Well here we are,
I didn't even realize that today is 1 month clean. I think I just had a moment of thought that might be so simple. By not focusing on the number of days clean, I didn't feel that pressure each and every day.
Think back to when we were kids and couldn't wait for Christmas. Well we had this daily countdown calendar that each day we would open one door every day, read the scripture, and repeat for 25 days until Christmas was here. Point being, focusing on a countdown made the days seem longer and more drawn out waiting for the ultimate day. So I know we all say day by day, but waking up every day, counting the days until you hope you're completely sober almost seems counterintuitive. By counting we apply more stress to an already stressful situation.
If you reduce the mental anguish, then all you have left to worry about is the physical, and I think we all know what to do there. I didn't even realize today is one month until I was congratulating another for their number of days clean.
I'm trying to choose my words carefully as to no offend, so if counting each day helps you through this process, go for it.
Ever been to an AA or NA meeting and asked over and over, "so how long you been clean?", well if the plan is to be sober for the rest of your life, then what difference does it make, 2 days or 30 years, sure once we are out of the proverbial woods, then celebrating certain amounts of time sober is fine because the pressure is not nearly as daunting.
Sorry if this is long but now that I have a fucking brain again, it's just amazing to way you can analyze and assess different situations. Anyways, it's just a thought, so now you know I'm one month clean and this will be the last time I address my length of sobriety until I hit major milestones. I'll still post about my recovery but I won't number the days, or give my addiction the fucking recognition of celebrating it's hold on me, or for that matter it's release of me.
What I know is, I'm clean, sober, and so thrilled. I chose life, and when I did, I committed for the rest of my life. Thank you all that read this. I wonder if im going to get shit for this, but I wonder how others view my thoughts and thats why I post this. I'm not afraid of opposing thoughts, I just don't want any one to take offense.
Love you all,
Bob
I didn't even realize that today is 1 month clean. I think I just had a moment of thought that might be so simple. By not focusing on the number of days clean, I didn't feel that pressure each and every day.
Think back to when we were kids and couldn't wait for Christmas. Well we had this daily countdown calendar that each day we would open one door every day, read the scripture, and repeat for 25 days until Christmas was here. Point being, focusing on a countdown made the days seem longer and more drawn out waiting for the ultimate day. So I know we all say day by day, but waking up every day, counting the days until you hope you're completely sober almost seems counterintuitive. By counting we apply more stress to an already stressful situation.
If you reduce the mental anguish, then all you have left to worry about is the physical, and I think we all know what to do there. I didn't even realize today is one month until I was congratulating another for their number of days clean.
I'm trying to choose my words carefully as to no offend, so if counting each day helps you through this process, go for it.
Ever been to an AA or NA meeting and asked over and over, "so how long you been clean?", well if the plan is to be sober for the rest of your life, then what difference does it make, 2 days or 30 years, sure once we are out of the proverbial woods, then celebrating certain amounts of time sober is fine because the pressure is not nearly as daunting.
Sorry if this is long but now that I have a fucking brain again, it's just amazing to way you can analyze and assess different situations. Anyways, it's just a thought, so now you know I'm one month clean and this will be the last time I address my length of sobriety until I hit major milestones. I'll still post about my recovery but I won't number the days, or give my addiction the fucking recognition of celebrating it's hold on me, or for that matter it's release of me.
What I know is, I'm clean, sober, and so thrilled. I chose life, and when I did, I committed for the rest of my life. Thank you all that read this. I wonder if im going to get shit for this, but I wonder how others view my thoughts and thats why I post this. I'm not afraid of opposing thoughts, I just don't want any one to take offense.
Love you all,
Bob
