Greetings, fellow medicated individuals! i am elated to have found an area, not about getting high, but focused on HARM REDUCTION. my good ol doc has me pegged as bipolar, however the closest description to my personal experiences being unwell, would be bipolar type schizoaffective disorder, much heavier on the bipolar side. also have SEVERE rls (no joke its actually that bad) . pretty bad ADHD,mild insomnia and 2 separate doses of PTSD from rolling over in a ditch in an 18 wheeler.. im kinda screwy so to speak. my doc is a little old school, but his advice has generally been positive.
my doses. adderall xr (calming, focus, better listening, not cutting people off in convo, and oddly, slightly improved sleep if dosed therapeutically) . temazepam . pure RLS and insomnia releif, best sleeps ever, cautious user never an abuser on that one. 3 months in on tem, used correctly, and i am now TERRIFIED of experiencing withdrawal from that, its the worst ive had by far
adderall and temaz, make me feel and function better, essentially, meds for ME
divalproex - i almost feel like he wants me on this one less for me, and more for the people around me, but i am unsure of this med, i associate it with feeling slow heav...y and tired, and im not fussy on being forced to take it... and it seems to worsen RLS
with the ideal of harm reduction, i think i could benefit greatly from someone who has long term experience on divalproex, and it's effects, and maybe even help it 'click' in my head why doc insists i be on it
the adderall side is funky... 3 years ago i had a coke problem, probably wouldnt have ever touched it had i had the adderall. adderall is the medicine for me that stops me from getting lost in each moment and not even realize i put a tool somewhere for something.
the flip side of the coin - i will be the first to admit. i have a touch of the typical adderall junkie.. i could benefit greatly from individuals familiar with it to find a healthy balance. at the end of the day its gotta be like 85 percent therapy and 15 percent "i need an extra buzz today" . adderall helps with adhd big time but also doubles as the crutch that keeps me off the street meds
temazepam - used as medecine only, however some nights after 4 hours, the odd night i actually legitimately need a second 30 mg dose at 230 am to sleep, and i try to go without those nights.. anyone familiar with temazepam.. i could use general advice. after 3 months, skipping one night of tem makes me feel like i might DIE. adderall craving in comparison, is mild and tolerable, tem withdrawal, is nearly crippling
all that said, pleased to be here for the greater good, and a reasonable balance of healthy, comfy, and happy :D
