision towards my perception of reality....like I'm not any longer tunneled vision but now my perception is wider. I feel I've gained such insight through sobriety thanks to the trips I'm integrating, but I still have much work to do. My brain is still tight, and I'm hoping for it to "loosen" up. Or at least the HPPD/flashbacks to go away. They have gotten better but I heard they could last as long as 7 years (is there any truth to that?). I'm trying to make sobriety a mission and at the same time benefit from the integration I will still gain, but I definitely think I overdid it this time around. I wasn't one to get "fucked up" from hallucinogens, but moreso hoping to get a transformation to benefit my life/creativity/other things. Which I feel I can make at this point. Hard to explain, but I think some know what I'm saying.
I don't think hallucinogens truly make you more creative but they can change your insight/increase psychic awareness, which I still hope to accomplish. My dream is to double major in theology and psychology and study magicka/tarot/astrology and become a spiritual psychologist. Which I believe I can accomplish at this point as long as I stay sober. Well that's enough of me. I hope you guys can be responsive. Thanks.
And don't shit on my dreams! Moreso respond to what i'm saying about the drooogs I speak of. That's all peeeeeace.
I don't think hallucinogens truly make you more creative but they can change your insight/increase psychic awareness, which I still hope to accomplish. My dream is to double major in theology and psychology and study magicka/tarot/astrology and become a spiritual psychologist. Which I believe I can accomplish at this point as long as I stay sober. Well that's enough of me. I hope you guys can be responsive. Thanks.
And don't shit on my dreams! Moreso respond to what i'm saying about the drooogs I speak of. That's all peeeeeace.