im honestly not ready to stop ruining my life and ppls around me. if i had a million dollars id sit at home high and never leave except for cigs and food.
i was wondering when you guys think, or if uve had experiance, its safe to use opiates again without cause me to go into/reseting my withdrawls. i plan to use 3pm tomarrow(tuesday) i last used 9pm last monday thats 7-8 days
history
x3 ten bags of heroin all thru last friday last of it at 5am ( i snort)
then quit but failed n went down last sunday night n used about 8/10s of a ten at 3am
monday i used the rest which was a full ten n the rest of sundays, and i was suprised how lit i got. i did maybe 3/10 of the total i had, n was suprised, and 2 hours later said fuck ima just do it all n nodded for 3hours woke up not high and pissed ( i only mention this so you understand how i kinda tapered or had my tolerance lowered from spaced out w/d and kinda smaller doses)
loner history would be i used oxy for a solid 4 years b4 5ish months of subs then i quit for about a year, then was on perc 10s that would get me high for about 8 mothns then i started to use heroin for 2 years.. just quit monday
so what u think. think ill get w/d? i want to use tomarrow. that will be around 6 hours short of 7full days without anything( i like to count my days starting at 24hours AFTER my last dose)
if u think i will when do u think is safe. i dont want to hurt myself with w/d again
im going to have drug tests and this is why ive quit, and it has forced me to be really sucessfull. its weird, i want to use as soon as i can and gret away with it both legally and physically, and im happy to not be a slave, i like the way i feel better everyday. but i still have designs its weird. guess this is the addict for life thing i hear. and my dreams...my fucking dreams.
in my dream last night. i met a girl from highschool who i used to date/want but nothing happened (cept with her friend - HEYYAA). n after dating we never saw each other she started using and moved outa state, so i was at like a house party and she had OC 95s that were black ( lmao i know dreams) i immediastly wanted one and in my brain was thinking on to con her cuz i had no money, she said no dont worry just pay me later and put in it my hand, i immediatly took half and chewed it idk why ( im a snorter). using dreams are weird, especially when u wake up thinking u have some left over for a quarter of a second.
i was wondering when you guys think, or if uve had experiance, its safe to use opiates again without cause me to go into/reseting my withdrawls. i plan to use 3pm tomarrow(tuesday) i last used 9pm last monday thats 7-8 days
history
x3 ten bags of heroin all thru last friday last of it at 5am ( i snort)
then quit but failed n went down last sunday night n used about 8/10s of a ten at 3am
monday i used the rest which was a full ten n the rest of sundays, and i was suprised how lit i got. i did maybe 3/10 of the total i had, n was suprised, and 2 hours later said fuck ima just do it all n nodded for 3hours woke up not high and pissed ( i only mention this so you understand how i kinda tapered or had my tolerance lowered from spaced out w/d and kinda smaller doses)
loner history would be i used oxy for a solid 4 years b4 5ish months of subs then i quit for about a year, then was on perc 10s that would get me high for about 8 mothns then i started to use heroin for 2 years.. just quit monday
so what u think. think ill get w/d? i want to use tomarrow. that will be around 6 hours short of 7full days without anything( i like to count my days starting at 24hours AFTER my last dose)
if u think i will when do u think is safe. i dont want to hurt myself with w/d again
im going to have drug tests and this is why ive quit, and it has forced me to be really sucessfull. its weird, i want to use as soon as i can and gret away with it both legally and physically, and im happy to not be a slave, i like the way i feel better everyday. but i still have designs its weird. guess this is the addict for life thing i hear. and my dreams...my fucking dreams.
in my dream last night. i met a girl from highschool who i used to date/want but nothing happened (cept with her friend - HEYYAA). n after dating we never saw each other she started using and moved outa state, so i was at like a house party and she had OC 95s that were black ( lmao i know dreams) i immediastly wanted one and in my brain was thinking on to con her cuz i had no money, she said no dont worry just pay me later and put in it my hand, i immediatly took half and chewed it idk why ( im a snorter). using dreams are weird, especially when u wake up thinking u have some left over for a quarter of a second.
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