slimshady793
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Hi guys,
I am just 25 and having these problems for a few years now....I am going to visit a doctor in near future, because I didnt. The thing is, I make holidays in ost europe, in about less than two weeks. I stopped smoking today, exercise daily and maybe order some MACA which is really helpful with libido problems, it definately worked with me a few years ago.
( am not arrogant, but many and yeah beautiful women find me attractive and I could have had them all and guess what I had only Sex once in my whole Life with 19 after a bottle of wodka, with a girl I knew an hour, but I just didnt came and still had some kind of erection problems and I didnt felt anything, like my penis is numbed.. Not that I dont get it up anymore, but the erection doesnt get as hard as it should and gets away without permanent stimulation and I have serious problems to come with or without drugs.
So, I could have had so many women , but I doesnt even started anything, because of these really really serious problems which ...I dont know how to say...it is disturbing, depressing, and yeah , its just FUCKED!
I started smoking with 14, daily cannabis till 17, drunk every weekend, but always horny and always an erection when I woke up. That didnt happen since years.
At 18 I started getting depressed, had insomnia, abused more and more drugs, and more damaging like stimulants until now, gbl, benzos, etc etc. But the problems started with 18, before the heavy abuse began, it started when I developed depersonalization disorder and the start of that began with an event, something traumatic, not drug induced.
Now, when I am on stims and look a porn, my dick goes up, just the erection isnt as hard, and I feel pretty much numbed, even when clean. So there is no real feeling, just hornyness in my head while looking porn. And I literally feel anything when having sex with a women.
I am not saying drugs doesnt play a role in these problems, but I dont think that they are the usual case.
However, when I am in holidays, I dont give a fuck anyway , nobody knows me, whatever happens there, stays there. The only thing that comes in mind is that I am going to do is fucking hookers or students, party and drugs.
I have extra ordered Acetildenafil ordered at least to get a decent erection, well I hope I will, I cant find much about dosage or experience with it, so I am afraid to test it. The second thing is, I will definately drink in clubs, bars, and probably take something else too.
Drinking and Mirtazapine is no problem, even if I add benzos to it, no problems. I think I will avoid taking stimulants, because of the vasoconstiction which is in my case very contraproductive.
Does anyone know if its safe to drink, maybe take a benzo, add the acetildenafil and probably take ...well I dont know, psychedelics seems just not to fit for going out and so on. MDMA makes me just loving everybody, I dont see any reason to fuck because everything feels great enough on it.
I probably would add a small amount on some kind of stimulant, but I dont know how it affects with the acetildenafil. I heard its a serious dangerous combination, even if I read often about taking stims and then viagra.
Any advice and maybe a link how to dose this. I would definately try it sober first, before considering combining it.
I am just 25 and having these problems for a few years now....I am going to visit a doctor in near future, because I didnt. The thing is, I make holidays in ost europe, in about less than two weeks. I stopped smoking today, exercise daily and maybe order some MACA which is really helpful with libido problems, it definately worked with me a few years ago.
( am not arrogant, but many and yeah beautiful women find me attractive and I could have had them all and guess what I had only Sex once in my whole Life with 19 after a bottle of wodka, with a girl I knew an hour, but I just didnt came and still had some kind of erection problems and I didnt felt anything, like my penis is numbed.. Not that I dont get it up anymore, but the erection doesnt get as hard as it should and gets away without permanent stimulation and I have serious problems to come with or without drugs.
So, I could have had so many women , but I doesnt even started anything, because of these really really serious problems which ...I dont know how to say...it is disturbing, depressing, and yeah , its just FUCKED!
I started smoking with 14, daily cannabis till 17, drunk every weekend, but always horny and always an erection when I woke up. That didnt happen since years.
At 18 I started getting depressed, had insomnia, abused more and more drugs, and more damaging like stimulants until now, gbl, benzos, etc etc. But the problems started with 18, before the heavy abuse began, it started when I developed depersonalization disorder and the start of that began with an event, something traumatic, not drug induced.
Now, when I am on stims and look a porn, my dick goes up, just the erection isnt as hard, and I feel pretty much numbed, even when clean. So there is no real feeling, just hornyness in my head while looking porn. And I literally feel anything when having sex with a women.
I am not saying drugs doesnt play a role in these problems, but I dont think that they are the usual case.
However, when I am in holidays, I dont give a fuck anyway , nobody knows me, whatever happens there, stays there. The only thing that comes in mind is that I am going to do is fucking hookers or students, party and drugs.
I have extra ordered Acetildenafil ordered at least to get a decent erection, well I hope I will, I cant find much about dosage or experience with it, so I am afraid to test it. The second thing is, I will definately drink in clubs, bars, and probably take something else too.
Drinking and Mirtazapine is no problem, even if I add benzos to it, no problems. I think I will avoid taking stimulants, because of the vasoconstiction which is in my case very contraproductive.
Does anyone know if its safe to drink, maybe take a benzo, add the acetildenafil and probably take ...well I dont know, psychedelics seems just not to fit for going out and so on. MDMA makes me just loving everybody, I dont see any reason to fuck because everything feels great enough on it.
I probably would add a small amount on some kind of stimulant, but I dont know how it affects with the acetildenafil. I heard its a serious dangerous combination, even if I read often about taking stims and then viagra.
Any advice and maybe a link how to dose this. I would definately try it sober first, before considering combining it.