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how are you in one word? v. Happiness is in your hands

Needy

I'm emotionally unstable. I need love and I am also filled with hate. I'm crying and whining about my adversity instead of just being great.
 
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Having a whinge sometimes can be beneficial, as long as there's balance!

On the subject of love and hate, I kind of feel you there, except I'm not so filled with hate anymore. It's an old cliche but it's true, you need to learn to love and accept yourself before other people are likely to do it. If you can find it within you to show yourself some love I find other people tend to follow suit.

Today I feel positive. I feel like everything is going to be ok. I'm slightly wary in that every time I feel like this I tend to lose the plot and feel terrible shortly after, but I'm cautiously optimistic.
 
lonely

Today and tomorrow there is a free contest of skill in the field that I am an expert in. If I can win some prize money (no guarantee, even with my skill level it will still require some luck.) then I can afford to hire an escort, which would be a huge mood brightener. Time to stop feeling emotional and focus on business.
 
^LOL their faces! especially when he says "there is no bathroom"=D

confused, as usual, but with a healthy degree of detachment. Being an observer of your own 'self' can be fascinating even when it fails to be illuminating.8)
 
Fucking miserable. Took the day off bc of some family shit, and the second feeling from this is upsetting.bull fucking shit.
 
stressed. Coming to work today for a full day for yearly inventory with not enough time to fix inventory problems....
 
Anxious.

I procrastinated too long and now have to paint 2000 sq ft interior in two days. Better get at it!
 
undefeated

like the tat across the belly (and across my scars) says
 
I'm in limbo, I almost feel like everything and everyone is moving so fast around me and I'm just stuck watching things pass me by.

And I'm so fucking sad it hurts I fucking wish life would just give everyone one wish to use in life, because I would want my mother back so I could hug her and talk with her and tell her how much I love her.

I miss everything about her, now she is just a memory she is no longer tangible.

I'm just empty...
 
^oh sweetheart i wish i can give u a hug right now ♡♡. I hope cyber hug is ok :D


Motivated now. I am working today and its the 7th straight day and i am still reconciling our inventory. I hope to do as much as i can so that when the auditors come on wednesday we are prepared. I have informed my manager of the impossible problems to fix on our inventory list and she now has a resolution. I have to make this through until the end of this year im already the best employee so if i stick it up and make through this chaos i will be rewarded. Our new manager is God send!!
 
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