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makosoldier

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I have been through many trials and tribulations and tried many avenues to fit in a world that I don't quite understand. I have finally realized what I am ( drug addict) and I don't want to fight it anymore... I am looking to educate myself to live peacefully with everyone and everything around me in this world... thankful to anyone willing to help me... I hope I am not to vague.
 
Hey Makosoldier, welcome to Bluelight. :)

How many of us actually do understand the world in all of the weird and wonderful ways that it works? A lot less than most would think. It's good of you to educate yourself though and you should commend yourself for trying to further your knowledge.

Make sure to stop by Basic Drug Discussion, Other Drugs or The Dark Side (TDS) if you need a place to vent.

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/16-Basic-Drug-Discussion

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/58-Other-Drugs

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/47-The-Dark-Side
 
Welcome to Bluelight:)

I've come to the same conclusion too ever since I was 15 I knew this but this is the life we chose now its up to us to play these cards its a rough fucking battle I tell you but we are here for you and many of us are in the same position as you right now so we can relate.

I remember my first opiate was one single percocet and I felt like I could do anything oce the narcotic hit my bloodstream I knew right away I was in for a world of shit. I was right the pills led me to heroin which felt even better and got me more addicted than I could have ever imagined.

Almost ten years later I'm still chasing this high to the gates of insanity Suboxone saved me for now but it only covers up this sickness that lies within me the problem is still there. I've seen so many good hard working people succumb to heroin addiction and are left worthless zombies going through the motions hustle get money get dope get high then repeat they lose family's jobs, entire businesses even putting their family on the streets and still they cannot stop their obsession with this drug. I hardly see any good in the dope game it has brought me a lot of pain and hurt taken away my dreams for the future, damaged my body and nost of all taken away my zest for life.

But there is a reason we continue using despite all the pain and hurt it seems to bring us like the quote from the movie trainspotting
"People think it's all about misery and desperation and death and all that shite, which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it. Otherwise we wouldn't do it. After all, we're not fucking stupid. At least, we're not that fucking stupid."

One thing I have learned about the dope game is it never ends good I mean I had it set selling dope and being able to do as much as I i wanted but even still it wouldnt last eventually you get caught and its all due to heroin making you its bitch. Another thing to remember is there are no friends in the drug game.

PM me if you ever want to talk or add me as a friend if you wish to.
Hope you find as much use out of this site and enjoy it as much as I have in my short time here:)
 
trainspotter10102 said:
Welcome to Bluelight:)

I've come to the same conclusion too ever since I was 15 I knew this but this is the life we chose now its up to us to play these cards its a rough fucking battle I tell you but we are here for you and many of us are in the same position as you right now so we can relate.

I remember my first opiate was one single percocet and I felt like I could do anything oce the narcotic hit my bloodstream I knew right away I was in for a world of shit. I was right the pills led me to heroin which felt even better and got me more addicted than I could have ever imagined.

Almost ten years later I'm still chasing this high to the gates of insanity Suboxone saved me for now but it only covers up this sickness that lies within me the problem is still there. I've seen so many good hard working people succumb to heroin addiction and are left worthless zombies going through the motions hustle get money get dope get high then repeat they lose family's jobs, entire businesses even putting their family on the streets and still they cannot stop their obsession with this drug. I hardly see any good in the dope game it has brought me a lot of pain and hurt taken away my dreams for the future, damaged my body and nost of all taken away my zest for life.

But there is a reason we continue using despite all the pain and hurt it seems to bring us like the quote from the movie trainspotting
"People think it's all about misery and desperation and death and all that shite, which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it. Otherwise we wouldn't do it. After all, we're not fucking stupid. At least, we're not that fucking stupid."

One thing I have learned about the dope game is it never ends good I mean I had it set selling dope and being able to do as much as I i wanted but even still it wouldnt last eventually you get caught and its all due to heroin making you its bitch. Another thing to remember is there are no friends in the drug game.

PM me if you ever want to talk or add me as a friend if you wish to.
Hope you find as much use out of this site and enjoy it as much as I have in my short time here:)
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I was just talking about this exact quote today.
I am also a new member (i just made a thread) and an opiate addict.
Great post!
 
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