Yeah from personal experience. 1 out of 5 places actually seemed very on point ( the one i was actually in twice.. for yeah 6 detox's 5 places) . I mean if you wanna do it, you can do it anywhere but the fact alot of places are how they are can discourage people big time. The fact that no matter how bad it got i was forced to sit in meetings and groups also drove me insane. I already have a really bad G A D, S A D, Panic disorder, so obviously during a benzo detox these would increase big time. I woke up was somewhat ok, but it was definitely comming on. Then around 11am it was full blown UGLY NASTY wd's. So i laid in my room trying to read a book attempting to keep my mind off it. Their was a group thing going on and a CO came to my room and basically talked and talked and refused to leave me alone until i got up and went KNOWING i had a serious S A D, G A D and being clearly very sick from wd's. Needless to say i sat there panicing, buggin, sick as fuck. I would notice how being in a big group or even the smaller groups for that matter would make the wd's alot worse and making hallucinations mostly auditory alot worse.. I threw up all over myself while being forced to sit there and of course people started laughing or the usual oh what the fuck reaction and that draw of attention at me made it 1000 times worse. I ended up throwing up so i was allowed to go back to my room get in the shower and not go to meetings or groups for the rest of the day but still had to go to the counts ( they count and make sure people are there and didn't leave).
By the night time i was straight up gone, mentally and physically, i noticed i was hallucinating bad ( auditorily and visually) sounds were really sharp and weird like the sound of the metal chairs tapping eachother made me physically cringe and jump. i was a mess. So that night comes i couldn't sleep which i expected anyway so, The next morning comes and Again i was forced to sit in on a meeting even though i pretty much BEGGED not to and explained why and how it was making it worse. So im walked in there 5 mins after the meeting starts so that feeling of everyone staring at me as i walked in was really bad, then i was seated in the front row infront of the speaker ( drove me insane) then i noticed that feeling of it getting stronger and stronger and stronger, and i heard a chair tap another one and literely jumped and everyone in the meeting started laughing so i started to feel really bugged out EVEN WORSE, then that ZZZZZZZZZ from head to toe feeling like the panic attack feeling but stronger, then BOOM straight up grand mal seizure. Now while i feel like that seizure may of happened anyway, i cant help but think being forced into that situation where it was just straight overload mentally brought that on. Scary. Just makes me sick that these things go on.
For alot of people especially people with certain mental disorders i think if done in the right way around the right kind oof people watching out for them Outpatient like you're speaking of could me far more effective but i did notice for Heroin detox for me, i think the fact i was in a spot where i had no option but to go threw it and being far from home actually helped me stay, then at that good place i was at the workers, the people i was in the house with all that helped alot. ( there were only 10 people in the entire place and they had room for 11 all together every other place i was in was mobbed).
Be safe and stay strong,
-B
