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Hello,

Naturally being a lover of psychoactive substances I have come across bluelight threads during google searches for years.
I have been casually lurking bluelight for the last couple months.
I have read through around 50 threads here as well as other similar forums but I have found this forum to have the most educated and mature community.
For this reason and because, considering my rather extensive experience with drugs I feel I could contribute, I decided to register and become an active member.
I am 27 years old.
I have used many psychoactive substances but opiates are the only ones I have had an addiction to.
I am interested in educating myself and others for the purpose of harm reduction and generally making my experiences with substances more efficient.
I live in Oakland, California and work at a tech company.
I look forward to meeting you all.

I have one question, is the whole SWIM/My Friend/My Dog format mandatory or optional?
I read the rules and I still was not clear on this.

-ijuJ
 
Hi and welcome DG!

Using Swim isnt allowed here, we just speak in the first person. Glad you've become a member. I myself was an opiate addict for a few years, and ive learned a great deal from this site. Welcome!!!
 
Welcome to BL:)

I'm an opiate addict too have been almost a decade.

PM me if you want o talk some more or you can add me as a friend.
 
thanks everybody,

train I have been an addict for only a little over a year, before that I was a casual user of opiates but they were always my favorite.

my friend killed himself recently and as a result i decided to get clean.
I was successful but relapsed about 3 weeks after I completed withdrawal.
At the time I was taking about 80 mg of oxycodone a day which to some is a small habit but the withdrawal was no joke.
These days I use heroin and methadone and probably have a slightly higher tolerance than before.
I do plan on quitting before my addiction gets worse the only problem is my family and girlfriend think I am clean now and if I were to go into withdrawal again they would know and I am very scared of losing my girlfriend whom I love very much.
I hate lying to her and I know a lot of addicts hate lying to their loved ones as well.
 
Hi and welcome to Bluelight :)
IMHO, you should tell your gf that you relapsed but that you intend to quit for good now.
I don't know her of course, but I think she understands that opiate addiction is no joke, and quitting is not a walk in the park.

anyway, good luck with everything :)
 
ComfortablyNumb95 said:
Hi and welcome to Bluelight :)
IMHO, you should tell your gf that you relapsed but that you intend to quit for good now.
I don't know her of course, but I think she understands that opiate addiction is no joke, and quitting is not a walk in the park.

anyway, good luck with everything :)
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I already did that last time I quit.
It really hurt her because she realized how much I had lied to her about but she got over it and was supportive.
The problem is now she says things like "I couldn't handle it if I found out you were lying again".
She does understand that but she takes it personally when she finds out she was lied to.
 
I don't know its a tough decision but if you think about it by not telling her your lying so why not just tell her and if she can't deal with it that's the way it has to be addiction is a rough fucking road man you'll be an addict till the day you die she will have to come to terms with that and so will you cause that switch can't be shut off or at least we don't have a cure for addiction yet recovery takes hard work and people still have to go to AA/NA meetings after being clean for 20-30 years and many relapseany many times nobody does it first try(well sure someone has but its RARE) its all part of the process.
 
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I agree with you that out of the seemingly endless variety of "drug forums" that bluelight seems to have the coolest community !

Haha Oakland, I'm over the bridge is the SFC . Stay safe over there , I'm always scared shitless to go over there . Used to go out there a lot near Churches Chicken cause my Oxy dude lived around there , but thank god I don't have to go out there anymore . Lol too scary...

Anyways, welcome to BL friend %)
 
Hey welcome.

I'm from the Bay too. How's Cokeland? Oakland is one rough city. Great drug market tho%)
 
Hey freon what part of the bay are you from ? I'm really from San Jose but I rep Frisco because that's where I am all the time . Well was; living in Boulder, CO as of late living with my girlfriend.

Had to get away from the bay due to me hanging' around Leavenworth too much (pill hill tenderloin lol); too much roxy. God do I miss the bay though, sigh :| .

I miss cruzin' the beach in Santa Cruz, hittin the pier and art museums and all the great eats in the SFC; plus the bay area is just so god damned beautiful. San Jose is just so god damned boring; thank god there are so many amazing places surrounding it.

Well , welcome to bluelight to both or you. Enough with the reminiscing.
 
Ahh, I'm from Sf
I used to drive to Oakland all the time, dealer lives there or meet him on Pill Hill, in TL. I'm kinda scared and might need to move myself. I could pick up just about any drug any time and it's just too available. 1 month off H and it crosses my mind every day... If I used once I would probably die, or od, if I ingested the amount I was using... Scared as hell about that one...

Anyways, welcome and good luck to you... Must be hard as you want to tell the truth which is already difficult to do, well speak for myself as an addict, ... and she's telling you not to in a way... It seems. It would feel quite rejecting even if she doesn't mean it, to push away... She seems scared...

For me not telling the truth keeps me separated, compartmentalizing and wanting things to be what they are not to please others... Anyways, I feel ya!
Hope you find some areas on this site you enjoy! :)s
 
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Hey Dg,

Santo from Berkeley here. I'm not an addict when it comes to opiates but I use them occasionally. Pm me or if people on here could give advice on how to know when you are flirting along the lines of addiction.
 
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