I have visited this site for the longest time and always used it for information that is provided by others. I have never posted anything until now. I will keep this as short as possible but will provide enough details to allow you to know what's going on. I started using at the age of 18 which was in 2007 and I started out with Roxy 30s and OCs. For several months I only when I was going out but after time the usage escalated. From November 2007 to August 2009 was the time of my addiction of pain pills and cocaine. Like I said my usage escalated and so did my life of an addict. Went from being a good kid to, stealing from friends, family, and jobs to losing my job from stealing and just being a manipulative self centered asshole. At first it as all about feeling good and going out to waking up wondering what I was going to break in or steal next to get my next fix. I did things I would have never imagined doing. Finally after so many attempts from love ones to help me out, and short stay treatments I was faced with a choice. It was either living in the streets of a Tampa, Florida or moving to North Carolina to a two year substance program. I had no choice and went to the program. From Aug 2009 to around Nov 13 I was clean from opioids and cocaine. I completed the program, turned my life around and landed a job that turned I to a career. In November I was working out one day and hurt my back and didn't think anything of it. It ended up that I slipped a disc in my back which caused sciatic pain in my leg. Never dealt with so much pain in my life. It gave me an excuse to lose and with my years of being sober I thought I could handle it and I did at first but damn I knew I was playing with fire and it sure enough bit me in my ass. So pretty much from November till now I have been using Oxys and herion on and off. I'm snorting not shooting. There's time were I get off the shit and stay clean for a few weeks but then I go back to it. Now I'm still myself. I don't miss work, I haven't stolen, but damn man I know eventually if I keep using it will only get worse. I know the logical thing to do is just quit but as an current or ex addicts you guys can relate to know how now much you have in front of you but still come up with an excuse to use. I can't lie, I like being high but I know this shit has to stop before I start really fucking up my life. I have to much going in for me and I know this but I need help. I've done suboxone before back when I first started using but I didn't have any will to quit at the time. This time I do. So is suboxone a worthy option? As far as withdrawals go I'm not even worried about it. I can honestly get over it all in less then 4 days with it only being minor. I know suboxone is not just the answer to my problem. There's issues that I do need to address but the cravings are what sucks. I know once I get back being sober I can continue were I left off. I just know the way I'm heading is only going to lead me to disaster.