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Abject

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it's normal to be unhappy in my situation
but improving my situation doesn't help enough
it's just not as bad
also i don't wanna live
i'm sick of this
sorry about the shit thread i was gonna post something else but my words are more useless than i am
 
you sound like me.

1. See the system. Understand the system
2. be able to behave well (= good judgement, fair and reasonable, self-control, strength in adversity)
3. set small goals in smart ways and work toward your destination

Most people really suck at #1.
And #2 is very difficult also.
#3 is the easiest.

However, #3 can be super helpful for you, assuming your post is accurate.
Goal setting..., psychology...
Look at the smallest part of your goal structure. If you've accomplished 2% , focus on the 2% (not the 98% to-go).

If you aren't meeting basic needs, then it's going to be harder to enjoy your small goals. So once you meet your basic needs it's a bit easier.

I am having a mental tantrum lately, because I see #1 insanely well opening the doors for such wonderful stuff, but I am terrified about death, and even if I don't die soon, I probably have like 5 good years left (of merely being disabled, rather than totally useless), So i am being a child and a scared dude and not doing #2(behavior), or #3(rational goal setting). I also don't meet my basic needs, so life is pretty miserable.
Yet, i am able to offer you some sound advice here buddy.
 
Abject said:
it's normal to be unhappy in my situation
but improving my situation doesn't help enough
it's just not as bad
also i don't wanna live
i'm sick of this
sorry about the shit thread i was gonna post something else but my words are more useless than i am
Click to expand...

Take it easy buddy!!
This is a bad phase and you will get over it.
Life in somewhere else is not a guarantee and you also could end up here if you tried.
Wait until your moment passes. You will be alright:)
 
I thought I deleted this but I guess not. Thanks for the replies

Corazon said:
you sound like me.

1. See the system. Understand the system
2. be able to behave well (= good judgement, fair and reasonable, self-control, strength in adversity)
3. set small goals in smart ways and work toward your destination

Most people really suck at #1.
And #2 is very difficult also.
#3 is the easiest.

However, #3 can be super helpful for you, assuming your post is accurate.
Goal setting..., psychology...
Look at the smallest part of your goal structure. If you've accomplished 2% , focus on the 2% (not the 98% to-go).

If you aren't meeting basic needs, then it's going to be harder to enjoy your small goals. So once you meet your basic needs it's a bit easier.

I am having a mental tantrum lately, because I see #1 insanely well opening the doors for such wonderful stuff, but I am terrified about death, and even if I don't die soon, I probably have like 5 good years left (of merely being disabled, rather than totally useless), So i am being a child and a scared dude and not doing #2(behavior), or #3(rational goal setting). I also don't meet my basic needs, so life is pretty miserable.
Yet, i am able to offer you some sound advice here buddy.
Click to expand...

I'm not sure what system you're referring to here. If you mean the social and economic system I'm not sure how to go about that. I know I need to engage both.
My behaviour is not out of control in the sense of a short temper/being an asshole but it is out of control in that I have no drive. I don't know how I'd like to conduct myself, and my demeanour is a product of my mental state and logic that's probably flawed.
Goals are probably the biggest problem out of these three, in that I have none. I don't want to live at home anymore, and I've wanted another bike since my last one broke, and money will allow me to eat how I like and provide chemical relief. This all points towards getting a job/source of income, but most employers require you to have your own transport to get an interview, and apart from 4ish months of casual work earlier this year I have no other experience or skills (and I'm a HS dropout) so I'm far from desirable to potential employers. Furthermore, if I got a job and all those things money would afford, I would still have the same problem, I'd just be distracted from it more often.
I have no destination. There are no external things I want, there's nothing in my control that will actually help. There's this half-responsibility, for example if I don't try to socialise I won't build any relationships but socialising in and of itself doesn't allow me to bond, it's out of my control but if I do not exercise what is in my control (that is, put myself out there) there's no way the aspect that isn't in my control can occur.
There's no value in my life, nothing with solid potential.. just far away possibility.

I'm sorry to hear you're having troubles with mortality and disability. I hope you're able to at least have your basic needs met soon.
 
Abject said:
Furthermore, if I got a job and all those things money would afford, I would still have the same problem, I'd just be distracted from it more often.
I have no destination. There are no external things I want, there's nothing in my control that will actually help. There's this half-responsibility, for example if I don't try to socialise I won't build any relationships but socialising in and of itself doesn't allow me to bond, it's out of my control but if I do not exercise what is in my control (that is, put myself out there) there's no way the aspect that isn't in my control can occur.
There's no value in my life, nothing with solid potential.. just far away possibility.
Click to expand...

Even if you aren't feeling a strong 'drive' in your life, being active can open a lot of doors.
Maybe nothing will happen and no progress will be made. But also a chance that once you have a job, and you have your own transportation, that you will see things a little differently or think a little differently. Change is never comfortable, but you don't sound comfortable being stagnant either...
 
Having money and a bike does make things better, no doubt about it... but not enough
Still felt the same with a bike and income, still gonna feel the same if i get my act together
I need to care about something, not even passion just meaning/significance
The logical thing to do is improve my situation in ways that are in my control, but all I can think is how inadequate it is and why live is it worth it
Don't feel like u need to reply I'm just expressing myself at this point
 
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