m060mm
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TL;DR, I'll bold the important parts if it'll get you to chime in:
I was forced to go cold turkey off 16mg/day Suboxone because my doctor didn't and still won't renew his Suboxone-specific license - not for any stated reason. He also cut off the Dexedrine and clonazepam in the same visit. I didn't do anything ie. relapse, act inappropriate, abuse my medication, etc. to warrant this He just felt we should take this time to go back to square one and address my major recurrent depression. Ever hear of PAWS? Of COURSE I'm going to be depressed after this ordeal, if not spiritually, physiologically. He has other patients dependent on him... I don't know what's going on with them, naturally.
My doctor had me on:
I was highly dependent on this man, with next to no other options given my insurance and three and a half years of history working together.
*For anyone unfamiliar with Suboxone, doctors have to take a ten hour training course to be able to prescribe it. In my opinion it's far more addictive than heroin when it comes to dependency and it's analgesic properties beat it there, too. And 16mg is a pretty high dose to cruise on with no foreseeable end date. But that's not my responsibility to consider. I believe 24mg is the max allowable per day with no exception.
Anyway, these licenses require renewal like all others, and he just let his lapse. He knew it was going to run out and he chose not to act. He has other patients on Suboxone he's said, but I have no idea how they're handling it. When he failed to get me my Suboxone within two weeks of it running out early on, I relapsed. Twice.
I know I'm somewhat responsible here, but just consider the negligence facet for a minute to see if I'm blowing this out of proportion. I suffered heroin-like withdrawal [several times] due to my doctor's poor communication, lack of diligence, neglect and sheer laziness. He's had me 'wait' for a prescription plenty of times, but now he's not even trying to renew it. I had to resort to tapering myself down with street-purchased Suboxone because he's not even trying to renew his license.
Is this malpractice? I've suffered severely over these three years; I came to him in a fragile, needy state to begin with and he has fumbled at so many crucial turns and made my recovery far more difficult than need be. It's like he just looks at the sheet of paper instead of a person. I'm in severe pain, shaky, depressed, feeling hopeless and worn out. This isn't the state you want to be in when you come off a drug-barring medication. I'm not trying to play up my side, I'm just saying it was an easily avoidable problem that resulted in very powerful one-sided consequences.
I was forced to go cold turkey off 16mg/day Suboxone because my doctor didn't and still won't renew his Suboxone-specific license - not for any stated reason. He also cut off the Dexedrine and clonazepam in the same visit. I didn't do anything ie. relapse, act inappropriate, abuse my medication, etc. to warrant this He just felt we should take this time to go back to square one and address my major recurrent depression. Ever hear of PAWS? Of COURSE I'm going to be depressed after this ordeal, if not spiritually, physiologically. He has other patients dependent on him... I don't know what's going on with them, naturally.
My doctor had me on:
- 16mg Suboxone
- 1mg clonazepam
- 45mg Dexedrine
I was highly dependent on this man, with next to no other options given my insurance and three and a half years of history working together.
*For anyone unfamiliar with Suboxone, doctors have to take a ten hour training course to be able to prescribe it. In my opinion it's far more addictive than heroin when it comes to dependency and it's analgesic properties beat it there, too. And 16mg is a pretty high dose to cruise on with no foreseeable end date. But that's not my responsibility to consider. I believe 24mg is the max allowable per day with no exception.
Anyway, these licenses require renewal like all others, and he just let his lapse. He knew it was going to run out and he chose not to act. He has other patients on Suboxone he's said, but I have no idea how they're handling it. When he failed to get me my Suboxone within two weeks of it running out early on, I relapsed. Twice.
I know I'm somewhat responsible here, but just consider the negligence facet for a minute to see if I'm blowing this out of proportion. I suffered heroin-like withdrawal [several times] due to my doctor's poor communication, lack of diligence, neglect and sheer laziness. He's had me 'wait' for a prescription plenty of times, but now he's not even trying to renew it. I had to resort to tapering myself down with street-purchased Suboxone because he's not even trying to renew his license.
Is this malpractice? I've suffered severely over these three years; I came to him in a fragile, needy state to begin with and he has fumbled at so many crucial turns and made my recovery far more difficult than need be. It's like he just looks at the sheet of paper instead of a person. I'm in severe pain, shaky, depressed, feeling hopeless and worn out. This isn't the state you want to be in when you come off a drug-barring medication. I'm not trying to play up my side, I'm just saying it was an easily avoidable problem that resulted in very powerful one-sided consequences.