Honestly, I know that it probably isn't the best idea to browse on bluelight when trying to recover but I sense that it can be very helpful to write about your experience. After I spent yesterday reading similar stories I felt that I got worse but still, today I want to share my shit.
I am 22 years old. I had before this evening (which I presume is the night of where this started) smoked pot occasionally, tried LSD once and ecstasy once. The come downs hade lasted for a day so there was nothing wierd.
Three months ago me and my friend decided to take an ecstasy pill each, the exact same kind as I (and many of my friends) had taken earlier, because we always bought from the same guy and in purchases of 3-5 pills.
We vomited 1 hour after taking the pill which made us smoke some pot just to enhance the feeling, which turned out to be an accurate move. After a few hours (and 2-3 beers) we felt that we were coming down and becoming normal so we bought some amphetamine (0.25 grams each) which we kept partying on for the rest of the evening. If it matters, the amphetamine was clumsy and in liquid form. We smoked more pot and drank a bit more. We also tried some coke, say a half "line" or whatever it is called. Besides a tingeling feeling in my nose, I felt nothing else. We partied for a total of 12 hours.
After 11 days this hell of a come down finally ended and I felt as my self again. During this come down I went to school and did everything as usual just feeling apathetic and anti-social.
A month after that I tried some ADHD medicin (36 mg) to study through the night for a smaller exam. The following day I felt having a come down with the same symptoms, anti-social and apathetic but it only lasted for a day.
After this I decided not to take CS ever again. And I kept on going with my life. Partying, studying etc.
Two months after that first night it was time for some exams. I studied every chance I got, from morning to night and after two weeks I was finally done. Still feeling normal. Here comes the wierd part.
After the exams it was time for my project I had been working on with a big group of others for a year to finally take place. My part required me to speak infront of large student groups of 2-300 people a few times and also one time act as a host on stage a whole evening. Everything went on for two weeks. During these two weeks I felt my work capacity get worse from day to day.
If I could stay concentrated and as my self one full day, the next day I would be able to work to 16.00 and the day after that to 14.00 etc. until I reached that day where I couldn't do anything.
After that day I have been experiencing almost the same symptoms as when I had the come down, mostly anti-social, apathetic and also anxiety and that was 3 weeks ago.
Since then I have started working out, eating healthier, taking some vitamins (Omega-3, magnesium) etc. which have made me feel better over these last weeks but I have stopped going to school. My doctor said it was a serious stress reaction which meant I needed to take a break from everything but I did not tell her about the drug part.
Hopefully soon I will start meeting with a psychologist. But I still have questions. Should I talk to my doctor and tell her everything and hope she can help me? (She would have confidentiality, checked it out.) Should I go back to school again? Just try to be normal? Because at the moment I am not doing anything of "worth" besides working out I feel.
Also I still have some ecstasy left which is the same kind as I took, should I get it tested?
I am 22 years old. I had before this evening (which I presume is the night of where this started) smoked pot occasionally, tried LSD once and ecstasy once. The come downs hade lasted for a day so there was nothing wierd.
Three months ago me and my friend decided to take an ecstasy pill each, the exact same kind as I (and many of my friends) had taken earlier, because we always bought from the same guy and in purchases of 3-5 pills.
We vomited 1 hour after taking the pill which made us smoke some pot just to enhance the feeling, which turned out to be an accurate move. After a few hours (and 2-3 beers) we felt that we were coming down and becoming normal so we bought some amphetamine (0.25 grams each) which we kept partying on for the rest of the evening. If it matters, the amphetamine was clumsy and in liquid form. We smoked more pot and drank a bit more. We also tried some coke, say a half "line" or whatever it is called. Besides a tingeling feeling in my nose, I felt nothing else. We partied for a total of 12 hours.
After 11 days this hell of a come down finally ended and I felt as my self again. During this come down I went to school and did everything as usual just feeling apathetic and anti-social.
A month after that I tried some ADHD medicin (36 mg) to study through the night for a smaller exam. The following day I felt having a come down with the same symptoms, anti-social and apathetic but it only lasted for a day.
After this I decided not to take CS ever again. And I kept on going with my life. Partying, studying etc.
Two months after that first night it was time for some exams. I studied every chance I got, from morning to night and after two weeks I was finally done. Still feeling normal. Here comes the wierd part.
After the exams it was time for my project I had been working on with a big group of others for a year to finally take place. My part required me to speak infront of large student groups of 2-300 people a few times and also one time act as a host on stage a whole evening. Everything went on for two weeks. During these two weeks I felt my work capacity get worse from day to day.
If I could stay concentrated and as my self one full day, the next day I would be able to work to 16.00 and the day after that to 14.00 etc. until I reached that day where I couldn't do anything.
After that day I have been experiencing almost the same symptoms as when I had the come down, mostly anti-social, apathetic and also anxiety and that was 3 weeks ago.
Since then I have started working out, eating healthier, taking some vitamins (Omega-3, magnesium) etc. which have made me feel better over these last weeks but I have stopped going to school. My doctor said it was a serious stress reaction which meant I needed to take a break from everything but I did not tell her about the drug part.
Hopefully soon I will start meeting with a psychologist. But I still have questions. Should I talk to my doctor and tell her everything and hope she can help me? (She would have confidentiality, checked it out.) Should I go back to school again? Just try to be normal? Because at the moment I am not doing anything of "worth" besides working out I feel.
Also I still have some ecstasy left which is the same kind as I took, should I get it tested?
