TestOfSanity
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 18, 2011
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And i don't even take many. I've posted here before, but has been awhile. I was on heroin and oxy's for years, and then started taking subs during dry spells. By now i have been taking buprenorphine on a regular basis for 5+ years.
At this point, im down to 32mgs every 4 weeks, but i don't take it daily. I take them for 2 and a half weeks till they're gone, then nothing for a week and a half. Its kind of a toturious thing to do to myself. The addict in me can't moderate smaller doses, when i know i have more. I will think about it until i take more.
Im technically on day 3 with no opioids, and by next wednesday when i get more subs it'll be 10 days. But for the next week i will dream about drugs. By monday, i won't be able to sleep anymore, due to anticipation for getting more subs wednesday. Pathetic really. Then when i finally get them, I'll take 2mg, and because my tolerance has gone down, the high will be disgusting and dirty. But sometime in the next few days, as my tolerance climbs, ill get to a nice feeling high, a warm glow. After that, i will be chasing that high, and before i know it 2 and a half weeks will have passed. And the cycle will repeat.
Anyone who is looking into subs, definitely try a fast tapering method. I think i can get off eventually, but right now I'm stuck.
At this point, im down to 32mgs every 4 weeks, but i don't take it daily. I take them for 2 and a half weeks till they're gone, then nothing for a week and a half. Its kind of a toturious thing to do to myself. The addict in me can't moderate smaller doses, when i know i have more. I will think about it until i take more.
Im technically on day 3 with no opioids, and by next wednesday when i get more subs it'll be 10 days. But for the next week i will dream about drugs. By monday, i won't be able to sleep anymore, due to anticipation for getting more subs wednesday. Pathetic really. Then when i finally get them, I'll take 2mg, and because my tolerance has gone down, the high will be disgusting and dirty. But sometime in the next few days, as my tolerance climbs, ill get to a nice feeling high, a warm glow. After that, i will be chasing that high, and before i know it 2 and a half weeks will have passed. And the cycle will repeat.
Anyone who is looking into subs, definitely try a fast tapering method. I think i can get off eventually, but right now I'm stuck.