I never liked stimulants, they are a huge turn off for me. I tried coke like 5 times in my life & hated it every time. I had to drink wine to level off. I hated how my heart would go nuts whike I sat there doing coke. Makes no sense to me. I even hate drinking coffee & havent touched coffee or anything with caffeine since 1993.
I remember back in college when a kid was selling crack, he asked if I wanted some for free & I told him to take a hike. The thing that scared me of doing it was how people look & how they turn out after getting addicted, simply scared me from not touching it. Same thing with meth, seen how your story & other stories I read & how lives are destroyed & some of the pictures of meth addicts, wow, disgusting looking & thats why I never touched meth. Last time I touched coke was 2003 & wont be touching it ever again.
Did have some Neuro Blast from the U.K. which is a pill that keeps you up for over 24 hours but never made my heart beat like coke or never gave me the edgy feeling like caffeine. Anyway, I stopped taking those pills several years ago also. I only took a handful of those pills over the course of 3 years. I never could sustain abusing a drug for long periods of time. I simply get bored of them. Like, blah.....I dont wanna do this shit anymore, it just doesnt do it for me, thats how I get & maybe thats a good thing.
I just cant see how someone keeps doing meth like the original poster for long periods of time w/o getting enough sleep & having your heart beat like you about to have a heart attack every time & keep doing it over & over every night, just insane imo.
Glad you were able to stop the meth & clean up. Enjoy your sobriety & have fun in life, because we're only here for a while.