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Hi...
I developed schizophrenia a few years ago but was fortunate enough for it to go into almost complete remission. I was essentially symptom free for around 10 months but then I started getting anxiety problems. I also began to become convinced I had an underlying problem that was causing the anxiety & I got a referral to the mental health people. Not much really panned out other than they thought I showed some signs of adhd & some of aspergers... they did however say it sounded like I was suffering from mild gad whilst adjusting back to real life again.
Anyway... to get to the point... after lots of sessions & going on ssris, they said I would be fine if I just stayed on the ssris for a while. Even up until the last I was still trying to fit some of my symptoms into aspergers & had mooted the idea my voices (which had appeared back) were OCD but they just brushed that off as health anxiety & seeing symptoms where I wanted to. Getting home after all this... I felt compelled to look up the symptoms of schizophrenia for some reason & I realised that I must be in the process of relapsing.
I've been losing interest in things, becoming less sociable & wanting to just spend time alone, staring off into space sometimes, voices are back, I've just started waking up at 4am unable to get back to sleep every night, having little to say, forgetting what I was saying midspeech or not being able to get things across clearly... I also realised I'm paranoid/suspicioius & have some mild delusions of persecution. The voices had appeared once or twice a while back before staying but I figured the voices were the only thing bothering me until I got insight a few days ago.
With my initial psychotic episode, I had no insight for about 2 months or so but eventually had full insight after 6 months or so. It's seems to me that I've obviously had partial insight for the past few months because I knew I was ill but not what with.
I'm aware that apparently the longer you get into the process of relapsing, you run the risk of having another full blown episode & may never return to the state you were before. At the moment it's not too serious & I have insight, which is good but I'm not sure whether I should go to the hospital & get some medication this weekend or wait for a referral, which might mean I don't get any medication until the end of the week. I was 'discharged' from my psychiatrist who seeing me for the schizophrenia, so I'm not sure how that would work... I don't really need to check myself in.
I've no idea whether getting insight means I'm past the worst or not... the insomnia would seem a worrying sign to me.
thoughts...?
I developed schizophrenia a few years ago but was fortunate enough for it to go into almost complete remission. I was essentially symptom free for around 10 months but then I started getting anxiety problems. I also began to become convinced I had an underlying problem that was causing the anxiety & I got a referral to the mental health people. Not much really panned out other than they thought I showed some signs of adhd & some of aspergers... they did however say it sounded like I was suffering from mild gad whilst adjusting back to real life again.
Anyway... to get to the point... after lots of sessions & going on ssris, they said I would be fine if I just stayed on the ssris for a while. Even up until the last I was still trying to fit some of my symptoms into aspergers & had mooted the idea my voices (which had appeared back) were OCD but they just brushed that off as health anxiety & seeing symptoms where I wanted to. Getting home after all this... I felt compelled to look up the symptoms of schizophrenia for some reason & I realised that I must be in the process of relapsing.
I've been losing interest in things, becoming less sociable & wanting to just spend time alone, staring off into space sometimes, voices are back, I've just started waking up at 4am unable to get back to sleep every night, having little to say, forgetting what I was saying midspeech or not being able to get things across clearly... I also realised I'm paranoid/suspicioius & have some mild delusions of persecution. The voices had appeared once or twice a while back before staying but I figured the voices were the only thing bothering me until I got insight a few days ago.
With my initial psychotic episode, I had no insight for about 2 months or so but eventually had full insight after 6 months or so. It's seems to me that I've obviously had partial insight for the past few months because I knew I was ill but not what with.
I'm aware that apparently the longer you get into the process of relapsing, you run the risk of having another full blown episode & may never return to the state you were before. At the moment it's not too serious & I have insight, which is good but I'm not sure whether I should go to the hospital & get some medication this weekend or wait for a referral, which might mean I don't get any medication until the end of the week. I was 'discharged' from my psychiatrist who seeing me for the schizophrenia, so I'm not sure how that would work... I don't really need to check myself in.
I've no idea whether getting insight means I'm past the worst or not... the insomnia would seem a worrying sign to me.
thoughts...?